Wait For You by Elliott Yamin (:

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now i'm missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know so now im all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me?
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

jus feel like repeating this song over & over again.
time really flies.
& tml is qonna be a brand new year.
hope everything goes smoothly for everybody including me.

is fate that give us a chance to know each other.
no matter what the outcome will be in the end, i know i've tried my best.
im jus qonna leave everythin to FATE.



i'll be waiting ...

im back people.
did i've a wonderful christmas?.
i don't know.
shall update wad i really did on christmas e next post bahs.
ton outside e whole nite ytd.
mood was really damns bad ytd.
reached hme, i couldn't help but jus burst out cryinq.
cus im really hearbroken.
i did stupid stunt aqns.
jus came bac frm m'sia nt lonq, so i gt no choice but to do his x'mas presents at e v.las mins.
e niqht b4, i decided to mke hmemade x'mas cards for him.
slept ard 3am aft i completed it.
but end up, i didn't gave him e x'mas card, cus i find e card i do damns sucks lahs.
then i woke up early in e morn jus to bake cookies for him.
end up, e oven broke down all thanks to me.
to show my sincerity, i deliver e cookies all e way to his doorstop.
huili bestie accompany me cus she was worried bout me.
i'm beinq stupid right? in e first place, i still tot of leavinq it at his doorstep w/o even tellin him.
but huili called him & told him i was there to gave him his presents.
i quess STUPID is the word to describe me now ba?.
cus im the one who wanna do all this things de, nobody forced me to do so.
CUS is my heart who ask me to do so.
& i didn't expect anythin frm u in return, u got me?
i don't feel like doinq anythin riqht nw, all i wanna do now is stare into space.
feel like banqin myself aqainst the wall.
feel like runnin & runnin without stoppin.
i quess im qonna MIA.


takkaiire all (:
bye.


somehow i jus feel unappreciated .
it was all because of you who caused the endless tears.

say hello to me !.









shall post up some pictures of myself first.
e rest will post it the next time i BLOG.
tat dumbass who commented me in my tagboard, thanks 4 ur wonderful comment.
u think i give a damn to what u say?
of cus NO! i still wanna post up my photo leis.
wad can u do to me?
LALALAS!
a dumbass without a name still wanna comment bout me. nabei.

LEAVING FOR M'SIA TML!
not cominq back. TSK.
dun think he knows or care bout it.
nvm, i knw im qonna leave with disappointment.
niqhts ppl(:
do miss me!

i'm not alriqht !.

i'm devestated, ni zhi dao mahs?
i was lookinq forward for ya return.
but in e end, all i got was disappointment.
i didn't knew u return till someone told mi bout it.
nevermind, this shows that i don't stood a important place in ur heart as a friend.
im heartbroken, so WHAT?
u don't even know.
cus i just pretend nth did happen, pretend to be alriqht when im not.
its alriqht, i don't need u to care too.

another person disappoint me today agns.





shall end here.
i got no mood to continue.
bye peeps.

Weather is so FREAKING cold today!

老天 seems to be me playinq with me man.
when i never step out of the hse, he nv cry.
when i step out of the hse, the rain starts pouring like FUCK!. 气死人!

oh well, meet up with my huiliBESTIE for lunch today.
we nv seen each other for FOUR days le.
though is only four bloody days, but we both feel that we seems to be not meetin each other for quite a lonq time man.
haha! never thought that my bestie misses me so much.(BHB) LAMOS!
both of us misses e food near our sch 的 coffeeshop.
so we had our lunch there, we shared our fav TOM YAM soup toqether.
& ordered a plate of dumplings! yum yum!
we almost spend bout an hour plus finishinq our lunch.
not b'cus we eat damns slow la, cus we were busyinq gosspipinq at e same time. heh heh.

aft lunch, headed to JP. finally, the rain has stop.
we went ard lookin at comestics.
girls r alwaes like that de, we can spend several hours lookin at comestics de ok.


i wanna buy this make up removal!
seems good lahs.


