what the hell.

interview tml early in the morning at 9a.m tml?! wth.
well, i send in lots of resume to lots of agents to qet a job since duno wen.
then today one of e agent called me up early in e morninq, wen im still in my beauty sleep.
gave mi lots of miss calls, but i didn't even bother to ans.
until i gt v.pek chek, wanted to ans e call already, she HANG UP? -.-!!!
then she send me a sms tellin me there's a temporary admin cum receptionist job avaliable for me & asked me to go down for a interview tml.
alriqht, then i send her a reply tellin her that i'll go down for e interview.
then this is e pek chek part;
she didn't really mention clearly where's e exact place of e company luhs.
then how am i supposed to go then?!
she only tell me e company name, which is near bukit batok.
then expect me to find out e path to e company myself wen im supposed to reach at 9am??!!
& not only that, the last msq she send me was tellin me tat 'we miqht start you off immed'. see you at 9 then. wtf?
i ask her many many questions regardin e job all tat, she didn't even bother to reply me. nb.
so shld i really go down for e interview?.
if tml i really can't find e place , im qonna bomb her phone. hiak hiak**

i need morning call at 7am tml!

oh well, its been 5days since i last met him.
&im missinq him like hell already.
wad shld i do???????????????
i didn't even dare to rinq him up or msq him. sighs.
wondering how's he doinq right now.
hope u'r alrights.
take care uncleM.
you've been missed.



Right here waitinqq
oceans apart day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain
if i see you next to never
how can we say forever

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you

whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i took for granted all the times
that i thought would last somehow
i hear the laughter
i taste the tears
but i can t get near you now

oh can't you see it baby
you ve got me going crazy
i wonder how we can survive this romance
but in the end if i m with you
i ll take the chance
oh can t you see it baby
you ve got me going crazy
waiting for you~

wherever you go
whatever you do
please rmb im always still here riqht here waitinq for you

im sorry readers if my bored post is killinq you.
pls endure, cus im endinq my post soon.
bye.

misses

i misses alot of peepos man!.
i misses my besties,
i misses my buddy.
especially dearest UNCLE MIKE!
& many MANY 0thers!!
hais.

enuff said.
bye ppl(:

im lookin at my cellphone, dialling ur numbers, but i don't have e courage to ring ya up.
if i've done tat, what shld i say to you e moment you pick up my call?

No one by Alicia keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry coz
Everythings gonna be alright

People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright


No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you


When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain


You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright

People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright


No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you


I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try

Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
I’m telling you that


No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

oh oh oh …

"the lyrics above pretty much depicts how I feel."

im thinking 0f y0u every hour, every minute, every seconds.
i simply jus can't you 0utta of my mind.
how i wish i could be able to see you everyday, but its impossible.
wen can i really see ya agains?
sighs ..
i miss you so!

bye ppl(:

upset but accept it

sup ppl(: sorry for nt updating, don't worry, i didn't mia.
jus don't feel bloggin & i wish to be alone.
oh 24 jan, i gotten my o's lvl results.
for those who duno exactly hw much i fared, don't ask me, cus i didn't do well.
for those who know, keep it to urself pls, thanks.
& for god sake, stop gg ard askin bout my result can?.

im really devestated over my results, i've cried enuff over it.
& i knw no point crying over spilled milk.
what has done, has been done.
i can't change e fact tat i didn't do well, i oso hope i can.
all i can do now, is to accept e reality & face it.
e stress im gg thru nw, no matter can understand.

thru this, it mkes me realised who'r those peeps who really care bout me, really there for me wen i really nid them.
at e same time, there'r oso ppl who disappoint me as well.
wen i really needed them, they are nowher to b found.
its ok.
i quess i've to be strong & be more independent.

im really heartbroken.
but so wad?
i can't do anythin too.
e path tat im goin thru is goin to be tough,
all i yearn for was really supports.
peeps, please be there for me.
cus i really afraid tat im gonna face everythin alone.

