ii misses jamos chua , e FATTY PIG PIG .
HOHOHO ~

currently listenin to : doing it again

keep repeating tis song .
duno y , cus is his fav song ?.
im oso nt in a gd mood actualliis .
ii HATE my fucking father !.
alright , ii FINALLY get bac my wallet lahs !.
my wallet was away frm miie forr 2 daes .
ke lian de wallet , was wiif joshua tat idiot for 2 daes .
hehs , hehs ;
& tat stupid joshua still says :" e wallet bei bi come bac to miie ".
den ii replied him : wad bei bi niias . im e owner of e wallet , of cus mush come bac to miie .
tinks u'r e one hu can't bear to leave 'her' bahs . hohoho ~
den i 4get he sae wad liiaos , he keep sayin e wallet bei bi de la . blah blah blah .
den i sae e wallet is a 'she' , cnt stay wiif him cus confirm die de .
e idiot joshua jiu reply sayins he came bac frm thailand , den "she" go for sex change . LOLS !.
ii jiu reply joshua sayin : wher gt? still e same . e operation fail lahs .
den joshua ask mii go check hao lai .
den ii say ii checked liiao .
den he jiu repliis tiis : " but still bei bi to go bac to u. hais. ee. anyhow check. outrage modesty. i call 999.

wahahhas (:
we'r so lammmeee , rite ?.
k, is all crap !.
aniiwaes , sorry to trouble youu .


love miie forr who ii am*]]


im tempted to youu (:


i wan it that way (:

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dunos y wen u gave miie attitude , ii will feel v.v.v.sadd !
& ii won't say or tok bac .
ii'll jus feel lyk cryins .
sighs *
nvm .
P.S ii dun lyk to be attitude at .

wo zhen de zhen de zhen de zhen de hen xiiang nii lorrs !!!!

went in to my friendster jus nw .
& ii kena shocked .
looked at this .






tis person by e name of ' micky ' send mi all this tings .
& e problem is ii dun even know hu he is , though he is in my fren list .
i only rmb he addin miie lahs .
ii jus find it ridiculous !.
arghh !!.

todae went hme wiif pui ying aft sch.
reach hme feelins vexed & troubled, so decide to soak myself in e bath - tub.
ii jus wannas relaxed myself & tink through wad im tryin to do & wad im gonna do.
ii spend almost half-hr or more in e bath - tub & i've nt tink of wad am i goins to do.
sighs*
ii almost fall aslp larhs.
nvm. at least im feelins much betas le.
thanks all my frens for all ur care & concern.
ii feel blessed to hab u all by my side wenever im feelins down.
& thanks jolin jie for tellin miie ur story. u'r indeed v.jian qiang!.

ii realised ii've been tolerating stuff which ii shldn't hab been toleratin &
makins myself , my life so miserable .
but ii dun understand y am ii toleratin?.
mayb ii jus wans peace & by perhaps ii feel tat by toleratin, it'll b peaceful bahs.
though, ii may b sufferin. but aren't it a better way?.
life is like this.
we'r bound to meet all sorts of up & down.
by runnin away, may nt help.
but smetimes i still choose to runaway.

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JAMOS CHUA IS A IDIOT PIG LAHS !!.

listenin to songs nw .
& thinkins bout e past .
cans time goes bac & stay at tat moment ?.
sighs, it's impossible .
ii wans bac e old youu !.
feels lyk cryins .
y aren't u havin any reaction at all ?.
xin hen tong , zhen de hen tong !.

[[`` 我很想你 你知道吗?.``]]

i knows lots of ppl askins miie wad has happpened causin miie so much of unhappiness .
i knows all youu ppl care .
i dun wish to sae much bout wad happened , read my post .
words says everythins .
i dunos wad more ii could do already .

18 Mar 07, 01:23
xinyi: i always believe that if you have faith in something,
you would get them, may your waiting be something thats worthy!

tiis wad xin yi says to miie in e tag .
thanks gal (:
ii alwaes believe in faith in whatever ii do .

