im fucking stress - up !

seriously ..


ytd i finally completed 3 exams papers frm early morn 8 till 4pm.
wen i reached hme, i rush int0 my room & burst 0ut crying.
i just c0uldn't tke it anym0re.
o's lvl is really driving me crazy.
im w0rried b0ut my results. maths paper 1 ytd was difficult.
if maths fail, i dun ever dream of g0in aniwher. sighs.
i really really REALLY wanna PASS o's lvl & go POLY!
that's my g0al.
& i dun wanna disappoint my m0ma.
o's lvl exams fee is nt cheap & i dun wanna waste her m0ney.
sighs.
i really dun0s what t0 d0, im LOST.
during o's lvl peri0d, i didn't even slp well at night.
my mind was always thinkin b0ut exams exams & exams.
if nt i will be gettin nerv0us & w0rried.
am i stupid?
or was e exams really hard?.
i c0uldn't help but gettin paranoid.
but im really feelin blessed to hab w0nderful frens ard mi, supp0rting mi & consolin me.
still hab a few days t0 go bef0re this t0ugh periods ends.
i h0pe i still can endure & put myself thr0ugh.
thanks all th0se belovable f0r being there f0r me.

well, finally art paper 2 ends t0dae.
i did last min w0rk agns & i really regretted it.
joleen nv go sit for e paper. PS me. =x OOPS.
aft art paper, went to CU coffee sh0p wif catherine & yuling.
its been a long time since i last chatted wif them.
they said i c0uld hab d0ne better f0r my art if i had manage my time well.
YES! i knws.
but i didn't do it.
haiis. feel like slapping myself real hard.
nvm, at least i knws i did 'eveything on my 0wn'& didn't gif up ya.

nah nah. i've en0ugh 0f ranting 0ut my s0rr0ws.
sorry ppl, for wasting ur time readin my boring sorrows. pardon me ya(:
AT LEAST. it'll mkes mi feel much better.
SERIOUSLY, I NEED A HUG!.
who is willing to gif mi free? tsk tsk .. ..

TML no paper! YAY!
finaaalllly , XUELI CAN HAB A REST!



ii misses SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG (=

NIGHTS(:
im 0ff~ tata.

BOO!. im bac to blog(:
finally im done wif hist0ry paper ytd already.
history paper still pretty alriqht?. e only paper im satisfied wif it so far.
i really wish o's lvls can be over soon, cus its really mkin mi so tirin & stress!.
im goin ki siao le. zzz

e comin wk exams is really mkin mi ki siao soon.
m0nday im havin 3 papers in one dae?. wtf?.
n0w rushin art pre wk, u knw i feel like givin up man. hais.
i knws i won't be able to finished it on time agns. sighs.

t0dae i went to library t0 b0rr0w sme bks & went to develop sme photos.
then went to pioneer mall to join xinyi gf & frens to studi.
i left quite earli cus im nt in a gd mood agns.
i didn't really tok much & didn't really wanted to tok to.
huili knws bout it, she called mi.
then i went to jp to mit her for awhile, she pei mi walk walk 4 awhile b4 we headed hme.
thanks girl(:
she has alwaes been e one who is dere for mi wen im feelin down.
ii really hope we'll be in e same sch agns next yr.
haiis.
im really damns moody today.
time flies really fast!.

to that bastard;
who do u tink u r?.
& wad do u take mi for?.
u tink by offering money to me, i will jolly well betray my fren is it?.
_|_ u!.
i hate & depise guy like u. ta ma de.
u wanna play this kinda of games, then continue then.
dun u ever underestimate girls.

arghhhh, im really damns pissed off lahs ~


moringo ~
my ai ai (:
huizhi buddy bought it for mi.
loves buddy <3

UNCLE MIKE, DON'T FORGET U STILL OWE MI A TREAT !
faster ord !. lalalas .



don't push me so hard.

well, managed to find some time to blog :D
taken my chem o's lvl paper ytd.
fuck hell!. i find it difficult lahs, others feels e same way too.
im kinda of disappointed lo.
ii dun like chemistry & i did try my best to study for it.
keep worried bout it too & end up ... ... sighs.
i concentrate more on organic chemistry's chapter which most ppl tot e qns will come out more on tat.
end up, only a few qns was on tat chapter lahs. wth lo!.
wenever e chapter i concentrate more on it,never come out.
e ones which i din even really read it, came out. ta ma de.
im really really disappointed lahs.
tml having history's paper, gonna studi for it.
studying chapter 2,3&6.
hopefully god dun fool wif mi agns.
im really really damns worried nw tat e chapter im gonna studi for won't cum out tml lo. arghh.