ANYBODY KIND ENOUGH TO BUY FOR ME?
LOLS.

im bored man.
MOUTH is so damns itch.
nobody quarrel with me lo.
CUS that UNCLE MIKE IS STILL IN M'SIA!
shit him! went m'sia for so damns BLOODY LONG!
&haven come back yet.
don't when he is planninq to come back lahs.
im bored to death here liao lo. HUMPHS!
misses his lame jokes like hell man.

tata people (:



can anybody tell me the definition of happiness?.

oh dear.
i know i hasn't been updating for quite some days.
don't know why my mood to BLOG nowadays seems to be totally GONE!.
arghh.
curious of wad i have been doing nowadays?
nothing much. im jus slacking at home.
XUELI is dying of boredom already lo.
& i jus feel that something seems to be missing hur hur.
oh HELLO, im still JOBLESS for god sake! -.-

if u've realise, my blog have change new clothing today huh. Lmaos!

my pretty mama was so nice to me ytd.
she bought me mascara & concealer! thanks mama. <3
heh heh.
phew, i need not spend my own allowances on those comestics.


new maybelline mascara


&ytd i then realised i've gt 4 mascara in my room already which i haven used up all.



all r maybelline's brand execpt one.
i still prefer using maybelline brand.

this few days, i've been buyinq newsapaper & lookinq seriously for jobs.
&im kinda of FUCKED up already.
i don't know hw many companys i've called up to ask bout jobs, BUT none was successful.
they were either at some KUKU places ah BO they will ask me to leave down my age, contact number & they will contact me again.
WTF.
i seriously still needs a JOB! sighs.
some people still say i seems to be enjoyin my life man.
EAT, SLEEP, WATCH TV, SHOPPING.
eh, hello. u think i want de mehs?
is bo bian, NO JOB lo. -.-

anyway, to HAN SHEN.
next time please don't do somethinq like wad u did on that day can?
don't carry on waiting under my blk wen i've already told u i won't go down & see you de.
OR even wait at e lift outside my hse.
i've do this kinda of STUNT before.
&i know how it feels when u'r waitinq for somebody under his/her blk but that person jus dun wish to see you.
cus aftall, what u will get was jus DISAPPOINTMENT & HEARTBROKEN!
u get it?.

anyway, this song is nice!



wen i misses someone, i will tend to listen to it.
haha.
shall bloq till here.
tml then carry on.

uncle, faster cum bac!

Finally, i've the time to BLOG (:

XUELI damns stupid lo!
ytd, i did some stupid acts to show my sincerity.
i bought dinner for MIKE CHAI GUO LONG & deliver it all the way to his door stop.
i didn't told him or give him hints that im gonna make food delivery. haha.
Upon seeing his expressions, i guess e stunt i did really gave him a big surprise.
i also duno what makes me have e thought to do this.
mayb cus e next day he leavin for m'sia, tat's why i do somethin like this to make him not to 4get bout me i guess. LMAOS.
BUT.. did i did something stupid?.
hope u feel gan dong & do appreciate it bahs.
anyway, his rudy, the rabbit v.ke ai leis.
keep makan & makan de.
eh mike, same as u sia. haha!

sighs. he's on his way to m'sia le.
nobody quarrel with me already. sians.
UNCLE, faster come back from m'sia la!
im qonna miss ur lame jokes badly, man!
better buy something back for me, if not ur intestines will be at geylang, ur legs at changi.
heh heh. wah, i so evil sia.

actually, i got no mood to BLOG now.
cried almost the whole nite ytd.
but im sure he wasn't aware bout it.
don't ask me why i cried, shan't elaborate it.
if u care, come & ask me personally then.

shall blog till here (:
niqhts ppl.

NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU.

i'll be waiting ... ...

status: xueli is terribly heartbroken & upset.

im emo - inq agns.
guys? can u all jus stop hurting girls for once?
i jus dun understand, what do you all gain by hurting us.
why? why must u appear & ruin my life?
why don't u jus leave me alone in e first place instead?
why turn my life into a niqhtmare in a short period of time?.
i don't knw if i shld hate you, or forgive u instead.
im sad, but i didn't cry.
im angry, but i didn't vent my anger on anybody.
i didn't do anythin wrong.
when u talk to me in a attitude manner, i've tolerate it.
cus i respect e way u r.
if it were others, i could have already yell back a them.
but wad did u do? u didn't appreciate me at all.
why did you treat me so well frm e start?
why dun u jus hack me, like what u r doin now frm e start?
aftall, im only her subsitution.
To you, im already speechless already.
don't say u like me, when you don't!.
i won't believe wad u say anymore.
i give you my blessing, take cares.

