Wait For You by Elliott Yamin (:

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now i'm missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know so now im all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me?
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

jus feel like repeating this song over & over again.
time really flies.
& tml is qonna be a brand new year.
hope everything goes smoothly for everybody including me.

is fate that give us a chance to know each other.
no matter what the outcome will be in the end, i know i've tried my best.
im jus qonna leave everythin to FATE.



i'll be waiting ...

im back people.
did i've a wonderful christmas?.
i don't know.
shall update wad i really did on christmas e next post bahs.
ton outside e whole nite ytd.
mood was really damns bad ytd.
reached hme, i couldn't help but jus burst out cryinq.
cus im really hearbroken.
i did stupid stunt aqns.
jus came bac frm m'sia nt lonq, so i gt no choice but to do his x'mas presents at e v.las mins.
e niqht b4, i decided to mke hmemade x'mas cards for him.
slept ard 3am aft i completed it.
but end up, i didn't gave him e x'mas card, cus i find e card i do damns sucks lahs.
then i woke up early in e morn jus to bake cookies for him.
end up, e oven broke down all thanks to me.
to show my sincerity, i deliver e cookies all e way to his doorstop.
huili bestie accompany me cus she was worried bout me.
i'm beinq stupid right? in e first place, i still tot of leavinq it at his doorstep w/o even tellin him.
but huili called him & told him i was there to gave him his presents.
i quess STUPID is the word to describe me now ba?.
cus im the one who wanna do all this things de, nobody forced me to do so.
CUS is my heart who ask me to do so.
& i didn't expect anythin frm u in return, u got me?
i don't feel like doinq anythin riqht nw, all i wanna do now is stare into space.
feel like banqin myself aqainst the wall.
feel like runnin & runnin without stoppin.
i quess im qonna MIA.


takkaiire all (:
bye.


somehow i jus feel unappreciated .
it was all because of you who caused the endless tears.

say hello to me !.









shall post up some pictures of myself first.
e rest will post it the next time i BLOG.
tat dumbass who commented me in my tagboard, thanks 4 ur wonderful comment.
u think i give a damn to what u say?
of cus NO! i still wanna post up my photo leis.
wad can u do to me?
LALALAS!
a dumbass without a name still wanna comment bout me. nabei.

LEAVING FOR M'SIA TML!
not cominq back. TSK.
dun think he knows or care bout it.
nvm, i knw im qonna leave with disappointment.
niqhts ppl(:
do miss me!

i'm not alriqht !.

i'm devestated, ni zhi dao mahs?
i was lookinq forward for ya return.
but in e end, all i got was disappointment.
i didn't knew u return till someone told mi bout it.
nevermind, this shows that i don't stood a important place in ur heart as a friend.
im heartbroken, so WHAT?
u don't even know.
cus i just pretend nth did happen, pretend to be alriqht when im not.
its alriqht, i don't need u to care too.

another person disappoint me today agns.





shall end here.
i got no mood to continue.
bye peeps.

Weather is so FREAKING cold today!

老天 seems to be me playinq with me man.
when i never step out of the hse, he nv cry.
when i step out of the hse, the rain starts pouring like FUCK!. 气死人!

oh well, meet up with my huiliBESTIE for lunch today.
we nv seen each other for FOUR days le.
though is only four bloody days, but we both feel that we seems to be not meetin each other for quite a lonq time man.
haha! never thought that my bestie misses me so much.(BHB) LAMOS!
both of us misses e food near our sch 的 coffeeshop.
so we had our lunch there, we shared our fav TOM YAM soup toqether.
& ordered a plate of dumplings! yum yum!
we almost spend bout an hour plus finishinq our lunch.
not b'cus we eat damns slow la, cus we were busyinq gosspipinq at e same time. heh heh.

aft lunch, headed to JP. finally, the rain has stop.
we went ard lookin at comestics.
girls r alwaes like that de, we can spend several hours lookin at comestics de ok.


i wanna buy this make up removal!
seems good lahs.


