ii've made up my decision .
im nt giving upp .
ii'll continue t0 wait de ...

endless waitingg .

ii dun0s wadd am ii doins larhs .
ii shld b hating eu instead?. butt y am ii still thinkin b0utt eu, still wantin t0 call eu lyk wadd ii alwaes used t0?. perhaps it've alreadis b'cum a habit le. & a habit is difficult t0 kick off. jus liked eu, iif ii ask u t0 kick off ur smokin habit, can eu?.
ii realiis nt used to it, is lyk somethin is missing suddenly. sobbs.
y everting happened so suddenly?
c'mon XUELI , could eu pls jus wake up?. arghh!!
no point hating you lahs, hating you won't make my wound in my heart heal too.
ii jus wish t0 4get everythin, butt hw?. it's difficult.
wadd iif ii sae im nt givin up, ii'll continue to wait?. am ii v.foolish?.
ii reallis dun0s wad im tryin to do lahs. ii reallis v.confused lahs. FUCK la.
everythin is nt e gonna b e same animore. cans ii still ring eu up & chat ?. cans ii still msg u like wadd a fren will do ?. or will eu still msg miie , care for miie as a fren ?. will ii still b able to see u agns ?.
haiis, suan le , suan le. it's impossible le. eu will nv care animore .
dun wish to tink le , e more ii tink , my head pains more .
sobbs ..

"Some people are just not meant to be in your life no matter how much you want them to be.
LOVE is so CoMpLiCaTed. It sux sometimes,Bud it oso brighten up ur lyfe. Ur mere words hab shattered my heart."

'' will eu still b readin tis post?. ''
'' will eu ans all th0se qns?. ''
haiishh ..

WHY?.
why aren't eu e one tellin miie everythin instead?.
why is eddy the one tellin miie?.
BLOODY hell , eddy. why mush eu tell miie.
iif eddy din tell miie, r u plannin nt t0 tell miie?. iim realliis disapp0inted.
d0 eu hw it feels wen eddy t0ld miie b0utt it?. h0nestly, wen he told miie ii dun believe it. u noe?. ii still tink eddy is lyin to miie.
& in e end ii still hab t0 find 0ut e truth MYSELF!?. hw ii wish ii've nv knew e truth.
d0 eu n0es hw hurt am ii nw?. d0 eu n0e e pain im havin nw?. xin realliis hen tong , hen tong!.
d0 eu n0es is lyk somebody stab a knife deep int0 ur heart?. & is nt only ONE stab, is a few stab!!. & e one who has stab tat knife into miie is YOU.
my heart is alreadiis DEAD!. ii've n0 feelins le, is alreadis NUMB. ii no longer n0e wadd's called LOVE le.
din n0es tatt things will turned 0ut t0 b lyk tis.
din expected tat u'll hurt miie in e end too.
din expected tat e pigg tatt ii alwaes used to called is gonna disappeared frm my life.
sobbs..
WHY?. am ii reallis tat BAD to you?. y0u realis gt nth t0 sae t0 miie marhs?.
suan le, frm nw on.. ii won't treat ppl gd animore. wadd's e use 0f treatin ppl gd wen in e end iim e one gettin hurt? im e one sufferin?.
d0 eu n0es aft eu left jus nw, iim cryin all al0ne dere?. ii dun0s wher t0 g0. my mind is LOST.
eu realliis damns cruel.

ii dun0s hw am ii goins to slp 2nite.
hw ii wish somebodiis will gif miie a sleepin pills nw & h0pe ii cans fall aslp.
hw am ii gonna 4get everiting?.
nw ii finally realised hw SILLY ii am. nvm, iim jus tat SILLY larhs.
iim afraid ii'll changed int0 a v.bad, v.bad miie.
iif eu'r readin tis post nw, wadd'll eu d0?. ii n0es, eu'll jus read & act as if nth has happened b4 , riite?. suan le.

THANKS, KELVIN korr korr ferrs being dere f0r miie . thanks for consolin miie everytime wen ii am down .
THANKS, BAOBEIIS CATHERINE too . ii noe eu aren't in a gd mood too todae , but yet eu oso care ferr miie .
THANKS, SEE THENG . for ur consolin too . sorrys din go to e chalet cus ii reallis gt n0 mood . tink ii g0 find eu tml bahs .
THANKS, JIAHUI SIS . sorrys to keep eu worry le . ii n0e eu'r v.worried bout miie . ii'll b fine de .
& thanks those frens hu'r dere fer miie .

" will ii still b able to called u pigg agns ?. will ii still b able to hab eu to cheer miie up wen iim down ?. will ii still .. ii n0es is IMPOSSIBLE le . im jus thinkin too much . do ii reallis means nth to u ma? "

shld ii hate y0u instead?.

I HATE LIARS !!!.

