im bac here to BLOG (=

ii know i've nt been bloggin for e past few daes.
sorry peepos but im here to blog for today alright.
schooling till 330pm everidae is almost driving me crazyy!.
wad a "wonderful" timetable tat has been planned by our "wonderful" schools. heh.
imagine larhs, nowadays e weather is so fucking hot , we've to sit in e classrm to do revisions paper & sweating like hell man.
i knows e sch is doing this for e sake of us BUT during tat time of e day is really damns warm cans?
so wad if we stay bac & do revisions?
as if we can concentrate wif tat kinda of environment la.
not only tat, we attend sch early in e morning but we ends everiting late in e afternoon.
by e time we reach, we'r already half-dead man!
arghh! we need rest seriously.
im not sayin tat tis plan doesn't works, but at least ends it earlier?
or mayb dun put everidae till 430? perhaps it'll b better for us?

this is e fourth dae of sch alreadi aft e sch terms had started.
& ii realised i've been slackin for e past half - yr.
due to sme stupid problems tat caused me unable to concentrate.
& ii really gt lots of tings to catch up. sighs.
ii really regretted for wasting my time. but is too late la.
all ii can do nw is to try my best to catch up all ii can.
ii really hate to do tings which makes me regrettin in e end. haiis.
peepos, pls gif me ur support.

ii shall upload sme stuff tat i've bought last wk.
xinyiGIRLFRIEND ask me upload e fotos, but ii din get e chance to upload it, shall upload it nw since i've e time.


ii bought shoes frm design & comfort .

ii find e design of it cute.

tis is e shoe ii bought, ke ai rite?

wallet.

hp pouch frm mini toons.


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hmm.
though tat problem bout 'him' & me has already passed.
BUT honestly, ii've haven really 4get bout it.
im jus tryin to tell myself nt to tink bout it & distract my attention in other tings.
all tis while, i've really gt tat urge to msq him & call him.
smetimes im curious & wans to know hw he's doin nw.
i know ii shldn't even gif a damn bout him la, but i jus can't help myself.
ii really misses him.

&to youu.
dun try to mke urself to b like 'pig'.
u can nv replace him.
&there's no need for you to do tat.
cus no one can ever ever replaced him. get it?
i dun wish to argue wif u or wad, im tired to do tat too.

Innocence
Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life
and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around
and I am so amazed
think about the little things
that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, don't go away,
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it,
don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe,not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant I hope that it will stay
moment is perfect, please don't go away,
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's so beautiful
it makes you wanna cry

if u'r reading this,
ii really misses youu (:

currently listenin to : Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne

xueli's feelin moody nw .
reason ?
DON'T KNOW !.
but nvm, she still intends to blog .

wednesday, ii went to huizhiBUDDY hse to use her com to do sme printing stuff for my art.
while her fren was at hse bakin cookies.
well, e cookies they bake is delicious. yums*

&ytd , i was out wif huizhiBUDDY agns.
& xinyiGIRLFRIEND was askin me, y am ii wif huizhi all e time.
wher gt nia?.
ii tink she's JEALOUS. hohoho.
alright,buddy pei mi go chinatown to tke sme fotos for my art.
chinatown is really boring man.
we left aft finished tkin foto, den we decide to head to cityhall.
walked ard marina sq for awhile, den we went in to GELARE to eat ice cream.

let e foto speaks (:




buddy ordered tis.

while mine is this.

ii love eatin ice cream wen im feelin down .
cus ice cream could cheer me up ! ^.^

aft tat , we headed bac to jp .
i went to foto shop to developed sme fotos .
ii really took me quite a long time dere .
thanks buddy for accompany me.
buddy, pls cheer up ya! u seems to b troubled agns.
anythin, ring me up k?