ANYBODY KIND ENOUGH TO BUY FOR ME?
LOLS.

im bored man.
MOUTH is so damns itch.
nobody quarrel with me lo.
CUS that UNCLE MIKE IS STILL IN M'SIA!
shit him! went m'sia for so damns BLOODY LONG!
&haven come back yet.
don't when he is planninq to come back lahs.
im bored to death here liao lo. HUMPHS!
misses his lame jokes like hell man.

tata people (:



can anybody tell me the definition of happiness?.

oh dear.
i know i hasn't been updating for quite some days.
don't know why my mood to BLOG nowadays seems to be totally GONE!.
arghh.
curious of wad i have been doing nowadays?
nothing much. im jus slacking at home.
XUELI is dying of boredom already lo.
& i jus feel that something seems to be missing hur hur.
oh HELLO, im still JOBLESS for god sake! -.-

if u've realise, my blog have change new clothing today huh. Lmaos!

my pretty mama was so nice to me ytd.
she bought me mascara & concealer! thanks mama. <3
heh heh.
phew, i need not spend my own allowances on those comestics.


new maybelline mascara


&ytd i then realised i've gt 4 mascara in my room already which i haven used up all.



all r maybelline's brand execpt one.
i still prefer using maybelline brand.

this few days, i've been buyinq newsapaper & lookinq seriously for jobs.
&im kinda of FUCKED up already.
i don't know hw many companys i've called up to ask bout jobs, BUT none was successful.
they were either at some KUKU places ah BO they will ask me to leave down my age, contact number & they will contact me again.
WTF.
i seriously still needs a JOB! sighs.
some people still say i seems to be enjoyin my life man.
EAT, SLEEP, WATCH TV, SHOPPING.
eh, hello. u think i want de mehs?
is bo bian, NO JOB lo. -.-

anyway, to HAN SHEN.
next time please don't do somethinq like wad u did on that day can?
don't carry on waiting under my blk wen i've already told u i won't go down & see you de.
OR even wait at e lift outside my hse.
i've do this kinda of STUNT before.
&i know how it feels when u'r waitinq for somebody under his/her blk but that person jus dun wish to see you.
cus aftall, what u will get was jus DISAPPOINTMENT & HEARTBROKEN!
u get it?.

anyway, this song is nice!



wen i misses someone, i will tend to listen to it.
haha.
shall bloq till here.
tml then carry on.

uncle, faster cum bac!

Finally, i've the time to BLOG (:

XUELI damns stupid lo!
ytd, i did some stupid acts to show my sincerity.
i bought dinner for MIKE CHAI GUO LONG & deliver it all the way to his door stop.
i didn't told him or give him hints that im gonna make food delivery. haha.
Upon seeing his expressions, i guess e stunt i did really gave him a big surprise.
i also duno what makes me have e thought to do this.
mayb cus e next day he leavin for m'sia, tat's why i do somethin like this to make him not to 4get bout me i guess. LMAOS.
BUT.. did i did something stupid?.
hope u feel gan dong & do appreciate it bahs.
anyway, his rudy, the rabbit v.ke ai leis.
keep makan & makan de.
eh mike, same as u sia. haha!

sighs. he's on his way to m'sia le.
nobody quarrel with me already. sians.
UNCLE, faster come back from m'sia la!
im qonna miss ur lame jokes badly, man!
better buy something back for me, if not ur intestines will be at geylang, ur legs at changi.
heh heh. wah, i so evil sia.

actually, i got no mood to BLOG now.
cried almost the whole nite ytd.
but im sure he wasn't aware bout it.
don't ask me why i cried, shan't elaborate it.
if u care, come & ask me personally then.

shall blog till here (:
niqhts ppl.

NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU.

i'll be waiting ... ...

status: xueli is terribly heartbroken & upset.

im emo - inq agns.
guys? can u all jus stop hurting girls for once?
i jus dun understand, what do you all gain by hurting us.
why? why must u appear & ruin my life?
why don't u jus leave me alone in e first place instead?
why turn my life into a niqhtmare in a short period of time?.
i don't knw if i shld hate you, or forgive u instead.
im sad, but i didn't cry.
im angry, but i didn't vent my anger on anybody.
i didn't do anythin wrong.
when u talk to me in a attitude manner, i've tolerate it.
cus i respect e way u r.
if it were others, i could have already yell back a them.
but wad did u do? u didn't appreciate me at all.
why did you treat me so well frm e start?
why dun u jus hack me, like what u r doin now frm e start?
aftall, im only her subsitution.
To you, im already speechless already.
don't say u like me, when you don't!.
i won't believe wad u say anymore.
i give you my blessing, take cares.

i really don't know if im alriqht or not.
but there's nothing i could do.
life still has do carry on even if i don't wish to.
well, went 0ut wif huili's bestie ytd.
weather is still as bad as ever.
Accompany bestie to eat lunch at Jp, but i didn't eat, cus i've gt no appetite.
duno why, our conversation mentioned mike, so i decided to msq him.
so coincidence that mike was oso plannin to go Bugis.
when i reach Bugis, e first thing i do was go acarde look for mike.
Lols.
parted wif him, then left for shopping.
mike call me aft tat, say wanna join us.
but we already on our way to out next destination.
so i ask mike to come alonq, without any hesitation, he came.
so together wif 2 of his fren, e 5 of us went gai gai together.
then mi & mike keep quarrellinq wif each other frm e moment we mit each other till we reach hme.
LOLs.
v.funny lo, e 2 of us. hahas.
Mike v.gentlemen de lo, treat all of us drink coffeebean. LALAS.
thanks anyways.
then accompany 3 gentlemen go play pool, then headed hme.
thanks for the day peepos(:
i hope i will really be alriqht.

shall end here.
gt no mood to continue bloqqing.

BUDDY , FASTER COME BAC FROM BATAM!
I MISSES YOU LIKE HELL!

hellos peepos!.
i promised to upload photos for e next post.
so here i goes ;




notice any changes bout my bestie?










below are my cam - whoring ;











well, had some conflicts with my dad jus now agns.
really v.fuck up with him man.
i really dun understand why is he always findin thinqs to quarrelled with me?.
for wad fuck d0es he gain by quarrelling wif me man?
or he's enjoying himself by quarrellinq with mi?. i think so.
but 4get it.

this few days, i feel kinda of stress.
stress - ing over? -> someone.
i really don't knw what more can i do man.
why don't you try asking me how i feel?
why do i feel that u'r treatin me cold at times?.
i really don't knw what to do.
im really v.afraid tat u will attitude me lo.
im already my best to do what i can do to care le.
sighs.
i hope tml will be better.

nvm, tml i goin shopping !
LALALAS !
i gonna enjoy myself.
shall stop here.
takkaiire every0ne.

只想爱你 好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定
究竟爱我还是逃避
Sorry我还是不会放弃爱你

Addicted to : Easy by Paula featuring Bow Wow recently (:



been listening to this songs daily nwadays. hoho.



BOO!.
People, im finally back to blog aft such a long long time.
sorry for not updating, im kinda 0f busy nwadays.
has been OUT almost everyday recently.
i know u people miss me lahs, so here i am! ROARS.

well, couldn't really recall bout wad i really did but i shall sum up everiting.
supposed to be working , me & huili even tot tat we could settle down wif tat job but ... ...
some unpleasant things happened , so we decided to leave.
& we'r sure they could do even w/o us too.
shan't really elaborate further bout it.
interested to know, ask mi personally then.
all i can say is, working comfortably & gettin along well with ppl there is one important thing.
if we aren't feeling comfortable working there, wad for we carry on isn't?.
it will jus makes us feel worse.
& e problem doesn't lies with us, is them.
nvm, what's over is already over.
afterall, we met a nice Boss.
AND , AND .. XUELI IS JOBLESS AGNS lO !. cries.
anybody gt job intro? pls kindly PM me. xie xie.

wanna know where have i been MIA-ING to all this days?.
hahas. was hanging out wif my huili bestie all this days.
we were either shopping or hunting for jobs.
shi sians de lo. -.-
couldn't rmb when it was, me & bestie went shopping.
i bought myself :


COOL?