Gradtitue to e followin ppl(:
to yuling & joshua ;
thanks for being there for me, helpin me in choosing e courses & all tat.
w/o u ppl, i guess im really gonna lose my way & end up nowher.
thanks for lettin me feel tat there are still people who care for me.

to uncle mike ;
i finally got to meet you up on sat.
cabbed down all e way to city hall to find you.
im so great right?. Lol.
anyways, thanks for makin me laugh & let me feel entertained.
don't qet too stress up over ur stuff, alrights?
life still goes on..
i'll be there for u if u nid me too.
im sure u'll get urself a stable job soon.
gambateh!

to liying darling ;
thanks girl for today.
thanks for acc me dwn to e campus today.
i was so stressed up in e afternoon, luckily u were there for me!
if u were to attend lessons today, i quess i won't b gg dwn to e campus to appeal le.
really thanks!
meet up soon again for shoppin & chit-chats alrights?.
loves (:

to huizhi buddy ;
buds, thanks for comin dwn to pei me aft i receive my results tat dae.
& givin me advice too.
thanks.

no matter hw tough life gonna be.
i still will move on ... ...
will you still be there for me?

im missing you !

niqhts ppl(:

' just wish to be alone '

heartbroken

i don't feel like eating.
i don't like doing anything.
i don't need anybody.
what do you take me for?.
you'r just so selfish.
you only care bout urself.
how u wan me to face you for now?.

all i needed now ... is still you .

i'm waiting ...

i promise to blog today, so here i goes.
i'm emo-ing, &im still emo-ing now.
i'm all alone at home now, mummy ask me to go shopping with her, but i rejected.
0thers did ask me to go out, but i jus wish to be alone for today.

well, in this post i jus qonna express all my feelings out.
0n friday, i made up my mind & headed to his hse, gave him e letter i wrote e niqht before to expressed all my feelinqs out.
e reason i decided to do this is b'cus keepin all my feelings & not sayin out is really a torture, i don't wish to regret for not sayin out.
bestie acc me too.
i wanted to leave aft givin him e letter actually, but we went out to vivo together aft tat.
everythin was like as normal, quarrellin & talkin back to each 0ther as usual.
i told him to read e letter aft he reach home.
but till now, i don't know if he've read it.
Even till now, i hasn't qot any reply from him.
WHY?!
why don't you just tell me?
do you know i feel that i'm like a idiot now, waitin for ur reply?.
why am i the one troubling, stress - ing over it now?
even my younger bro oso can tell me, jie don't think so much first, give urself & him some time first.
if you nid time, can you at least tell me?
i've already took the courage to tell you le.
Can you tell me what more shld i do now man?
i keep askin myself isit am i not good enough?.
i've enough of cryinq.
im tired & worn out now.
i'm sick of everything.
i really hope to put now this stress first b4 i face my o's lvls results.
everybody has their own past story.
don't live in ur past can?
its time to walk out of it le.

i'm qonna give myself & you some more time ..
gonna end my post with pictures.

day out to payalebar with bestie for hair extension







taken on friday























BESTIE is love !
sorry t0 th0se who i kept them worried .
bye people .

I wanna be, the last one that you call late at night
I wanna be, the first one that you dial when you open your eyes
Wanna be the one you run to
Wanna be the one that ain’t gon hurt you
I wanna be, yours
be yours
I wanna be
be yours
I wanna be
be yours ...

Dear readers,
XUELI is gonna BLOG tml! (:
sorry for not updatinq.
im currently emo-inq.
niqhts ppl.

I MISS YOUUS LIKE HELL !

if only you know ..
haiis ..

"my heart simply just hurts"

know what?
im typing this post & crying at the same time.
im really v.disappointed.
today supposed to meet him & his fren de.
end up, very very last minute he called & say he gt urgent things to attend so he couldn't make it le.
he sounded kinda of pissed off but i took e initiative to ask him what has happened actually.
he didn't told me wad actually happened but i was given attitude by him.
ok fine. at least i took e initiative to ask u right?! & yet this is what i got.
i woke up today & hoping to enjoy my day but my mood had all been turned off.
nevermind. leave me alone.
this time im really angry le.

thanks my girls who consoled me.
at least you people were there for me.
at least there are people who is there to care for me.
what about you huh?

now i jus feel like listening to one song "di yi ci" 第一次

BOO !
bac to blog (=
hasn't been workin this few days, cus i'm doin a freelance job you see.
i'll only go to work when i'm free.
been hanqin out wif my girls, huili & chien juen nowadays.
wad do girls normally likes to do? nth else but SHOPPING!
b0ught lots of clothes this few days, im BROKE!
i qonna start saving money le.
alamak, i don't understand how come i got so many things to buy siias??!



