♥ Specially for you once again. Goodbye.


" so fall out my head, out of my hand "

&Boy, perhaps its time that i should let everythinq qo.
Honestly, im still planninq to wait for you,
But holdinq on to somethinq that will never be the same anymore and its never gonna be mine, i feel so dumb, so stupid, just like a fool.

Lettinq qo of someone who is so important to me is hard, but holding on to someone who i know is not gonna be mine is even harder.

Your feelings towards me has already faded lonq lonq aqo.
&Time has proven to me that its already the fact and i shld have accepted this fact long ago.
Thanks for the care and love you showered on me in the past. It'll be memories, sweet sweet memories.
Though times spent with you were short, but those times spent with you were the happiest time i ever had.
I'll never forget how The first time i get to know you, the First time meeting you, the First time chatting with you. The First time you bring me to see doctor when i'm sick.
All this will never be forgotten.
& i hope you won't forget too.
i've trying my best to changed. & i did changed alot. have you notice? or you didn't bother to do so? nvm.

I am sorry that i've create alot of nonsense and gave you alot of trouble. :)
I'll kept my promises that i've made to you.
I won't cry anymore, but i can't be 100% sure that i won't cry again.
Cause sometimes i'll think of you and cry silently.
I won't cut my wrist anymore, neither will i smoke to destress.

i've been updating my blog.
You say that you will come and read my blog everyday yea.
Have you been reading it?. i hope you did.
Promise me that you will update me with your life too, alrights?
You will still ring me up to chat de, right?

You keep askinq me to move on.
You asked me to find back a new me.
I'm trying, trying my very best to, really.
I'm movinq on.

And i've already leave everything to FATE.
And i've learnt what's gone is gone, If we'r meant to be, we will still be together one fine day.

I'm gonna smile like nothing has happened again.
Carry on with my life like what you told me to.
I hope in your heart i'll still be the xiao zhu that you knew, &i hope i won't be forgotten by you.
Like this, i'm already contented :D

Take care boy, i hope that girl who's with you by ur side now is takinq good care of you and i hope she's not like me who only know how to piss you off, always giving you attitude, only know how to hurt you, making you worry. And i hope she'll appreciate you more than i do, cause i think my heart is already dead, numb by now.
Do eat all ur meals on time, don't skip ur meals k?
Do Ring me up, if you need a listening ear cus i'll always be there for you.

You gonna go serve the NS in a couple of months, do enjoy urself with the leftover time.
I really hope i will be able to meet you up before you go serve the NS.
will i be able to?


No matter where you are, you'r always remembered by me. ((:



Goodbye my love, Goodbye.

sup people(:
finally, i found the time to blog.

yesterday, woke up earlier than usual in the morninq to meet huili buddy for breakfast.
Went 0ver t0 honq kah east MAC to had breakfast instead.
its been awhile since i last ate MAC breakfast ya.



chit-chat, slacked awhile, went bac to JP and home-sweet-home.
i was still feelinq tired, so i took a nap.
woke up, bath-ed & prepared myself and headed to JP to meet Yan Binq sis for dinner.

Aftermath, we slacked at Jp while waitinq for Penq Hock and Louis.
It's been almost a wk since i last saw them, and i really misses them luhs, miss their lame jokes only! Tsk.. Tsk..

Louis reached first, he suggested to go 651.
And so we headed there while waiting for Peng Hock.
Slacked at the coffeeshop, d0 some catchinq up with each other.
Sis need to reach home at about 11, so peng hock send her home.
they ask mi to go louis condo there to slack, but i was too tired to do so, so i went home instead.

wow. what a day!
Can holiday faster end?. i'm gettinq bored already.
i rather spent time in school studyin, at least i've wonderful classmates to entertain me. lala ~

0h wells, today supposed to catch a movie at town with peng hock, louis together with Sis.
but peng hock & louis couldn't make it.
Argh, sighs. Nvm.

So i meet up with Sis instead.
we went Vivo, lunch-ed at Long John Silver.
i bought a T-shirt.
Shop around the whole shoppin mall till the both of us bored to death!
Lols! even though Vivo is BIG.
But i tell you, you can walked until sian de lorr! -.-"

Headed home aftermath for dinner as i promised mum to had dinner at home.