im sleepin quite late in e nite tis few nites.
ard 3 am to 4 den went to bed.
duno y, ii jus couldn't get to slp. sighs.
& today i woke up at 930, but i gt bac & hope to slp longer.
BUT, peiyu ring me up at 10 a.m. ZzZ!
so bo bian, get up and get myself early to prepared to head to sch.
supposed to mit huili husband at 1115 downstairs, but i was late for bout 10 mins?.
den pei her to jp to get sme ting for ms hoe.
ms hoe is leavin today, haiis.
all e best to her ba.
was supposed to mit xinyiGIRLFRIEND at 130pm.
i msq her to chanqe e time to 230, cus i couldn't mke it on time.
BUT ii chanqe it to 330 instead.
& though ii send her msg to chanqe e timin, but she din even reply one of dem.
so ii decided to ring her up.
guess wad?
stupid GIRLFRIEND WAS STILL SLEEPIN !. arbish*
end up, we mit each other at bout 430 at pioneer mall.
ii reached early, she was late. ^.^
we went to mac to study , & a grp of girls realli irritate us la.
they keep singin " 扁担宽板凳长 担想绑在板凳上 扁担宽板凳长 扁担想绑在板凳上 伦敦玛莉莲买了件旗袍送妈妈 " ... ...
e s.h.e 中国话 .
wah laos , they treat e whole mac ' donalds machiam like its their hse la .
nt only tat they keep repeatin e few lines of e song only .
& their voice sucks lyk duno wad la .
me & xin yi was lyk sian diiao lors .
spoil peepos appetitie niia . oh my god man .
luckily, they left aft awhile, if nt my ear really gonna burst .
me & xin yi had dinner dere too .
chat for awhile jiu left le .

SERIOUSLY, ii really damns n0 mood nw lahs.
sighs.
wen ii t0t of tat bitch & e bastard , ii jiu du lan can?
nvm , i will always rmb hw he've hurt me.
& tat bitch fuckin face.
she's really damns bu yao lian.
IMAGINE someone tryin to console you to gif up.
& end up actually she was e one hu wanns to get tat person.
hw would u feel?.
tryin to act hao ren, in e end actually is a evil person la.
wen saw me, jus tiam tiam nv sae anithin.
hide HIDE HIDE, hide sme more la.
wans me dig a hole for u anot? so tat u can hide urself inside?
i will b v.glad to help u la.
aniwae. ii really looked down on you.
continue wif ur lies ba.
cus ii really know all e truth le.



ii really love this song .
其实还爱你 - 阿沁

currently listening to : beautiful liar - beyonce & shakira (:

blog, blOG & BLOG (=
shall update bout ytd & todae in one post.
ytd, supposed to hab a 6/2 class gathering.
though is a class gathering, but dere only 5 ppl hu turned up la.
rest of e ppl seems to be busy wif their own tings.
only me, huili, kelly, kaixiang& pau yuan turned up.
ii mit up wif huili laogong first, den mit e rest at boon lay control station.
we stay dere for quite awhile cus we haven decided wher to go. =x
cus dere was only 5 of us la.
den we decided to go marina square.
we went to canovana(shld b spell tis way)^.^ for dinner.

e five of order tis for dinner,which comes wif a drink. (:

aft dinner, we walk almost e whole marina sq.
&peepos, u knw wad?.
we walk till siians cans?. marina sq really has gt nth tat interest us.
though it is really a big shopping mall la.
den we decided to head bac to jp. lols.
sounds stupid rite, travel all e way to marina sq jus for dinner. ha.
we went in to acrade, pau yuan dance DDR.
he's at gd at it. ai sehs. =x
then me & huili accompany to mit her guy fren.
her fren is only 19 & he owns a car already!.
omg!. COOL.
we gt a chance to sit in his car , he drives us to jw coffeeshop to slack wif one of his frens too.
anyway, he's a nice guy la.
we slack till b0ut 130 am ++ den we left.
he drives me & huili hme. thanks (:
envy rite?. 19 yrs old jiu own a car le.
ii was really tired ytd, wen ii gt hme, bath hao le jiu lie on my bed.
BUT ii couldn't get to slp. sighs.