&



LALALAS.

me & bestie also each bought a hello kitty handbag.
i still got lots of things wanna buy!
but i gt no $$$ le.
anyone wanna sponser me?. =x tsk.. (fat hope)

o4.11.o7 tuesday

i spend some happy moments with belovable people like
huili, catherine, chien juen, qinqwen, Ivan & eunice !.
i mit up with huili first, then went to eat Kfc for lunch.
then headed back to my hse to get my bank book as i nid it to do sme personal stuff.
catherine came to join in as it was concidence tat she ring mi up, so i ask her to tag along as she was outside alone at tat time.
at first, i was so afraid tat catherine would feel that she's been left out.
BUT, if turned out fine.
we were all feelin quite low at first until
all her lame jokes , actions makes us LMAOS!.
LALALAS.
i love my cat baobeiis!
we went window shopping ard town, ate dinner before heading hme.
i really had awesome times spent that day.

alriqht, i guess i shall update till here first.
i've many photos to upload.

shall upload in tml post (:
so ppl stay tuned.
don't miss me too much.

lala~
niqhts ppl.

Boo!. sup ppl, bac to blog(:
shall blog everythin 0n what i did e past 3 days in this one p0st.
so sit back & read.

tuesday 2o.11.o7

meet up wif my huili bestie to t0wn, heeren f0r j0b interview recommended by my fren.
then we went to ngee ann city to walk ard.
then decided to go chien juen workplace, Exp0 foodfair to give her a surprise.
she was kinda 0f sh0cked & t0uched tat we actually travelled to Exp0 to look f0r her.
hahas. we'r so great right, chien juen?
well, tat dae is already e last day 0f e food fair.
alot 0f nice food there, chien juen treat mi & huili eat satay!. thanks(:

me & huili cam-wh0ring starts agns :













wednesday 21.11.o7

was planning to r0t at hme t0day.
didn't really sleep well & was awaken by several calls & messages.
& there was a call tat really surprised me which make mi jump 0ut 0f my bed!
mike ring me up, ans his call.
this was wad he say on e phone:
wei, time for u to wake up & go wee wee liiaos.(make mi LMAOS for a moment)
then he ask mi if im workin today then i told him im nt workin today.
then he say meet mi at Jp for lunch at 12pm, i agreed & hang up e call.
when i look at e timing in my hp, it was already 1130 lo.
tat idiot!
im only given 3o mins to prepared sia.
i quickly rush to my bathroom, bath.
COOL!. i break the rec0rd.
within half an h0ur, im d0ne wif make-upping & rush 0ut.
hahas.
we went t0 eat l0ng j0hn , walk walk ard pei him go buy cl0thes oso.
lalas.
thanks f0r e day!

nth much today, spend my day with huili bestie aqns!
lalalas.
shall end here.
gotta work tml.
niqhts ppl(:
misses everyb0dy.

well, wake up early in e morning at 630.
its been a long time since i wake up at this timing.
no choice, gt to wake up for work.
take a quite bath & finish make up -ing b4 720.
then meet my bestie huili under my blk.
headed to interchange to meet kelly & meet emily at je.
so e 4 0f us travelled to BUgis, f0rtune centre building to w0rk.
basically, this job is jus to help 0ut this WII company to pack their goods.
nt a v.t0ugh job & we were paid 7bucks per hr.
start wk at 9 ends at 6pm.
supp0sed t0 w0rk f0r them till wed, but we were so fast tat we finished packin everyday at e end 0f e day. sighs.
but nvm, they say they will call us probably next wk?.
hahas.
& i was really still wondering, is there really someone look alike as me 0utside?.
well, e supervision there came to approached mi & ask me : 'r u eric's ex-gf' ?.
i was like stunned for a moment & huh?. i tink u gt e wrong person.
well, she said i look familiar or smethin.
ahhah. &smetimes ppl will called mi up/sms/msn-ing me asking were u at blah blah blah place today or whatever de.
when i wasn't really at all those places they named.
wen i ask them why, they say i saw smeone look like you.
LMAOS!.