today is geography paper.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE TAKING GEOGRAPHY STUDENTS. all e best!.

is this yr o's lvl gonna me tough on us?.
wondering -.-

some photos which i pr0mised upload it.
here it goes:


me & moma (:

<3










alriqht, managed to upload some.
e rest shall upload it up e next time bahs.
im 0ff t0 study - ing.
will blog agns asap.

god bless (:

HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN B"DAE TO XIAO QING
& ZHEN FU!. hope you both did enjoy ur dae.

rainy rainy days !(:

jus a short lil update f0r t0dae.
went 0ut in e afterno0n to pioneer mall mac wif my xin yi girlfriend (:
spent alm0st e wh0le afterno0n studyin chemistry.
gf's classmates was dere too!.
her classmates was damns funni lahs, keep suan-ing ppl. LOLS.

we both left mac for hme ard 730.
rainin at tat time, so we decided to went giant to walk one round b4 we headed 4 hme.

arghh. u knw wad?
chem's paper is on e wed & i still hab many many tings nid to memorize!.
feeling so stress wors. haiis.
may god bless.

alriqht, im off t0 studyin agns.
shall update fotos on my mummy pagneat competition aft my chem paper bahs.
nights ppl(:

'smetimes, i will still dream 0f u at night.
i may wonder hw u r doing lately.
but aft all, it doesn't concern mi animore.'

sup yo.
time really flies & i had already finished my o's lvl practical exams ytd.
& its really wad e 'F' lahs.
i had been worried bout my o's lvl since monday & didn't even slp well at now.
end up, this is wad i get. fuck man.
i din managed to complete everiting lahs.

well, tis yr physics practical is to perform an experiment on e refraction of lights through glass block.
& we were oso asked to construct 5 diagrams of ray diagrams & ans theory qns.
wad e hell.
i spent almost an hr to complete my phy practical b4 i could move on wif my chem lahs. -.-

i was actually expecting circuit's experiment cus i dislikes e topic on refraction of light. (haha)
&in e chemistry practical, i was stuck while readin e first qns. damns it.
can u imagine im only left wif 1/2 an hr to set up everythin?!.
so, there goes my chemistry practical. -.-
aft e whole practical, i was really devestated lahs.
but im nt e onli one who feels tat way, many does.
i realli wanted to burst out crying.
is e practical supposed to help us or ruin our whole exams?.

in order to cheer myself up.
huili & i mit up at night.
went to ri ben chun to eat sushi. my favourite!










wonder y this sushi is alone?
muhaha. (cus huili too hungry le, ate it b4 i could tke foto of it).





in e middle of eating, someone called & yelled at me.
spoil my mood totally.
wtf. but huili tried to cool mi down.
& e consequences of scoldin me -> tat person vomit & had diarrhoea.
LALALAS ~ uncle, try scoldin mi e next time agns.

its been a long time since ii really cried.
e last i realli cried is cus of tat pig.
& b'cus of a idiot, i angry till i burst out cryin ytd.
i was already in e mood since morning & yet i can't even enjoy dinner peacefully.
wtf!.
im really disappointed.
nvm, i won't care bout you anymore.
wen i really care, tis i wad i get.
then FINE!.
next time i won't even bother askin u 'r u okay?'
'sorry doesn't exists in my dictionary'.

anyway, my moma is havin a beauty pageant competition tml.
JIA YOU moma.
lookin f0rward to moma on stage tml.
LOVE YOU MUMMY!.
tml shall b a busy day.



nights all belovable ppl (:

nothing much todae.
went to meet yuling in e afternoon, study together at her hse de mac dere.
her cousin was along wif us too.
&so qiao, e grp of ppl sittin beside us was oso o's lvl students.
i supposed there were express students larhs.

i sounded boring ?.
LOLs.
kaes, bye ppl (:

status : moody , not smilinq , stress .