photos !.

loves (:

kelly & xueli (=

today (:
went out wif my mama & brother.
though is father's day, but as usual.
wen it comes to this day, ii couldn't bring myself to wish my dad a happy father's day.
all of you shld know ba, me & my dad jus can't get along.
so me & my bro din celebrate wif him.
kind of bad right?. sighs.
my mama bring us to dine in at crystal jade for dinner.
yummy!








r you peepos hungry?. lols.
im so bad ya. =x
ii love my mama!.

alright, end off wif my zi lian photo(:
aiyo, xueli is really a zi lian idiot la. hohoho.


without you , ii still can survive .

don't tink that u'r really great .

since you can enjoy , ii can also do tat .






went in to friendster jus nw, its lyk ii dun0 hw l0ng nv accept testiis liao.
lols. im lazy!.
sorry peepos, will reply testiis late ya. (:

to yu ling, if u'r readin this.
im surprised tat ii can finally get a chance to console you.
cus everitime u'r e one hu's consoling me.
hope tat u'r really fine.
dun b lyk me, okay?
i'll b dere for u.

gd nite peepos (:

currently listenin to : Till e end

im bac to BLOG (=

jus finish doin my face mask.

ii feels tat my face is so fresh & clean nw cans?. =x

ytd went out wif elaine jie jie.

its been awhile since ii last met her, so we went t0 catch movie ytd.

we intend t0 watch it at vivo city, but wen we reach dere its lyk so crowded la.

den we decided t0 watch it at marina sq.

ii saw 'him' dere too. sighs.

we watched e oceans thirteen, its a nice movie.

quite funny too (:

e actor in e movie is shuai la. heh'

i din really enjoy myself watchin, cus my mind keep flashin through all those memories wif him. ->watchin movie wif him.

haiis!!!!!.

we had sakae sushi for our dinner, din really enj0y it too.

cus my mind was nt wif me too. o.0

& jie jie has sme problems too. sighs.

seriously, im still nt okay!.

but i won't vent my anger out here for e time being.

till everythin is settled, i will say out everiting here.

im really v.angri wif everiting.

jus wait, im gonna let u see, im nt as weak as u tink i am.

din realised u really hav so many bad points.

im really pissed off ytd, huizhi buddy chat wif me till 3 plus a.m

th0ugh she goin m'siia e next dae.

i really misses her siia!.

buddy, faster cum back!

peepos, ii've added a 'chinese song' playlist in my blog.
added new english songs too(:

p.s somebody msq mi & told me hu e passerby is. (=
& is really his fren lor. (ii guess)

Till the End- Chen Da Wei

All these precious moments
with you by my side
must be a gift from heaven
that's holding me all night
i don't know how i found you
i'm thankful that i have
now that i have a love so true
to hold, to keep, to share*
In my heart i can no longer hold inside
all of the love i used to hide
i'll always be with you until the very end
in this world there is no place i'd rather be
you are my life, my soul, my girl
and through it all i know
that you've come to see that you're the one till the end*
All my friend around mesay you'd be gone too soon
baby i'm gonna make them see
we've found our way back home

i won't gif up till the v.endd (:

jus gonna sumarised wad i did today.
cus im nt in a mood to blog.
went out early in e morning wif huizhi buddy & her frens.
i din enjoy myself but was kinda of pissed off wif everiting.
then went to mit up xin yi girlfriend ard 6pm but she was late!.
then we chat for awhile.
pei her to pioneer mall to get her dinner for her family.
&pioneer mall really has lots of memories to me.
on e way dere i did wanted to cry.
i told eunice hw i feel jus nw while chatting wif her on e fone.
i told her,e path to pioneer mall..
i always play ard wif pig,he will always run away&i always couldn't catch up wif him.
imagine a crazy pig runnin in e middle of e nite?
ii really misses all those times cans?
&ii really misses tat da zhu tou!.