hahas. aniwae, aft we gt 0ur pay at e end 0f e day.
mi & huili went t0 buy d0nuts & 0tahs f0r 0ur family.
so good 0f us right? ahaas.




yummy !

bye ppl(:

sup ppl (:
went 0ut wif my huili bestie ytd.
went to buy contact lens at smewher near our sch.
its been smetime since i took 157 to travel to there ever since o's lvl ended. LOLs.
we were in a dilemma on where to go next, then huili suggest to go VIVo.
cus we'r still jobless now, we couldn't anihw spend money as if we were loaded.
so, we jus went window shopping. so pathetic right?.
we went in to this shop :



wonder wad shop is this?
is jus a pet shop.
e pet dog inside is simply cute lo! hahas.
left vivo ard dinner time.
meet huili's brother at JP.
we went to RI BEN CHUN eat sushui agns!.
lala~ my favourite!
&huili's brother simply make us pissed off & at e smetimes mkes us LMAOS!
LOLS!
while on our way home, e 3 0f us were so stupid tat we took e wrong bus hme.
-.-!!
all thanks to huili's brother. hahas.
but we still managed to mke our way bac hme la. =x

pics for e day :
e two siao char bo went camwhor-ing.


i simply love this pic ! loves (:




acting cute is not a crime !. LALA ~





nothing much today .
jus spend my day wif huili & my brother .
& im damns fuckin bored now too !
i need a JOB !.

alriqht, goin 0ff.
niqhts (:

if only u c0uld understand h0w i feel.

sup.
bac to blog.
oh man, its wednesday!
piggy mi lala till 123opm today. hohoho~
& im rotting rotting ! gonna decomposed le.
i need a job badly.
anibody has any job lobang? PM mi pls & i'll be v.thankful to ya. (:

went online searchin for jobs today.
then see theng bei bei called mi up, sae gt sme jobs interview.
so i called up catherine bao bao to go along while seetheng bei bei drag pei yu to go along.
& we've to wait their calls for e time being.
sighs. damns fuckin sians la.
im already rotting at hme le. =x
i wanna work! & i gots lots of tings wanna buy siias. arghh.
0h ya. saw jia yu in e train & she is so damns shuai la. LOLs.
& e factory mike is workin nt goin to hire ppl animore.
wah. & u knw , u knw im so damns disappointed lo. -.-
lalas~
gonna upload sme photos & im off to search for work.



we will still be friends forever

& ever

till e end (:

nights ppl.

imissu!.

didn't really intend to blog.
but i guess i need a place to vent out my anger cus i can't alwaes vent everiting on my frens.

well, ton 0ver last nite at buddy's hse.
went to fetch her at ngee ann poly.
travellin to ngee ann poly by bus is damns fucking long la. -.-"
& buddy, i misses sleepin on e same bed wif u! tsk tsk...

alright, i damns fucking pissed off since e dae b4.
but i jus kept quiet & din sae anithin onli buddy knws.
im kinda of disappointed & ended up crying, perhaps crying mkes mi feels beta?
yes, it jus mkes mi feel better but won't solve e problem.
smetimes i really do wonder, wad do ppl tke mi for?.
i d0n't like to be taken granted for.
i can be nice to everybody but i can't possibly give in to every single one alwaes.
im tired of it already.
wen i really care, wad do u tke mi for man?.

sighs.
i guess, i really nid a break.
im off (:

