it's been a few daes since ii last updated .
let miie recalled wadd ii did e past few daes .
wednesday 9.11.06
it was catherine de b'dae .
shan't t0k muchh b0utt iit .
miie & see theng celebrate her b'dae wiif her & we b0ught a cake ferr her too .



f0t0s taken ..


Ba0beiis me0w me0w de stupid lo0ks . LOls .


ii lo0ked tiredd .


we went t0 viv0 city after tatt .


miie & catherine


miie & see theng

our reflections in e train
we went t0 lo0k ferr yuling at her w0rkplace at viv0 oso . she was kinda 0f sh0cked wen she saw us bahs . den aft tatt she went off wiif us , den she & see theng headed ferr hme . while cat peii miie g0 marina t0 lo0k ferr hiim . ii tink he nv expected tatt ii'll g0 find him bahs . & he mke tiis drinks ferr us !.
ok . e image n0t clear butt e drink is niice . 4get wadd's e name of it le . butt nvm , thanks al0t aniiwaes .

ii wanted t0 stay longer butt cat cnt . so ii peii her g0 hme le . cnt pang sehs her oso marhs . tink tat''s all ferr wednesday bahs . h0pe cat enj0y her b'dae on tatt dae .
friday ii 4get wadd ii've d0ne .
well , saturday . ii waited ferr ba0beiis catherine aft w0rk , e b0th of us went t0 viv0 agns . den aft tatt she went off at ard 10 , den ii waited at 0utram ferr him t0 off w0rk . den went hme 2gether . ii was so suay larhs . my leg gt injured , alrite shall nt sae much b0utt it . nw still abit pain pain larhs .

TODAYS ..

was angry in e afternoon . ii dun wish t0 sae oso le , tatt person hu mke miie angriis shld n0es larhs . haiish ..
den wanted t0 g0 0utt jus nw t0 get tings frm him larhs . den mummy dunch all0ws , idi0t lors . alwaes lyk tatt de !. awhile onliis marhs . sadd lors !. haiishh .
aniwaes . iim jobless agns . sighhs **
bad mood , foul mood nw .

tatt's all ferr e updates bahs .

`` s0metimes ii jus wanted t0 gain understandin frm eu . is tatt v.difficult marhs ??. ii dun0s larhs . ii realiis wadd eu thinkin b0utt oso . ``
s0bbs ...

ni yao de bu shi wo .
zao yi dian ren shi ni jiu ha0 .

perhaps i shld msg eu lesser than usual .
pls jus spare a th0ught f0rr miie bahs .


ii feel tatt frm ytd till t0dae , e way eu treat miie is so different larhs .
if tat's e case , ii regret tellin u hw i feel le .




keep repeatin tis songs agns .

ii wanna blog an0ther p0st t0 sae vent outt my feelins , cus iim goings crazii le !. ii dislikes tis kinda of feelins , ii feels so fans larhs . aniibodiis willin t0 let miie punch , hit , scold ?. sighs *

ii realliis dun0s wadd eu'r tinkin b0utt larhs . nvm , eu oso dunch n0es wad's on my mindd too . ii feels so l0st nw !. ii nv hab tis kinda of LOST feelins at all . my heart hurts , it hurts deeply . im feels so afraid too . afraid tatt we'll hab a gap between each 0ther . ii dunch wans ii dunch wans .. ii dun0s larhs , perhaps im jus thinkin too much bahs .

dunch keep thinkin tatt eu'r bad or wad , cans . tatt's wadd eu tink onliis . d0esn't mean others tink tat way too . hab confidence in urself , pls .

ii reallis in a v.badd mood nw larhs . techn0 & sad s0ngs is wadd im listenin t0 nw . keep tellin myself try nt t0 msg eu , butt ii jus can't . stupid hand of mine !. haiish ..
ha0 t0ng ku leis .

alrites , iim bac t0 bloggins . been a few daes since ii last updated , kindas of lazii t0 update . ii promised eu tatt ii'll update t0dae so ii shall keep my promises . tiis few daes iim busii wiif w0rk . ytd was my sec0nd dae of w0rk , h0nestly ii regretted takin tis j0bs larhs . & in e first place ii dunch lyk t0 b a waitress lors . it's damns tiring , cans ?. butt b0 biian larhs , n0 choice . afterall , between swensens & pizza hut . eu ask miie choose agns , ii'll still prefer pizzahut . haiish . misses e daes workin in pizza hut , misses all e old frens dere . ii rmb wen ii first dae work dere , ii cans realis mixed ard wiif dem . but at swensen is so different , ii find it so hard t0 mixed wiif dem . ii oso dun0s y , ii can't imagine hw am ii goings to survive ferr e rest of my workin daes . sighss **ytd was e onliis dae im workin e same shrift wiif see theng ferr tis wk . hw am ii goins t0 survive ferr e rest of e wk ?. omggg !. cries . ytd was kinda of tirin compared t0 first dae norhs . my whole bodiis still hurt nw , ok . haishh , haiish , haiiish !!.

en0ugh of all e w0rk tings ..
fotos , fotos .











shall end here le . ii got n0 mood t0 blog actualiis .

