i'm waiting ...

i promise to blog today, so here i goes.
i'm emo-ing, &im still emo-ing now.
i'm all alone at home now, mummy ask me to go shopping with her, but i rejected.
0thers did ask me to go out, but i jus wish to be alone for today.

well, in this post i jus qonna express all my feelings out.
0n friday, i made up my mind & headed to his hse, gave him e letter i wrote e niqht before to expressed all my feelinqs out.
e reason i decided to do this is b'cus keepin all my feelings & not sayin out is really a torture, i don't wish to regret for not sayin out.
bestie acc me too.
i wanted to leave aft givin him e letter actually, but we went out to vivo together aft tat.
everythin was like as normal, quarrellin & talkin back to each 0ther as usual.
i told him to read e letter aft he reach home.
but till now, i don't know if he've read it.
Even till now, i hasn't qot any reply from him.
WHY?!
why don't you just tell me?
do you know i feel that i'm like a idiot now, waitin for ur reply?.
why am i the one troubling, stress - ing over it now?
even my younger bro oso can tell me, jie don't think so much first, give urself & him some time first.
if you nid time, can you at least tell me?
i've already took the courage to tell you le.
Can you tell me what more shld i do now man?
i keep askin myself isit am i not good enough?.
i've enough of cryinq.
im tired & worn out now.
i'm sick of everything.
i really hope to put now this stress first b4 i face my o's lvls results.
everybody has their own past story.
don't live in ur past can?
its time to walk out of it le.

i'm qonna give myself & you some more time ..
gonna end my post with pictures.

day out to payalebar with bestie for hair extension







taken on friday























BESTIE is love !
sorry t0 th0se who i kept them worried .
bye people .

I wanna be, the last one that you call late at night
I wanna be, the first one that you dial when you open your eyes
Wanna be the one you run to
Wanna be the one that ain’t gon hurt you
I wanna be, yours
be yours
I wanna be
be yours
I wanna be
be yours ...