im n0t in e mo0d t0 t0k 0r d0 wadever tings n0w.
0ut 0f e sudden, i l0st my h0pe & m0vitati0n.
wen i g0t e m0vitati0n t0 struggle f0r my o's lvl, my parents, i mean my dad ruin everiting.
u ppl shld knw, i dislikes my dad. he's always biased against mi, wadever i do, he's always unhappy b0ut it. k, fine. im used t0 it already.
BUT, i hate it wen im being accused 0f tings which i've nv d0ne bef0re.
why has it t0 be? why can't u accused my br0ther, huh?
why am i always e ones tat will be e first tat cum t0 ur mind?
ya, right. im always e bad one la.
u'r right t0 accused t0 me.
i t0ld u, i've my 0wn limits. & everyb0dy d0es.
& i really hate it wen im being accused 0f tings which i've nv d0ne b4.
wen im n0w trying hard t0 accomplished e plans i had, u ruin it.
d0 y0u knw h0w stress am i n0w?
if u aren't aware of, then shut ur bloody hell m0uth up.
i dun like studyin, i supposed n0b0dy d0es.
im havin difficulties n0w & yet im tryin my best , n0t givin up.
But u'r always naggin & naggin at me!
u'r alwaes c0mplaining tat im wastin ur blo0dy hell hard-earned m0ney t0 pay f0r my sch fees wen im n0t even studyin hard.
hey, hellos. r u sure im n0t studyin hard?
if im n0t, i could hab jus tell u, i wanna quit sch then.
wtf. u always c0mpare me wif ur frens' child.
since they'r better than mi, why dun u ask them be ur child then?
i hate t0 be c0mpared wif! everyb0dy's different.
u tink i dun wish t0 b clever, hardw0rkin? i wished t0. wh0 d0esn't?
u kn0w hw hurt is it, wen ur parents r c0mparin u wif 0ther ppl.
wen u urself kn0w, u'r n0t as gd as them?
it really HURTS!!.
everytime wen my dad comes hme frm w0rk, he'll vent all his anger 0ut like n0b0dy business.
ok, i gif u a ch0ice then, either u leave, or i leave.

smetimes, i really d0 envy 0ther ppl's dad.
s0me 0f their dad r really damns GOOD.
they really d0te 0n their daughter m0re than they d0te their son.
treat them as if they are princess larhs.
wad century already?
why are they still dads wh0 onli d0te 0n s0n onli?
f0r g0d sake.

im realli feelin so damns devestated & angry at e same time.
why am ii only getting supports frm friends?
why d0 i only heard words like 'Xueli, jia you!' , 'Don't give up, girl' , 'you can do it de'. etc etc. only frm friends??!
wad b0ut my parents?
can't they just say smethin?
r they tryin t0 tell me tat, my o's lvls d0esn't c0ncern them at all?
ok, nvm.
i won't expect them much frm them anim0re.
i'll jus d0 wad i can already, if i din d0 well, don't blame me!.

why am ii studying?!
for e sake of myself?. or?

;i hate you. if u dun even care bout me at all.
then pls dun b0ther msq me.



im 0ff t0 emo-ing (=

KONICHIWA ~



t0day m0ma nv cook f0r dinner.
lazy m0ma ~ (she tinks tat t0dae is public h0lidae, so she gif herself a break too)
h0usewife wher gt h0lidae de? muhahas.
so we had 0ur dinner at JP.
my br0ther went t0 gym bef0re tat.
0n his way t0 mit us, he met a incident in e bus whereby a bangala steal a ah man's wallet.
this is h0w e st0ry g0es :
e ah ma was carryin a handbag but she didn't zip up her bag.
so careless 0f her. tis is h0w it invite e thief t0 crime.
so this bangala was standin beside her, he put his hand int0 e ah ma's bag.
he managed t0 to0k e wallet 0ut.
& u knw wad? e ah ma din even realised it!
my br0ther saw e wh0le pr0cess & even sme of e passengers oso saw it.
but n0 0ne to0k e initiative t0 tell e ah ma b0ut it. WTF.
so my br0ther tap on e ah ma sh0ulder & told her b0ut it.
e bangala knew tat his plan had been exp0sed by my br0ther, he quickly return e wallet t0 e ah ma. COOL.
e bus was headin t0 bo0n lay interchange.
wen e ah ma aliqht e bus, she quickly caught h0ld of e bangala, she even intend t0 call e p0lice already.
but e bangala begged her n0t t0 & h0pe tat she c0uld gif him a chance.
so e kind-hearted ah ma let him 0ff.
e ah ma is really kind t0 let him 0ff, but if im were her, i dun tink i'll be so kind ba?
stupid bangala, shit y0u. c0unt urself lucky.
can't imagine tat he is really b0ld en0ugh t0 actualli steal an old ah ma's wallet in e bus! omfg.
& its really kinda 0f saddening t0 hear frm my br0 tat e pe0ple wh0 saw it did n0t make e eff0rt t0 exp0se e thief??!
0h my, i can't believe my ears.
h0w can they jus sit there d0in nth, & all0w e thief sc0tt free??!
arghh. ridicul0us.
hmm, e ah ma aft tat insist t0 treat my br0 a meal but my br0 rejected.
wad surprise me was e ah ma t0ld my br0ther tat this is her f0urth time her wallet kena st0len.
but this time she was lucky, managed t0 get bac.
wah. faint~
aiy0, ah ma. pls be m0re careful man!