0h wells. photos for the day!











And and and lastly before i go, tell you people a secret. SHHHSSS!
Pete the dumb pig has slept frm morn 3am till now. you people count how many hrs he had slept!
Arghhh! and its really damns difficult to wake him up la. =x
Nvm, i'm off to disturb him le. hiak hiak ~

Goodbyes people. ((:


"sometimes if you can sense it, you will realise i still misses you alot alot."

♥ Out with Bugis with Sis



Hellos Hellos Hellos (:
i'm back t0 bl0gginqq.

Last niqht, Pete the dumbpig was sucha a sweetie.
knowinq that i'm in a v.down mood, He came d0wn all the way to my hse and look for me.
I couldn't control my tears and cried infront of him.
arghh, sighs. so embrassinq.
Thanks dumb pig for lending me your shoulder to lean on to cry.
i'm sorry if i dirty ur clothes. haas.
And ur lame jokes really make me laugh my ass 0ff lahs!.
&thanks for sendinq me hme aftermath. (:

Dumb pig asked me to promise him the followinq :
1. Cannot cut my wrist again.
2. No smoking or drinking to destress.
3. Must smile.
4. Cannot went quiet suddenly when i'm outside with him.

i guess there are still some more, but i only remembered this few. oops! =x

Well, Today meet upp with Yan Binq Sis at clementi.
Headed to Bugis after that.

I asked Sis to acc me to go temple to pray as usual.
Then shop around, both of us bought a dress.
Yay! Got new dress. :D

wkdays are really suitable to shop at Bugis.
Cause there are no crowds, nobody will blocked ur view to look at things.
Unlike wkends, arghh.. ! you people, know what i mean. =x
then headed to youshinoya to had a late lunch, cus im craving for the food there.
its been awhile since i last dine in there too.



After finishing our lunch, we sat there and had a heart to heart session agns.
Told each 0ther our past.
I get emo a lil bit, but i'm alright thou.
Past are Past.
I'm gonna treat those past as a dream, something which had never ever happened before.

PHOTOS PHOTOS ! (:

Recent pics of me!

okays, i know v.zi lian.

pardon me (:

Like what dumb pig said to me, he don't worth my tears.
My tears are precious, i should cry for someone who worth my tears rather than him.
Right?

For those who cared, i'm recovering in process.
now i'm only 45% alright.
I'm still searching back the old me.

Hopefully, the bubbly cheerful XUELI will back soon. :DD


Goodbye readers.
Mwahs!

♥ This post is specially just for you, please spend some time and read it.




I know you'll be readinq my blog.
This post is dedicated just for you.
I don't know how to tell you how i'm feeling deep inside so i quess writinq it here is the best place i could i think of.

Why can't you just spare me some time and talk to me nicely?
sometimes i just wanna talk to you.
But why must you use harsh words and hurting words on me again and again?
Do you know my heart breaks each time, tears drop each time whenever you treated me in this manner?
Just like what you did ytd?
Have i done something wrong?
If yes, could you please tell me?

Do you know i'm tryinq my best to maintain the friendship we had between us.
I don't wanna lose you again.
I'm really v.afraid that even as a friend, i might even lose you again.
I really really cherish and treasure 0ur friendship.

Just like last night.
I talked to you in Msn, disturb u abit.
Because i'm just finding something to chat with you, i mean nothing.
I'm sorry if i pissed u off.
you should know me well, i always like to disturb you here and there.
and I'm also just finding a conversation to start with.
I'm really v. afraid if one of us don't wanna take the initiative to talk to each other first, the distance between us will get wider and wider.
So i decided to take the initiative first.
But i don't understand why you gave me attitude in the end.
it really hurts, really damn hurtinq.

Now, no matter what attitude u gave me or what harsh word you use on me, i will keep quiet and tolerate it.
Because i know my attitude towards you in the past is really v.bad.
I don't know what to do to make it up for you.
So i guess by keepin quiet no matter how attitude you gave is the best way ba.