BOY, ii hope to received ur tag agns .
ii noes u will b readin it .





我会好好过



等你再爱我



总有个角落



会让你想起我

well i wonder could it be
when i was dreaming about you baby
you were dreaming of me
call me crazy
call me blind
to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
did i lose my love to someone better
and does she love you like i do
i do, you know i really really do
well hey
so much i need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away
so sad but true
for me there's only you
been crying since the day
i remember date and time
september twenty second
sunday twenty five after nine
in the doorway with your case
no longer shouting at each other
there were tears on our faces
and we were letting go of something special
something we'll never have again
i know, i guess i really really know
why do we never know what
we've got till it's gone
how could i carry on
cause i've been missing you so much i have to say

} " tiis is hw ii feel , u know ?. "


why are you breakin my heart agns & agns ?.
why dun youu jus carry on wiif e lie instead ?.
ii dun wans ur sorry .
youu noe hw much ii needed you den why r leavin miie alone agns .
imagine miie without you .
wad will it b like ?.
ii can't imagine & i dun dare to imagine it .
ii really nd you , ii really nd youu !.
ii nv blame you forr wad u did ..
ii dun wans youu to be lyk tiis & carry on lyk tiis .
youu knows , ii realliis hate tat gal hu've hurt youu b4 & causin youus to b lyk tiis .
ii'll findd ur heart back de .
youus asked miie "wadd iif u asked miie to wait for 4xx days instead 1xx days, am ii goins to wait"?
ii tell youus , even iif its 1000 days or a millions days .
iim still willins to wait .
ii dun believe ur heart has lost e feelins wen ii've done so much ?.
u reallis dun hab anii feelins at all ma ?.
ii realliis dun mindd doins stupid tings & anithin jus forrs youus .
let miie b e one sufferin instead bahs .

136 days already ...
就是那麼爱你 什麼都想为你
你知道我爱你 会爱到很久

update , update & UPDATE !.

THURSDAY 15o3o6
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went to SGH on friday to visit huizhii BUDDY's mom .
her mom was hospitalized & still unconscious .
wen ii reached dere buddy was like keep cryin & standin beside her mom keep askins her mom to wake upp .
ii feel lyk cryins wen ii c buddy lyk tis , my eyes was alreadiis red already but i hold bac my tears .
ii cans understand hw buddy feels , really feels sad seein her lyk tis .
BUDDY , BE STONG !
ur mummy will b strong & wake upp de !.
may god bless .
went to read buddy's blog jus nw .
haiis . feel like cryin , ok .

this is was she wrote :

mummy, please wake up as soon as possible. daddy, jiejie, jie fu and me need you very much. mummy you must be strong and hold on to your strong will to wake up. stop sleeping and faster open your eye, you have been sleeping more than enough. you must overcome all the difficulties and survive this ordeal because everyone including our family, your god daughter and god son, aunts and uncles, and cousins love you very very much and we will always be in your heart to support you. please wake up soon for our sake, we cant afford to lose you because you are always the dearest mother in our heart. no matter what happen, the family will never give you up so do you, you must be strong and survive. there are still many things waiting for you to do, you must wake up to finish them all. everyone will pray for you to be safe and sound, you also must preserve your strong will. keep praying in your heart because all the gods will be able to hear, they will give you a helping hand. mummy you are the kindest and the most excellent mother in the world, i love you very very much, i am still 16 and that is still very young, you still must watch me enter poly and university, graduate and have a good job. you must see me wearing the square hat which means i have graduate from university, you must attend my wedding and carry your grand children. give me a chance to take good care of you, to love you and to cherish every moment i have with you. i want you to nag at me everyday because i know it was for my own good and also you love me. i want to see my pretty and elegant mummy to wake up and open her eye, so you must fulfill my wish. you always listen to me what i told you, so this time no matter what you must listen to me. mummy, we will pray hard for you so faster wake up. i love you mummy, and i know you love me and the family too. muacks

extracted frm : huizhi buddy's blog

* let's pray & hope her mummy will wake up soon !.