i really don't know if im alriqht or not.
but there's nothing i could do.
life still has do carry on even if i don't wish to.
well, went 0ut wif huili's bestie ytd.
weather is still as bad as ever.
Accompany bestie to eat lunch at Jp, but i didn't eat, cus i've gt no appetite.
duno why, our conversation mentioned mike, so i decided to msq him.
so coincidence that mike was oso plannin to go Bugis.
when i reach Bugis, e first thing i do was go acarde look for mike.
Lols.
parted wif him, then left for shopping.
mike call me aft tat, say wanna join us.
but we already on our way to out next destination.
so i ask mike to come alonq, without any hesitation, he came.
so together wif 2 of his fren, e 5 of us went gai gai together.
then mi & mike keep quarrellinq wif each other frm e moment we mit each other till we reach hme.
LOLs.
v.funny lo, e 2 of us. hahas.
Mike v.gentlemen de lo, treat all of us drink coffeebean. LALAS.
thanks anyways.
then accompany 3 gentlemen go play pool, then headed hme.
thanks for the day peepos(:
i hope i will really be alriqht.

shall end here.
gt no mood to continue bloqqing.

BUDDY , FASTER COME BAC FROM BATAM!
I MISSES YOU LIKE HELL!

hellos peepos!.
i promised to upload photos for e next post.
so here i goes ;




notice any changes bout my bestie?










below are my cam - whoring ;











well, had some conflicts with my dad jus now agns.
really v.fuck up with him man.
i really dun understand why is he always findin thinqs to quarrelled with me?.
for wad fuck d0es he gain by quarrelling wif me man?
or he's enjoying himself by quarrellinq with mi?. i think so.
but 4get it.

this few days, i feel kinda of stress.
stress - ing over? -> someone.
i really don't knw what more can i do man.
why don't you try asking me how i feel?
why do i feel that u'r treatin me cold at times?.
i really don't knw what to do.
im really v.afraid tat u will attitude me lo.
im already my best to do what i can do to care le.
sighs.
i hope tml will be better.

nvm, tml i goin shopping !
LALALAS !
i gonna enjoy myself.
shall stop here.
takkaiire every0ne.

只想爱你 好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定
究竟爱我还是逃避
Sorry我还是不会放弃爱你

Addicted to : Easy by Paula featuring Bow Wow recently (:



been listening to this songs daily nwadays. hoho.



BOO!.
People, im finally back to blog aft such a long long time.
sorry for not updating, im kinda 0f busy nwadays.
has been OUT almost everyday recently.
i know u people miss me lahs, so here i am! ROARS.

well, couldn't really recall bout wad i really did but i shall sum up everiting.
supposed to be working , me & huili even tot tat we could settle down wif tat job but ... ...
some unpleasant things happened , so we decided to leave.
& we'r sure they could do even w/o us too.
shan't really elaborate further bout it.
interested to know, ask mi personally then.
all i can say is, working comfortably & gettin along well with ppl there is one important thing.
if we aren't feeling comfortable working there, wad for we carry on isn't?.
it will jus makes us feel worse.
& e problem doesn't lies with us, is them.
nvm, what's over is already over.
afterall, we met a nice Boss.
AND , AND .. XUELI IS JOBLESS AGNS lO !. cries.
anybody gt job intro? pls kindly PM me. xie xie.

wanna know where have i been MIA-ING to all this days?.
hahas. was hanging out wif my huili bestie all this days.
we were either shopping or hunting for jobs.
shi sians de lo. -.-
couldn't rmb when it was, me & bestie went shopping.
i bought myself :


COOL?

&



LALALAS.

me & bestie also each bought a hello kitty handbag.
i still got lots of things wanna buy!
but i gt no $$$ le.
anyone wanna sponser me?. =x tsk.. (fat hope)

o4.11.o7 tuesday

i spend some happy moments with belovable people like
huili, catherine, chien juen, qinqwen, Ivan & eunice !.
i mit up with huili first, then went to eat Kfc for lunch.
then headed back to my hse to get my bank book as i nid it to do sme personal stuff.
catherine came to join in as it was concidence tat she ring mi up, so i ask her to tag along as she was outside alone at tat time.
at first, i was so afraid tat catherine would feel that she's been left out.
BUT, if turned out fine.
we were all feelin quite low at first until
all her lame jokes , actions makes us LMAOS!.
LALALAS.
i love my cat baobeiis!
we went window shopping ard town, ate dinner before heading hme.
i really had awesome times spent that day.

alriqht, i guess i shall update till here first.
i've many photos to upload.

shall upload in tml post (:
so ppl stay tuned.
don't miss me too much.

lala~
niqhts ppl.