I know you do cared for me, you want me to listen.
that's why you will use harsh words on me at times.
I understand.
But i just want to tell you, i'm ain't strong as you think i am.
i'm weak.
Sometimes i really can't take harsh and hurtful words.

I hope you understand how i feel.
and i don't wanna our friendship to be broken.

Goodbye.

♥Town-inq



HELLOS HUMANS (:
i'm back to bloqqing ya.

Before i continued, PETE the PIG is the best gentleman i've ever met. thanks for ur companion that night, you really make me smile. And thanks for sending me home to the doorstep to make sure i'm safely back home. hugs*

0h wells, today went town-inq with yan binq sis & yan conq.
supposed to have more people joininq us but end up all las mins have somethin on.
whatever. &honestly, i hate last minutes changes.


nevermind, headed to taka, look for Ben ben at his workplace.
its been awhile since i last met him, i'm glad to see that he is really workinq hard. is a good sign isn't?
he accompany us to makan lunch, chit-chat with him abit.
then he went back to work.

i went emo and a little bit upset after that.
but luckily i've Sis & yan conq with me, they cheer me up & let me feel that i'm not alone.
for the sake of them, i try to fake a smile in order not to make them worry.


to cheer me up a lil bit,
we went to Shaw to buy movie tickets.
we Caught the movie " the happening".







Me and Sis wanted to watch shows that will make us laugh, but most of the movie yan conq have already watched.
So we got no choice, we watched those shows that he haven't watched before yet.
Yan Conq, we are so great right?. heh.

nevermind, shall catch those comedy show with Sis the next time i go with her then.
we still have time before movie starts at 63o, so we went shoppinq around.

Sis and I bought the same tube top toqether.
Had lots of with fun with her.

& i'm sorry yan conq if we did left you 0ut at times ya.

Cam-whored with Sis as we still have some time to waste before the movie starts. =x

Back to the movie, the movie ain't really worth to watch la. Not a really good show. aww.. LOUSY.

and i'll never never go The Shaw watch movie again.
the seats, the screen all damns damns kns la. =x

Golden Villaqe is still the Best, agreed? agreed?
After the show, continued to shop around, yan conq left to meet his friend first.

Night time at Town is ♥ .
Had a really good talk with Sis.



Dear sis,

You are the first friend i made in School. although we only know each other for 2months, but we seems to understand each other v.well. You'r just like a Big big sister to me la. i know i'm makinq you worried about me all the time, i know i'm v.stubborn right sis? but whatever thinqs u've said to me, i do listen.

& i just wanna say,

SIS, thanks for beinq there for me when i need a listeninq ear and givinq me advices. i LOVES you ya <3.>

& not forgettinq the rest of my classmates, they rocks BIG TIME too!

LASTLY,





I Love You

不值得,我知道这样的你不值得我爱.

可是我还是喜欢你,喜欢你,还是选择喜欢你.

我好希望我能勇敢的再对你说,我还爱你.

REPLIES OF TAGS!

[dremer]: hello

hellos. you are?.

[Peiishann]: ohh..i in Early childhood lo..eu can go in NP one! no worries! i believe eu can..hoho

oh, u'r in early childhood? so fast hw's it? everythin alright? hopefully, i can really get into NP ba! haas. see ya ard:D

[:D]: it's time that you really move on. stop hanging onto something which doesn't meant to be yours in the first place. cheer up, ditch away those unhappy memories of that guy, and find someone who really appreciates you.

Hellos :D, thanks for droppin by and left me a tag. yup, i agreed i should move on.

but memories are still memories, is hard to forget. i'm trying my best to move on already, but i don't understand why am i still hanqing onto something which doesn't belonq to me. to admit, i still love him.

[Hui Min]: I blieve one day u will walk out of black n white..

yes girl, i hope too. hais.

[`HUILI]: buddy, i liike yours THEY BULLY ME photo. know why i liike it??

[`HUILI]: because i also wanna bully you can?!!