i left e hospital & went to mit jiahui sis .
cus its been duno hw mani daes since ii last met her .
den went to her hse .
ard 9 plus to 10 , left her hse & headed to jp to mit pig pig forrs dinner .
tat idiot !. make miie wait dunos forr hw long .
& ii hab my dinner almost 10 plus to 11 .
iim already starving already lors . SI ZHU TOU !.
its really been awhile since ii last sat down to hab a meal wif him lahs .
sighs *

TODAY .
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went to find pigg .
prepared lunch for him & he nags sayins ii took a v.long time lahs .
arghh !. qian bian lors .
see , so gd of miie prepared lunch for him lahs .
den he still complains i took such a long time^ . LOLS .
he went for work aft tat , den ii jiu headed to jiahui hse .
went to mit her to decide if wans go to hospital .
but we end up nt goins .
sorry BUDDY !.
mayb tml den go visit her bahs .
alrite , shall end here le !.

" my love forrs youus is unspeakable "

two songs to share forr e day !.
tis two songs is frm e movie ii watch tat dae 'MUSIC & E LYRICS'.
ii love tis two songs la, so decided to share wiif everybody .







* click on play to listen .
enjoy ~

yesyes.
it's complicated between us(like wad u said)
我只想爱你

iim so so so disappointed & angriis wiif youu lahs .
youu alwaes lyk tat de lahs .
nan de youu tml off lors .
&yet u find excuses sayin tis & tat .
suan le lahs .
haiis .

hellos. (:
shall post a lil boutt todae.
wake upp quite earliis todae , 1oplus. is it still consider earlis?
haas. i shld b wakins up at 9 plus instead cus iim meetins yuling & see theng .
butt as usual , iim LATE agns !.
e bad habit of mine.
mit dem to go KING's ice-cream factory to buy ice cream.
they'r havin promotion lahs. sellin e ice-creams cheap.
e weather was so so so damns HOT todae larhs.
ii was lyk keep sweatin & ii hate e feelins of sweatin.
den in e evenin or so, went to catch a movie 'e music& lyrics' wiif mummy & br0ther.

it's been awhile since ii last watched movie wiif dem lahs.
so decided to catch a movie wiif dem.
overall, all ii cans sae is e moviie is nt bad lahs. quite funny.
oh ya. my leg nw pain loads, cus im havin blister.

see?. shi tong de lors.
alrite. shall end e dae wiif sme zii liians fotos.





takkaiire everyone ~

ii've gt nth to blog actualliis .
butt ii gt nth to do , rottin soon .
jus post sme music video to share .




Boa - winter love
a v.touchin song , tis song can mkes miie cry .




&other touchin song by Boa , key of heart .
e endin is sadd ya .
enjoy ~

ii wans tiis w850i fone badly!. hu is willins to buy forrs miie ?. haas.

im missin youu lyk crazy !.

wanted to post sme long entry .
but im nt in a gd mood lahs , no mood to post .
jus writing tis post to sae out hw i'm feelins nw .

hw ii wish youu could told miie tat its nt true lahs .
ii tot ii guess wrongly or tink too much .
but in end is still true .
dunos why ii feel lyk cryin wen u told miie bout it ?.
am i too emotional or wadd ?.
wo bu zhi dao lahs , jus wish tat its nt TRUE !.
ii feel kinda of sad nw .
my mind is all bout wad u've told miie .
ii keep thinkin & thinkin .
haiis ~

takkaiire everybody .
niites }

im missing you badly .

dun0s hw t0 describe my feelins nw .
iim angriis & sad at e same time wiif ya lahs .
tears gonna roll down .
do u n0es hw worried ii was today ?.
& in e end ?.
sighs *
suan le ..

UPDATES !!.