well, chien juen gave me my x'mas presents.
im kinda of shocked when she passed it to me.
thouqh e x'mas presents comes abit late cus i didn't managed to mit dao her, but i really do appreciated it.
love ya girl <3

im kinda of feelin stress this few days lahs.
ppl, stop tellin me bout o's lvl's results thingyy!
i don't wish to know, don't wish to hear, DON"T WISH TO HEAR BOUT IT for god sake!!
ROARRSSS!.

actually, i got nth to BLOG.
but i'm jus bloggin for e sake of lettin you ppl noe tat im still alive!
hehs.

pictures








should i tell or shouldn't?
aiyo. hen confused leiis.
can anybody help me?????!!!
im gg crazy.

jus hope e friendship between bestie & i will be e same always & forever ..

bye ppl(:

Hellos people(:
Aft readin bout e new regardin e death of e s'pore comedian, Jimmy (Mc king) makes me feel that life is so unpredictable.
you may be laughing & enjoying happy moments wif ur frens today, but who knows u might be gone tml & forever.
last niqht, i couldn't really get to sleep, thinkin about alot of thinqs.
thinkin bout e life i've been throuqh last yr, really mkes me feel like cryinq.
people broke my heart, i've misunderstandin with friends. etc etc.
but thank qod for givin me e following two babes who never fails to be there for me all e time.
w/o them, i quess i could have gone bersek.



Choo Hui Li - my wonderful bestie since young. attendin e same kindergarden, same pri sch, secondary schools & even graduating toqether really makes me feels that we'r like qonna be fated to be stick toqether. Thouqh we miqht hab several conflicts wif each other before, but our friendship nv dies & gettin stronger as e time goes.
u will never fail to be there for me, consoling me aft each bastard who treats me like shits & breaks my fucking heart. u've been like a sister to me, can't imagine my life w/o a companion like you man! i really hope we could both be promoted to e same poly cus i still wanna continue attendin sch every morning with you! but no matter what e outcome is, u will be still my dearest bestie always! <3



Adelene Low Hui zhi - my buddy for 8 yrs & still counting. Thank qod for givin me this lil girl to be my buddy. Last yr, was really a shit for e both of us & i really hope it will be better for us this year. she never fails to be my listening ear. im really touched wen she took e initiative to do e planning for my seventeen b'dae, wen it really got her kinda of pissed off in e end. i misses e times hanqing out with u & ur poly classmates, they'r really fantantics! & also e times wen e both of us will chat on e fone for several hrs every nite till e both of went bersek. BUDS, i love ya! don't forqet, we promises to hold our weddin ceremony on e same day. LALALAS!

nah..
mood wasn't really gg fine agns.
life is F.sian.
i kinda of misses sch & friends.
nt used to not goin sch man. ARGHHHHHH !!!
i hate e feelin wen i really care but people jus take me granted.
if u'r really important to me, i will really care, if nt i won't even give a F.damns to YOU!
then wad do u tke me for man?.
don't appreciate it jiu suan le.
i've my own limits too. don't push it too far.
cus one day, i may jus burst & vent all my anger on u.

gonna slp early, working tml.
bye ppl(:

to uncle mike ;
hope u'r fine ba. don't knw why i've a feelin somethin is botherin u this few days.
hope im wrong.
but if u've, do tell me.
& its been awhile since i last saw u.
hope to see ya ard soon.
takkaiires.

well, life is really fragile.
so i told myself to treasure whatever things i've now b4 i lose them.
i hate e word 'regret'.
shld i tell you or shld i not?
aiya. fan si ren le larhs!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !

i went out to collect daddy's b'dae cake in e late afternoon.
cus of sme miscommunication wif my mama, i got damns pissed off.
& even shouted at my mama, but everiting was alriqht already.







went to boon lay resturant to makan.
ordered 6 dishes in total includin dessert.
so DAMNS full lahs.





then we went to shop for new SOFA.
& finally bouqht it!
yeah! got new sofa le. LOL.
but qonna wait for 2wks b4 they delivered it to our hse.
still have to wait for damns long sia. -.-
& my brother bought himself a bermudes, mummy bought herself a dress.
wad bout mi?
i bought nothing.

shall end here.
im lost on wad to blog(:
continue tml then.
bye.


its been a long time since u called mi, hw could u've forget bout me?.
i yearn for ur call everyday, but all i got was disappointment each day.