Taken 0n 2312o6










prom nite outFIT

huili & miie

the gals =))

im SICK !. SOBS. mummy came bac frm m'siia le, but she still dun wannas t0k t0 miie. ii alreadiis try t0 t0k t0 her le, butt she still ign0red miie . jus nw ii c0ugh till VOMIT lors, den she saw liiao oso nv sae anithin. wth. haiish, suan le. she wanna t0k t0 miie jiu t0k lahs. dun wans jiu suan le. iim alreadiis v.FANS le.
huili , thanks fers c0min upp jus nw t0 glf miie medicine. reallis appreciate it. see ?. even frens kn0ws hw t0 care. b0ut wadd b0utt parents?. they failed t0 d0 s0.

IM DAMNS DISSAPPOINTED WIIF HIM TOO!.

shld ii realliis tell him hw ii feels ?. & all e stuff all tatt ?. ii realliis damns disapp0inted wiif him siias. he's n0 l0nger carin as wadd he's used t0 b liiaos. messages frm him is gettin lesser & lesser le !!!!!!!!!!!.

" wen eu've fallen f0r a pers0n , eu cans scarificed anythin jus for him " (it's TRUE)
" eu oso won't care wadd other ppl says , cus to you , tat pers0n is PERFECT "
iim craziie OVER you .

BAC t0 BLOGGIN agns =)).
ii changed my blogs songs , tis songs suits my feelings nw.

my heart pains LOaDs nw. realliis hen tong hen tong!. iim cryin frm ytd till nw, tears jus can't st0p fallin d0wn. ii hab never cry so badly b4.
why can't eu jus smetimes spare a th0ught ferr miie b4 eu sae anithin?. dunch eu n0es tatt every single w0rd tatt eu said means al0t t0 miie.
feel tat eu've changed, eu'r nt as caring lyk wadd eu used t0 be le.
jus nw wen ii t0ld eu b0utt wadd happened t0 miie & my mom, u jus listened. haiis. can't eu jus sae smethin t0 c0mf0rt miie marhs?. haiis, suan le.
d0 eu n0es e actual reason tatt ii din wanted t0 went t0 m'siia marhs?. partly is cus is siians lyk wadd ii t0ld eu & partly is cus of ... ... nvm. nw sae le oso n0 use liiaos. is useless le. s0bs. iim n0 l0nger tatt strong XUELI tatt ii used t0 b le ..
ii feels lyk goins t0 e beach nw & sh0ut all my heart ouuttttttttttt !!!!!!!!!...

' eu'll nv knew hw imp0rtant eu'r t0 miie '
' ii jus h0pe eu'll appreciate miie '

it's been awhile since ii last p0sted smethin.
iim bac frm my pri sko0l class chalets, all ii cans sae is FUN !.
ii realliis enj0y it h0nestly & e feelins 0f gettin t0 c pri scho0ls frens agns is great!.
class 0f boon lay garden 6/2 RAWKSS !.
h0pe we will hab tis klnda 0f gatherin agains.

alrite t0k b0utt t0dae.
mit upp wiif HUILI, we went t0 buy our pr0m nite stuff.
chia yee & kelly acc0mpany us al0ng too.
we went t0 far east, ii b0ught a whlte dress & a pair 0f sh0es.
e rest 0f e stuff tink sunday den g0 buy bahs.
OMG!. pr0m nlte stuff is causin miie to BROKE!. haiish..

m0nday gettin back n lvls results le. feel so afraid nw.
dun0s hw's my results, realis dunch wish t0 g0 get it.
tml goins GOD SIS wedding dinner, dun0s wadd out fit shld ii wear.
arghh !.
shall endd here. T.T

ii miisses tat STUPID IDIOTIC PIG PIG !.
alwaes ask u tings, butt ii alwaes get no response frm eu. haiis.

nites every0nes ~

i'll b away for CHALET lata ..
takkaiire everyone.

OUT wiif pig todae in e aftern00n.
finalli saw him t0dae cus ii 3 daes nv saw him le.
online jus nw, a blo0dy idiot t0k to miie.
his e-mail : [[ alwyn2463@hotmail.com ]]
he added miie in msn & wen ii jus sign in to msn , he send miie a NUDGE.
den ii asked him " hu r u " .
he replied miie wiif a '' dunno " .
WTH !. wadd a stupid ans?. den dunch t0k t0 miie in e first place larhs.
idiot, iif tis person adds eu betas dunch accept. it's wastin my time t0kin to tis kinda of idiot!.

my deariie SUSANNA nu er is bac!. WEETS.
ii miisses her ..

takkaiire everyone.

" always on my mindd "

iim pissed off wiif myself larhs.

something's nt right.
iim cryin.
heart feels so pain.
everythin seems to b lyk nt e same animoree.
haiish ..

all ii do is cry.. cry.. & cry.
wen iim sad, ii nv show it out.
jus pretend to b happii iif ii cans.
it's torturin.
sometimes remains silent doesn't seems to be a bad ting too.

thanks kelvin kor kor ferr being dere for miie .

DON"T take miie for granted.

XUELImissespigpig ..