FRIDAY o2o3o7
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tiime passes real fast , nw is already e mth of march .
friday , ii rmb goins bac hme earliis cus ii've to visit my godmother's hse .
left godmummy hse ard 5 plus went hme to get changed den mit LIYING darlingg .
we to0k cab to causeway point to mit liying's frens .
hab our dinner dere , chit-chat awhile .
left e place ard 8 plus cus we reallis BTH alreadiis .
we went bac to jp went to play acrade awhile den headed to her hse .
her mummy gave miie angbaos !. lalalas ~
den we chat boutt loads of tings , it's been awhile since ii hab a gd chat wiif her .
ii share all my xin shi wiif her too , she told miie boutt hers too .
gal , dunch b too gd to guys !.
guys alwaes tke gal fors granted .
den she told mie sme stuff which ii get kinda of du lan .
is nt b'cus of wad darling hab said , it's bout smebodis hu told her sme tings .

p.s FUCKIN BITCH , ii DEPISE you & ii hate you loads !.
ii've enough of u alreadiis .
STOP actin as iif you'r pathetic lahs .
ur pathetic face mkes miie wannas PUKE !.
ii regretted tellin youus all my xin shi , ii trust you tat's y ii tell u .
y shld ii continue e friendship wif u , wen iim only e one fu chu in e friendship ?.
you hab taken frens for granted .
nvm , you dun nd miie & ii DUN nd youu too !.

ok . im jus ventin my anger out !. phew .
aft all th0se chit chatting , ii found out it was almost mid nite plus .
liying ask miie to stay over-nite but ii haven told mom bout it b4 hand .
so ii rejected , ii booked cab hme .
wen ii reached hme , daddy came out & found out tat ii reached hme so late .
nagged at miie as usual .
tat's nt all , he wake mummy up to tell her bout it . WTF lahs .
den mummy scolded miie too .. SADD !.
suan le . it's nt e first time oso .

SATURDAY o3o3o7
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mit upp wiif BAOBEIIS catherine to china town !.
she peii miie went dere to tke fotos for my art work , thanks my dearr (:
HEH , HEH . guess wad .
iim punctual while meetin wiif baobeiis . LOLS .
aft all those fotos - tkin sessions , we went to BUGIS .
we went to long john to makans first cus we were both hungry .
den we went shopping .
tat's wher our shoppin addiction came agns .
we shop e whole bugis village dun0s hw manii times .
cat couldn't found any clothes tat worth her likins , while ii bought a top for myself !.
& a necklaces la . & my shoes spoilt too . sighs *
den ii suggested to go marina square cus ii wannas to find ahem ahem *
even though my shoes spoilt le .
den cat agreed to peii miie go .
wen we reached dere , she went to shop agns .
hope t0 prey for sme gd stuff . LOls .
den went to cartel to c pig pig !.
tink he gt kindas of surprised tat ii will go dere bahs .
tinks he t0t tat ii g0 dere for shopping onliis , but actually is nt .
ii noes ii alwaes do STUPID tings lahs .
but ii jus can't help it !.
ii ONLY managed to see pig awhile cus he's busy & ii've to rushed to mit mummy .
betas den dun hab .
& baobeiis still pei miie go mit my mummy even though her leg's pain due to e heels she's wearin .
thanks LOADS !.
c tiis is wadd ii call TRUE frens . understand ?.
shall end here le .
will uploads sme fotos tml .
kinda of tired le .

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wen u really like sme one a lots , you'll be willin to sacrificed for him/her .
iim willin to sacrificed anythin jus forrs youus ..

Never let you go

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Tho I told myself won t hold my breath
a part of me was dying
here is nothing left for me to do now,but give in
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell youI won t live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,I d never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don t know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can t believe we d never dance
I just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance
Tho I told myself won t hold my breath a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won t live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your handand look in your eyes and ya know,
I d never let you go
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won t live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chanceto tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I d never let you go

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e pains still remains .
iim missing you badly once agns .
you left miie all al0ne agns wen ii needed you e most .
ii've alreadiis tell you hw ii feel & want ii wanted .
y you jus hab n0 reaction ?.
haiis .