REGRETS.
Seems like i've abandon my blog for ages again. No idea why i'm back here. But i guess this is the only space to get things off my chest.
Already in my twenties , okay to be exact , already 22. keep asking myself for the past few months.
" What the hell have i achieve so far? " Seriously, i think there isn't anything i've achieve or accomplished. I feel that i'm such a failure.
I regretted doing things i shouldn't have done and things i should have done it but eventually i didn't. Till date, i only have a ITE cert ( Nitec In Electronics ) which i regretted taking that course because it wasn't my interest AT ALL. Must be wondering why did i take up that course in the first place when i wasn't into it at all right? HAHAHA. I, myself have no idea why either. So i wasted like 2 years of my youth in ITE. How wonderful. After i graduated, I should have just furthur my studies in a private school since i know it isn't possible for me to progress to POLY. But i didn't! I wasted my time working in a job with no prospect & low pay. And if my parents were supportive enough they could have support me & sponser my school fees. Hell no, they didn't.
And how naive of me that i thought i would have the ability to save up a sum of money to furthur my studies which i didn't. I spend what i earn on useless things & enjoying my life away.
Talking about money, the main problem is a proper job. Don't know if i'm unlucky or what. I've been changing jobs now and then. partly is my fault, i'm so demanding trying to look for a job which i like and of cus it ain't impossible. If i wasn't that demanding i could have settled down long ago with a proper job. I wouldn't be suffering now.
I kinda wasted alot of time doing nothing. I played too much. I enjoyed too much. I regretted it now. Damn hate myself. All those target that i've set, i've yet to accomplish any. I guess it's too late for any regrets now.
I won't blame anyone but myself. I always have this mindset that i still have lots of time, why rush? Now then i start to realise time waits for no one, i can't turn back the time that i've lost or slow down the time. I'm not young anymore. I want to settle down with a Man.
For now, i've to give up some of the things that i wanted to do in order to accomplish some other important things. Serve me right. Whenever i see my friends able to accomplish their goals, i really feel that i'm so screw up. Why am i in such a pathetic state now? Maybe is my retribution.
Really, i prayed that my life will get better. I hope that i will pull through all this obstacles. May God Bless Me.
Goodbye.