hmm. my br0ther did a go0d deed t0dae.






cute right?
d0ne by jeff th0mas.

alriqht, im g0in 0ff.
takkaiire ppl~

time really flies.
its thursday already(= arghh!
met upp wif besties, huili in e afterno0n.
acc0mpany her t0 buy c0ntact lens.
had lunch at coffee united, then headed t0 library t0 study.
ask huili t0 teach mi chem & physics.
at least i clarify sme d0ubts i had. but, i still gt t0 chiongg!

can i dun sit f0r o's lvl? =x
wad a stupid qns i asked myself. LOls.

did hab fun playing & studyin wif huili t0day. muhahas.
at least i did study rather than i stay at hme slacking.
claimed my art qns paper 2 on tuesday.
0h g0d, all e stimuli given was so chim.
dun even understo0d any 0ne 0f them.
sighs.
which qns shld i CHOOSE?!
ARGHHHHHHHH ! HEN STRESS LEHS !
g0d, pls help mi!

Life is soooo b0ring.
i've g0t l0ts 0f tings wanna say, but suddenly im l0ss 0f w0rd t0 bl0g.
well, what's l0ve all ab0ut?
-> i really don't kn0w.
perhaps, t0 mi n0w l0ve is n0thing bahs.
l0ving s0me0ne is so t0rturing.
don't y0u ppl agree?
in a relati0nship, girls are always e ones wh0 will suffered e m0st.
we'r always e ones ended up crying like n0b0dy business.
sighs ~
hmm. wad am i talkin man?
why am i in this t0pic?

nvm ~
to susu daughter ;
mummy dun wanna see y0u in this state.
be str0ng k?
d0n't let ppl ard y0u wh0 cared f0r y0u w0rried b0ut y0u.
y0u'r n0t al0ne, u still hab us.
pr0ve t0 him tat u still live well w/0 him.
i understand h0w y0u feel riqht n0w.
time is all u need.
i believe u can 0verc0me all this, i've faith in y0u!
d0n't disapp0int me.
i'll always be there f0r y0u.
takkaiire my dear girl (:

LOVES <33

i'm 0ff t0 LALA land ~
nights.

Boo! ytd f0rg0t t0 update on wad i did ytd.
well, din really intend t0 step 0ut of hse ytd.
But huili asked mi to go town together wif chien juen.
i was in a dilemma whether to go 0r n0t.
then, still decided t0 g0.
cus, firstly ii wasn't in a gd mo0d.
secondly, its a rare opp0rtunity tt i can g0 0ut wif chien juen leiis! lala~
huili came t0 meet first under my blk.
while we were on e way to mit chien juen.
smethin really shocked mi & my heart really pump damns fucking fast.
we walked past a van & dun0s why i jus had e urge to turned , look wad's inside.
& it was a coffin. my g0d.
arghh. huili tried t0 calm mi d0wn. im realli sh0cked!
walked ard JP while waiting f0r chien juen arrival.
then lala to far east first.
me & huili both b0ught cardigens!.

qingwen & ivan j0in us aft tat.
qingwen b0ught donut fact0ry's donuts.
its nice lor.
then we went to wisma , walked walked ard.
then headed to cine.
ivan left first, f0ll0wed by huili & mi.
huili & mi went bac t0 JP.
we had long john silver b4 g0in hme.
haiis. i really h0pe we w0uld stay like this even th0ugh we had graduate.


` act cute us .