`` ii tink among all e pigs , e fifth one l00ks much more like '' PIG '' so stupid!. hahas. ``
o0ps!. he gonna kill miie , iif he saw tis. lalalas ~

pard0n miie for being bo liiaos, cus ii gt nth to do larhs. LOLs!.

IM BORED!.
shall t0k b0ut wad iim doins nw.
iim readin horoscopes sign for todae. LOLs.
ii gt inflenuced by PIG!.
it's interesting actualliis, lalalas ~

LEO BABY
Daily Overview
December 04, 2006
Yours is one of the most multitalented signs in the zodiac, but being so gifted can also distract you from your true path -- or so you think. Just wait this mood out. There's nothing wrong with being a renaissance person
Sometimes, being unique requires that you be brave -- life isn't always easy for people who don't conform. Today someone in power will be intent on making sure that you parrot the party line. This may be one time when your iconoclasm and your unique perspective could get you the wrong kind of attention. So consider furling your freak flag -- but only temporarily. The ability to get lost in a crowd can be an excellent safety mechanism

Weekly Romantic
12/04/2006 - 12/10/2006
No matter what the weather, this week starts out warm and just keeps getting hotter for you (lucky thing!). Friends and festivities cheer you up as the week begins, and burning the candle at both ends (just a bit!) makes for some very lovely light. Midweek, you can find extra insight into all things love-related, and if you tune into your heart, you'll also know exactly when to make an overture. Then, from Friday through the weekend, your days and nights are custom-made for romance. You're glorious, and only your imagination limits the wonderful things that can happen

sources frm : http://horoscopes.astrology.com

CURRENTLY LISTENTIN TO : DOING IT AGAIN .

my mood nw is damns FOUL ok. ii can't stand wiif my parents aniimore. they'r jus being UNREASONABLE!. ii can't TOLERATE it aniimore!. iim alreadiis SIXTEEN alreadiis, nt a SIX yrs old xiiao meii meii le. why they still care so much?. iim jus lyk all other SIXTEEN yrs old teenager, we all need FREEDOM!. y can't parents jus listen to miie?. y r they so OUTDATED larhs. pls larhs, nw wad century liiaos?. still so OUTDATED, cans they jus go upgrade themselves, for goodness sake!. ii've my own limits de, ok!. dunch ever try my temper larhs. iim still toleratin wiif dem nw, ok. ii tink u all will miie. u all c0uld hab run out frm e hse & nv come back. ii could hab done tis alreadiis ok!. iif ii realiis run out, ii would nv come bac. can't they jus spare some th0ughts fer miie?. ii've a STUBBORN character, ok. ii hated to b order to do tings & being f0rced to do tings which ii dunch lyk!.

tok b0ut my DAD. he's damns damns damns unreasonable larhs. nw wad century liiaos?. DOTE on boys than gals? WTH is this?. alwaes asked miie to give in to my brother. & wen ever is my brother's fault, he would scold mii onliis. & iim alwaes e one kenas nag at!. WTF!. he nt in gd mood jiu vent all his temper on miie?!. pls larhs, iim oso a human being ok, ii oso will hab MOODSWING de lors. smetimes ii realliis w0nder, do he treat miie as his daugther anots?. aren't parents supposed to dote on their children?. iim nt BORN into tis world to get tis kinda of treatment de ok. iif he dun lyk miie den jus sae bahs, thr0w miie awae in e first place. ii rather be a orphang!. ii n0es u all sae he's my father afterall, u all won't understand hw ii feel de larhs.
everybodys n0es hw ii my father treated miie. especially my frens.

nw my mom. ii dunch understand her smetimes. ok, she DOTES on miie m0re than my brother. & whatever tings ii wans, she will try to get for miie. BUT nwadaes she's being unreasonable & ridicul0us!. ii dunch n0es wad's wr0ng wif her larhs. she & her all th0se frens larhs. her frens alwaes inflenuces her wiif stupid & idiotic tactics to deal wiif children & which is all WRONG!. arghh!!!. & ii alwaes hab to gif in to her after all e quarrells?. pls, ii won't gif in to her animore larhs.

hw long do ii hab to tolerate wiif e 2 of dem?. or do ii reallis hab to wait till im 18?. pls larhs, by e time ii will b in mental hospital liiaos larhs. haiishh..

XUELI HEN KE LIANS leiis.
SOMEBODY PLS HELP HER!.

pig bu li wo.
ii misses pig, cans?.
sobbbs..

XUELI nt in a gd mood t0dae.
shall p0st s0me f0t0s b4 talkin b0utt it.











ROARS *

PINCH PINCH *

XUELI MISSES PIG *

REFLECTIONS *

SONGS : open arms

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide Believe what I say
So here I am With open arms
Hoping you'll see What your love means to me
Living without you Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back Turned night into day I need you to stay
So now I come to you
With open arms Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me

todays feeling : weird
feel lyk smethins is missing..
haiishh ..

enjoy tis song bahs.
takkaiire everyone.