Devestated,Miserable,Lost..
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" i wish to be alone "

Was enrolled into Digital Media Effect course in Ang Mo Kio campus.
But i don't wanna study there.
Is not that im not interested in it.
Is i mind the distance.
Imagine i've to travel for bout 1hr plus everyday to Ang mo kio campus for lessons frm my hse?
i quess by the i reach there, im already half-dead man.
where will i still have e energy to carry on with the lessons?.
i knw i knw, many told me if i'm really interested in the course, i won't mind the distance.
But.. but.. u people won't understand de luhs.
i tried to appeal for Business Studies, but it's still unsucessful!
im really devestated.
my interest is in businees studies & yet i can't get in.
i'm still left with one last chance to appeal for another course in nitec.
but e vacany left are only those electronice courses.
in the meantime, i did appeal for h.nitec courses, one in Dover, the other in Clementi.
But i still nid to wait, perhaps in late Mar or Apr to see if there's still vacancy left for me.
Do i still have hope?
wait wait wait & WAIT!
i'm gg bersek already.
well, i can only blame myself.
who ask me didn't study well in the first place?
im really feeling so lost & helpless.
i'm also thinking of study private.
argh, i don't know luhs.

people, please give tell me your opinion.
i need advices.
do it thru this voting, thanks.

what should i do instead?
	study digital media effect course in ang mo kio
	or appeal for another nitec course instead? e.g electronics
	don't give up hope , wait for appeal results for higher nitec courses
	study private?
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regardinq him,
i really don't know what to say.
i have already done what a friend should do.
from ytd incident, i quess i know which position i stood in his heart.
i'm tired of takinq the initiative first.
when i really care about you, you seems to be taking it for granted.
ask urself, have you really cared bout hw am i doing all this while as a fren?
to you, what's the definition of friend?
everythinqs needs two hands to clap, be it relationships or friendships.
i, alone, can't maintain the friendship myself.
u get what i mean?
if you want our friendship to stay like this, drifting apart & apart from each other each day,
i'll fufil you.
cus' IM DAMNS F.TIRED of everythinq!
sick of dropping tears just for you.

end here,
gonna hit my blankets now.
im tired.