` la0g0ng & la0p0 always . <33



oh well, this st0rybk i jus randomly saw it frm e sch library.
so qia0!
is BUD, NOT BUDDY! (:

hmm , buddy.
so sorry.
ii kn0w u'r w0rry f0r mi b0ut my o's.
but i pr0mised i'll study hard f0r this 2 wks.
im n0t givin up.
don't w0rry b0ut mi, kaes?
s0rry.
don't WACK MI! hahas.

alriqhts, nights ppl.
im tired. shall end here.
d0 miss mi. LALALAs.

i promised to update on buddy's b'dae.
& here it goes.

well, alm0st bef0re e time i went to mit buddy.
i actually do stunt & made my buddy alm0st had a heart attack.
i called buddy & i told her i gt something on & i couldn't meet her.
i act till lyk so real & buddy was like so shocked. wahahas.
i kept laughing at my buddy wen she gt tricked by me.
so naughty of me, right? muhahas.

we went to westmall aft tat.
meet Ky & his fren, kenneth. which me & buddy dun0 him at all.
we went to eat sakae sushi.









oh well, dun drool.
e two gentlemens paid for e bill.
oh my, they'r really gentlemen. (:
thanks guys!.



proudly presents : KY & KENNETH .
e two gentlemen . muhahas .

then we went walking ard westmall.
& i alm0st wanna arbish my buddy.
she insist in doin some stupid handicraft wif those small little kids.
LOls.
nvm, its her BIG DAY! she is BIG. =x
so accompanied her.
even though e 3 of us feel so pai sehs.





ke aii right ?
done by my 3 yr old buddy . hahas .



snap snap (=

then went to mit buddy's fren , xue qi at plaza sing .
e both of us gt tricked by her int0 swensens . Lols .
i feel so xin fu, kn0w why ?
shared pasta wif buddy &
buddy feed me throughout ! lalala . thanks "mummy"

then mi , buddy , alvin & weijun went t0 The cathy to eat Ben & jerry ice-cream.



aft tat went to watched movie , The invasion .
then cabbed hme .





buddy & alvin .





e buddy friendship tat will nv be br0ken .

im d0ne wif updating .
th0ugh i alm0st 4g0t s0me of e details .

Alright alright, im gonna update a lil bit today bahs.
wanted to blog ytd but i was busy chatting & chatting.
im busy-ing chatting now too. -.-
im emo - ing agns. im feeling stress.
jus n0w, i was asking myself , am i gonna struggle for my o's & perservere till e end. or shld i give up instead?
my prelim's results really turns me off.
But, am i those kinda of person that will give up so easily?
No, im not!
i keep tellin myself to be strong & JIA YOU JIA YOU !
tat was all i could tell myself.
if you think you can, you can!

since, i've made up e choice to tke o's, i shall made e effort to study more.
even though, time is getting shorter & shorter.
i'll perservere.
who am i studyin for e sake for man?
nvm, i shall cheer up abit!
my frens ard me isn't really in gd mood too.
CHEER UP, girls!
tml will be a better day.

iLOVE my sweet sweet xinyiGIRLFRIEND.
her words said jus nw simply jus warm my heart.
<33



buddy , this is e phot0 tat im talking about to u tat dae. (:
it really reminds me b0ut l0ts of memories.
this phot0 has been pasted on my wardrobe since 6 yrs back,

oh god, ii misses my jiahui man! haiis.
alright, i've finally BLOGGED!
i blogged for huizhen request! heh heh. LOLs.

i shall update tml bout my buddy's b'dae.
cus my buddy has already update!

nights people (:
im feelin so drowsyy.

BOO!
HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!
i miss e times receiving children's day presents.
haha. too bad im nt a kid anym0re.

in 0rder n0t t0 keep my bl0g rusting, shall update a lil bit.
im having monday blues, but nvm.
tis wk, its gonna be a last wk in sch, omg.
friday gonna be graduati0n day already. -.-
i bet many will end upp crying for sure.

don't w0rry pe0ple, im enj0ying sch.
n0thing will affect me & im n0t getting myself affected by it too.
i'll enj0y! i will!

last sat celebrated my beloved buddy's sweet seventeen b'dae.
my buddy is finally seventeen! lalalas.
waiting f0r her t0 send mi e ph0t0s b4 i update f0r tat dae.
so buddy, HURRY!

shall end here then.
e cramps im having nw is killing me. =x
shall update soon in e next few daes.



this vide0 is so ke aii (:

don't b0ther c0ming here t0 visit, if u'r n0t interested in reading my p0st.
jus LEAVE. i don't welc0me y0u here.
if n0t jus shut up.