错了再错 - 张栋梁
退到了绝境再退，破碎到不能破碎
那么为什么，你就不肯说，我只能再一却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲，绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说慌，我却受惩罚
你不如就用到此想
我可以痛了再痛，你可以错了再错
不甘心，不闪躲，只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你玩着火，你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

爱和痛如此纠结，悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累，成了一片黑
相同都已无法相灭
泪水滋润着泪水，背叛是黎明一种慰藉
完美的借口，泪无不留下，你不如用乱箭射他
我可以痛了再痛，你可以错了再错
不甘心，不闪躲，只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你玩着火，你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破 即使我头也不回，
这悲剧猛向我追 情愿你全部摧毁，
别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没，
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却困住了
我可以痛了再痛，你可以错了再错
不甘心，不闪躲，全为了失真的承诺
转身让你玩着火，你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破 为什么…… 连谎言你也不说

this song suits my feeling for now.
you hurt me once more again.

currently listening to : would you be there - redwan ali

If I were blue
Would you be there for me
And whisper in my ear that's okay
Would you stand by me
Let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good
Would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me
And never look back.
Would you be there to love,
to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away
Would you be there to love,To be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I were away,Would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way
Would you be there to love,
To be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away

Would you be there for me?

i keep repeatin this song many many times.
this song is meaningful&it brings me back lots of memories.
i cried whenever im listening to tis song.

im down wif a lil but fever, im feelin giddy nw.
but i couldn't sleep, still broodin over 'it'. sighs.
so decided to blog.
im still sad&yet still sick sme more.

went to church ytd.
i decided to go as i dun wish to stay at hme.
i dun wish to b alone & feelin afraid or whatever.
i told tiffany what happened on e way on e bus& ii told michelle bout it too.
they console me too.
thanks girls (:

look at all this !
Went out with girlfriend in the evening.She was feeling so horrible and that she cried so hard. I felt so heartache for she was crying for a heartless creature who dont deserve her love, I too felt great for she's much more better than her rival in every sense that we can see.
Girlfriend, you must really see through his true colors and walk firmly and strongly, prove him that you are really a better girl and that he deserved to lose you for he is not good enough for him to be with you. Heaven is fair.
You should walk out of your sadness and get on with your life. You do not deserve to be ill-treated nor tortured by him. All and all things that he had done to you were unfair. It is time for you to heed friends advice, he is really that bad.
I really hope that everyone wants the BEST for you and that people watching have clearer views than of those who were in the role, understand? Hmm. Whatever it is, remember that you still have us. ((:
XL jiayous.
extracted from: my girlfriend, xinyi's blog

xueli:whatever happens,jus remember you did nothing wrong and you have won e battle,at least you half.don't care bout what he say because he has no right to say those things to you. and about that bitchy liar, jus forget it. since she wants to twist e fact, jus let her be because sooner or later she will get her retribution. she doesn't learn her mistake but what can you do? anything happens, all of us will help you de. =D
extracted from: buddy, huizhi's blog

the tags (:
7 Jun 07, 00:55
passerby: he is e 1 rite?he is a cheater,gal dun feel sad cuz u deserve much better...........
7 Jun 07, 17:46
xinyi: GIRLFRIEND. look at all those who ARE concern about you, put yourself in their shoes, know that whatever they do is all BEST for u.
8 Jun 07, 18:49
passerby: naw....its okie den....jus move on okie....such a guy nt worth cryin over 4.......myb i wil add u in msn 1day........
10 Jun 07, 20:27
rachy: ` u ok le ma girl?
10 Jun 07, 23:34
baoyii: link me! although i dunno anythg, but dun sad le... everyone had hard time... after all, old de dun go, new de dun come ma... rite? i also encounter befor...

thanks peepos.
im really touched.
at least ii knows they'r still lots of ppl who cares for me.
i feel blessed!.
im still curious who's tat passerby.
but he/she still dun wanna tell me. sighs.