Cat baobeiis, HAPPY SWIT SEVENTEEN B'DAE!
dear girl, so sorry to wish u late today.
don't be mistaken, i didn't 4get b0ut ur b'dae.
is jus tat i've sme problems at hme.
shall update wif u in details tml wen i ring u up bahs.
h0pe u did enj0y urself today(:

wassup.
ytd, went out wif huili's mum, bro&sis to buy hair dye.
b4 tat, we had mac at jp first.
me & huili ate happy meal.
eh. wad's wrong wif us eatin happy meal? we like it cnt mehs?
cus e guy who serve us give us a blur look & even 'huh'?
wth lo.
0h yeah, i had my hair dyed. thanks mummy for e help(:
then went IMM b4 headin hme.
reached hme, quarrelled wif dad. ta ma de.
then nvm, at nite mum quarrelled wif dad cus of mi.
hais. then i jus can't help but keep crying.
thanks th0se frens who c0ns0led mi. loves loves.
im still feelin damns fans cus e problem hasn't been solved.
& i really gt n0 idea wad t0 do, cus this time kinda of serious.
i shall nt write in details wad actually happened.
if u really care, then ask mi personally then.

today, in e afternoon, acc my bro to had his IC done.
then i mit dearest mike at BUgis while my bro went to mit his fren.
was supposed to mit him at Boon lay but i ask him cum to bugis instead.
argh. so sorry!
0ut wif him was fun though e time we hang out was short!
shop ard to look out for clothes for his upcomin fren's weddin dinner.
but didn't find any.
then we slacked at starbucks, play wif his PSP & im so noob wif it la.
then stupid him keep laugh at me. so BAD!
wanted to wait for xiao zhu luo zhi xiang arrival.
but tml he gt to work so we left early.
so sad.
aniwae, thanks for ur accompanion today.
hope u'r nt bored.
cus i still wasn't in a mood.
but thanks for makin mi laugh & mke mi feel better.
im lookin f0rward t0 next hang 0ut wif ya!.
pls cut down on ur smokin lahs. cus u did promise mi tat.

y do u resemble him so much?
everythin of u looks so alike as him.
u reminds mi of e past i had.
& i can't help myself but cried.
& im afraid i can't stop myself ...

nights ppl , im off.

hellos ppl(:
im finally bac to blog.
well, my stressful peri0d has finally ended!
happy? yes, 0f cus iim am!.
but at e same time still worried b0ut e 0utcome.
i knw many told mi nt to tink b0ut it first, enjoy myself first rite?
but i jus can't help myself but being paranoid. -.-

well, aft e last paper ended ytd.
went hme hab a nap first, then 2gether wif huili, chienjuen & qingwen..
we went t0 bugis.
aft exams must go 0ut relax le. LOL.
smem0re exams peri0d, i've been coopin at hme siia.
saw l0ts 0f tings wanna buy, but no $$$!
im hungry f0r cashs.
jobs anibody?? text mi pls.
aft tat, we went t0 ri ben chun eat sushi.(:
yeah yeah! my fav0urite. :D
hmm. well, its really rare tat e 4 0f us gather 2gether t0 makans lo.
e feelins is indeed great!
we hab l0ts 0f laughter ya. (:
reach hme ard 11+. shiok!

im g0nna dye my hair tml.
lalalas~
h0pe it will turn 0ut t0 be alriqht ya.
i free already!
wanna date mi 0ut, bo0k mi then. LOL.
ii misses my BUDDY wors.

haiis.
actualli, wasn't really in a good mood jus n0w.
dun really like staying at hme larhs.
im quarrelling wif dad almost everyday.
& its really gettin 0n my nerve. FUCK SHIT.
i dun0 wad's wrong wif him. he jus can't st0p naggin at mi.
hw i wish i can m0ve 0ut 0f e hse man.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!.
n0t only tat, i dun0 wad's wrong wif mi.
im being paranoid agns lo.
i keep thinkin b0ut negative things.
which im really pissed 0ff wif myself.
haiis.
alriqht, i guess im endin off.
i h0pe i'll be alright bahs.
takkaiire ppl(:

wher r u wen i needed u ?