[`HUILI]: oops. haas. meet up soon for our photos session barhs. ke yi marhs? byebye^^

wah, buddy!! u damn bad lei, wanna bully me? how can like that? haha. nvm, come bully me then. i'm not scared. lols. yea yea, i miss photo sessions with you too! misses ya la. :D

[HUIZHI]: love you too lah. =)

yea yea. love you, love you lah. :D

[cOnG™]: u oso go eat just acia....tat place is every sat go eat de....free flow ice cream and drink...shiok like hell siia...wat leave oso can

[cOnG™]: Nuren....smile more...dun always gib moody face....like ppl owe uu money =X ....jkjk take care heehee

yup yup, i went there too. the food there is really worth ur money man. haha. don't forget you promised to treat me go there eat de hor. oops. =x

wah, like that say me? how dare youu! haha.

i'm feeling oh-so guilty





HELLOS MEOWS-OS (:


Before i continued blogging, firstly, i hereby just wanna apologies to pete. i know you might be reading my blog, i just wanna say im really sorry about last night.i know u ain't angry about it, but i super duper guilty. i didn't know that u really cabbed down all the way to my house to look for me even though is already 2 am plus in the morning and u even have to work early in the morning. And i didn't went down to look for you and make you wait. honestly, i'm really touched.

Secondly, to yan conq. thanks for lendinq me ur listening ear and call me up immediately when u know i was crying and console me. though u always likes to quarrel with me alot in school, BUT BUT BUT.. i now know u ain't that really bad la. i just wanna say, THANK YOU DUDE~

& lastly, not forgetting my dearest HUIZHI BUDDY! BUDS, you are the best! no words can describe how important you are to me! (i'm sorry, i know i'm being mushy here.) i just wanna say I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!.

And before you continue scrolling down, this post is gonna be a long and super cam-whored post with lots of photos!





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0h wells, i meet up with my catherine darling today in the afternoon.


yulinq was supposed to join us too, but due to some reason she couldn't make it.
went to dine in at Just Acia for late lunch.




i must say the food there is super nice and make ur money worth it.



all the set meals comes with free flow of drinks and ice creams! and the pricing are below 10bucks.
the amount servinq of food is really more than enough full ur stomach.
i couldn't even finished up the food.


my darling girl ordered curry chicken set meal.













while i ordered the Tori Katsu set meal.













i cam-whored with my catherine darling too.


its been ages since i last took with her!

i wanna kiss her, but she dun let mi kiss her. =x

then went walkinq awhile, i bought myself a top.

went to look for yulinq aftermath, b'cus we worried bout her so went 0ver to acc her. and so coincidence that see thenq was also on her way to look for yulinq.

and i PS pete againn!! i was supposed to meet him up but.. i'm sorry, girlfriends come first. really really sorry! forgive me ya. (:

we headed to mac, cus the three 0f them was damn hungry, while i was still damn full due to heavy late lunch earlier on.. heh.

then the mac turned into zoo because of us. wanna know why i say that? scroll down for details. hiak hiak.

Pardon us for those Unglam looks.

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First Shot - See no evil

Second Shot - Hear no evil

Third shot - Speak no evil

Fourth shot - Bo chup

Fifth Shot - They Bully me

Sixth Shot - Rabbit, Elephant, Cat

Seventh Shot - Arbish

It's time for some serious shots.

Me and see theng sis !

P.S. MIND YOU! DON'T CONTINUED SCROLLING DOWN IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING AGAINST ME. IF YOU DO, PLEASE KINDLY EXIT MY BLOG. THANK YOU!







































well, Girlfriends are my first piority for now.

girls, i really enjoy that night spend with you people. how i wish time will just stop there.
school is gonna start for you girls, while mine have only just started. And i don't know when will i be seeing you girls again. Sometimes, i really wish my girlfriends are 24/7 there for me but its impossible, everybody have their own things to do.
Girls, meet up soon alrights? remember, No matter how busy you girls are, do give each other a call okays? Miss you all! (:

On the other hand, i may seems to be alright.
but honestly speaking, i'm not.
i'm trying to smile and laugh so as not to make my friends worried for me.
that day, those words you said to on the phone is really harsh and hurting, do you know that?
i really don't understand why you always must use harsh words on me.
its really v.hurting.