&why are you putting all e blame on me?.
am ii e only one hu's at fault?.
aren't u have fault too?.
do u know hw hurt am ii wen u says all those tings to me?.
u always tinks tat im wrong.
but have u ever gif me a chance to explain myself?.
why are you so selfish?
do u know every morning wen i woke up, im feelin so empty, feelin damns sucks!
u know hw i wish i cans slp forever & don't wake up?
so tat i nd nt tink bout anithin?.
do u know i hab to fake a smile infront of my mama so as to nt let her know tat im heartbroken?
do u know i've to hide in my room all alone& cry in e night?
u dun know anythin at all!
cus u were busying enjoying urself while im suffering!
do u know hw i wish u will still be there for me wen im feelin down?
if time could turn back,i wish it could stop at e moment wen i gt e chance to watch movie wif u for e first time.
hw i wish i still can care for you like i used to.
wake u up for work.
accompany you wen u needed someone to.
i knows im silly.
but ...

would you still be there for me?

im down wif flu!.
xin yi girlfriend pass e virus to me. LOLS.
but i still LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!

alright, xueli is bac to bloggin agns.

on tuesday, ii went imm wif seetheng baobeiis.
mit her up ard 4pm.
ii accompany her dere as she wanted to do some shopping.
she bought herself heels at DMK.
den we had dinner at mac, she said its been awhile since we both last had dinner 2gether.
&tat was part of e reason y she wanted to eat outside rather than having dinner at hme.
so nice of her, rite?.
we did some chatting&headed hme.

yesterday, was supposed to went out wif li qing&her fren yiling to town.
as her fren had a off day ytd&liqing wanted to shop for presents too.
but yiling's mom wanted her to had dinner at hme.
perhaps next wk den go out wif them ba.
i was in a bad mood in e afternoon, so i get myself changed.
&i went out to walk ard my neighbouring.
&duno y as i walked, i walked to his blk.
den sme bad tings happened aft tat.
i decide nt to mentioned it here, all my girlfriends shld know wad im talkin bout.
i was feelin lost at tat time, i duno wad to do.
luckily i tot of xin yi girlfriend, i called her up.
she jus came down&pei me.
i did cry cus im really heartbroken&angry.
xin yi girlfriend was jus dere to console me, i really feel much better.
thanks my dear girlfriend.
i'll rmb all e tings u've told me.
i know at least i've won half of e battle right?.

let me update on wad happened today before i vent out my anger here.
huili laogong msq mi in e morning.
she was worried bout me&askin me if im alright.
nd her to accompany me or not if i nd her she jiu dun go sch le.
see, hw nice my laogong is?
so ii mit her up at 2pm.
wen ii saw her, ii complain to her bout everiting im unhappy bout.
we went to jp, i told her i wanted to visit his mom today.
so laogong pei me buy tings, cus ii din want to visit his mummy w/o buyin anithin.
laogong even pei me go visit his mummy!.
his mummy was really nice to me.
wen his mummy saw e tings ii bought, she insist tat i mush tke bac hme.
she say im nt workin, i shldn't hab spend money on all this.
but ii keep tellin auntie tat i won't bring it hme, i wanted her to eat it.
at last, she say she'll eat it.
but she gave me a whole box of ferrero rocher!.
i din wanted to take it, but she wanted me to take bac hme.
so ii accept it.
while i was away for awhile, she talk to huili.
she ask huili to take care of me. ask me dun treat her son gd anymore, cus her son don't derserve it.
wen huili told me bout it, ii cried.
ii jus feel touched.
b4 i left, auntie ask me to find someone better & bring him to show it to her.
can you all imagine, hw ii feel at tat time?.
ii left with tears.
she was like a mummy to me too.
auntie went to see doctor today too cus of her leg.
ii hope she's really fine.

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p.s to tat passerby who tagged me.
can you tell me who u r ma?.
you know him too?.
hw you know he's a cheater?.
i really hab lots of qns to ask you.
can u pls tell who u r? PLEASE?
or u add me in msn instead?.
anyway, thanks for ur concern ya.

i really feel blessed tat i've been loved by so many ppl.
so many ppl r really dere for me.
thanks peepos. ii love youu people!. <3

ii really dislike tat fuckin bitch.
i will always rmb wad you've said to me.
you r much older than me & yet u r so immature.
u wanted to b wif him, didn't u?
&u acted tryin to console me?
wtf is this?
i regretted believing you.
i dislike liars!.
huh,still dare tell me u'll be leaving him or whatever.
BULLSHIT!.
if u were in my shoes, hw will you feel?.
can you dun be so selfish?
why can't u spare a thought of other peoples feelings?.
fine, ii gt nth much more to say bout you.
cus i looked down on you!.

&to you, jus a word to you ''DISAPPOINTED"
i've once help you before, treat u gd.
&is there a nd to treat me lyk tis, jus lyk nw?
why r u so selfish too?
why r u taking things for granted?
i've gt nth to say bout you.
life is yours.
u've made a decision.
u wanna waste it, tat's ur problem.
at least, i've once treasure it.
putting in all my effort jus to win it for once.
i jus hope u will knows what's right&what's wrong.

im still me,
im still tat silly, stubborn lady.

gideon called me babygirl!.
ii called him stupid dumb dumb!.
hohoho.

loves all my girlfriends<3
nite.

currently listening to : Doing it again , DJ Valium





peepos. xueli is back here again. ((=
ytd, was invited to church by tiffany to attend a radical conference' o7.
ii mit up wif see theng baobeis first at je, i met stephanie on e way.
as usual, xueli is LATE again! =x
we went to kfc, had a drink dere while chatting.
updated her bout wad has recently happened to mi.
we left at bout 35o & headed to e church.
we did had fun during e radical conference, though we'r nt a christian.
anyway, its its was fun & interesting.
e people in e grp were friendly too.
aft everiting, we had nasi lemak wif otah for our dinner!. hehs.
ii might go agns next wk if tiff still intend to ask mi along. lala~
im havin muscle ache since ytd, &e pain is really killin mi.
i've difficulty walkin up&down e stairs. arghh.
guess wad causes mi tat?.
}mi&my brother had nothin better to do, so we went running up&down e stairs. sounds stupid, rite?
see theng say mi siiao wen ii told her bout it!. sadden ^.^

alright,its been awhile since last blogged.
shall update hw am ii doin nw.
firstly, ii must thank god for giving mi a bunch of wonderful frens to me.
ii realised nw hw much my frens loves me.
&ii really make them worried for me.
without them, ii really don't know what will happened to me.
ii guess ii will keep on doing silly tings agns & agns.
aft all, fren will always be dere wen u needed them to be.
& they will always give you e support to move on.
so people out dere, pls treasured&appreciated ur frens beside you.
make them as a important part of ur life too.
don't take frens for granted.
cus one day, you'll regret for not treasuring them.
people, dun worry.
im fine.

honestly, im still feeling sad & heartbroken.
but im trying not to express it out.
aft all,i tink e both of us r at fault.
&shouldn't put all e blame to one party only.
im sorry, for being so stubborn at times.
i din realised tat till i met you.
cus my mama oso said tis to me, but i talked back sayin im nt.
sighs. been too stubborn isn't a gd ting afterall.

i nv regretted for all e tings i've tings ii've done.
cus at least ii knew i've put alot of effort in it.
thanks for appearing in my life.
cus u did bright up my life for once.
brought me laughter too.
cheer me up wen im really down.
honestly, ii really still miss youu damns loads. haiis.
&i'll miss ur messages, movie theatre,e coffee shop,plaza sing,pionner mall&.... ...

ii won't hate you.
but i'll always be dere for youus.
你永远是我的最爱

i finally understand hw nasty a lady cans be if she really wans tat guy to be her man.
i've regretted in trusting you.
stop putting or write anything jus to spite me.

pls understand one thing;xueli won't get affected by it!
what xueli hates most is LIARS!.