LISTENIN TO : ZHI DUI YOU GAN JUE , FEI LUI HAI .

well , t0dae went ferr trainin agns . mit my 2 dearie catherine & see theng at e library , as usal iim late agns !. LOls . so ii went in t0 e cafe & look ferr dem , cat alreadiis buy prata t0 eat le . badd girl , nv wait ferr miie jiu eat le . humphhs . ii went t0 buy prata & a ice coffee . & so qiiao , we saw hon tat & frens . hahas , at first din saw h0n tat actuallis until ii asked see theng is hon tat dere cus ii seems t0 heard his voice . LOls . & wen we left , ii din sae bye bye t0 him den he sms miie asked miie did ii sae bye bye t0 him ?. ii repliis n0pes , cus eu oso nv sae bye bye to miie . LOls !. den he sae cus he dun0s its miie , is his fren t0ld him de . diiaos !. sii hon tat , cnt recognise miie !. qiian biian ars . jkjk , :D . he so guaiis siia , tis 2 daes g0 library studiis . sure an0ts ?. hahas . aft our lunch , we headed t0 swensens . t0dae trainin is b0utt e menu , oh gosh we've l0ts of tings t0 memoriise . sighhs * tml still gt test lors . haiishh .. ii hate memoriisin tings lors . ii tink im gonna fail e test . wish miie gd luck bahs .
ii got my timetable ferr e next wk.

monday : 6 - 11
tuesday : -
wednesday : 6 - 11
thursday : 6 - 11
friday : -
saturday : 6 - 11
sunday : 6 - 11

workin 5 days next wk , sighss * & is all nite shrift !. wth . & onliis monday workin e same time wiid see theng . criies .. haiish . siians lors . alriite , enoughh b0utt all e job tings .

todae iis my brother's swit fourteen b'dae !.

HAPPII B"DAE MY DEARIIE BROS ~

photos time !.





snap shot of ba0beiis meow

zii liianin agns



bros b'dae cake



happii b'dae my deariie bros !.

e n0tes tatt ii've t0 memoriise , sighss *

alriite shall endd here le , hab t0 g0 studiis ferr tml's test .
tata ~

CURRENTLY LISTENIN TO : FEI LUI HAI - WO YOU WO DE YOUNG : D

WEETS !. outt wiif catherine & see theng ba0beiis in e afternoon ferr swensens trainin . ii mit dem at e library instead cus dey went t0 eat at e cafe dere . LOls !. & wadd surprised miie was theck sheng oso j0ining us in e trainin , e 4 0f us w0rkin 2gether nehs . e ones hu gave us trainin was e swensens superviser , she verii friendly & even serve us drinks too . e trainin was damns b0red lors , we were lyk alm0st goings t0 slp !. ZzZ .. e trainin supp0sed t0 ends at 5 butt she released us 1/2 an hr earliis , cus she n0es we'r b0red le so she gonnas c0ntinued e rest 0f e ting tml . wadd sadded miie was , tis sat im startin w0rk le butt miie & see theng is in different shrift !. humphs , she w0rkin on sundae instead . alth0ugh miie & theck sheng is on e same dae , but he's in e morning shrift butt im in e nite shrift . ROARS !. we'r all separatedd !!!. hw am ii goings t0 survive on saturdae ??. & catherine've t0 wait till 9 nov den she cans start w0rk cus she's nt sixteen yet . sadded .. nvm , xueli hab t0 learn t0 b independent , riites ?. s0rrys pigg , ii tink tis sat ii can't g0 0utt wiif eu le .. sorrys .

after been dismissed earliis , we decided t0 shop sh0p awhile at jp cus it's rainin & we dunch wish t0 g0 hme yet oso . den we went in t0 kiddy palace & we saw al0ts of cute cute stuff !. ii saw my fav . hell0s kittys . ii wannns BUY aft ii gt my pay , Lols . ii t00k some of e pics of e pooh bears .

cans ii all of dem ??. Lols . they'r jus simply jus so cute !. grins *

aft tatt we went t0 mac & sat d0wn t0 chat . we seems t0 hab a l0ts of tings t0 chat , we shall c0ntinue tml wors . iit's fun being wiif dem .. wanted to0k pics 2gether , butt ii 4gotten b0utt itt . nvm .

some zi liians pics ii to0k b4 goings outt !.

.: alriite , t0dae shall updates till here le . takkaiire everiiones .

`` wo zhi dui ni you gang jue `` ..

ii've nth t0 bl0g actualiis , butt ii dunch wans keep my blog un-updated . well , r0t at hme e wh0le daes . cus iim still down wiif a bad flu , dunch feels lyk goings outt . den in e afternoon , ii gt v.pissed wiif somebodiis . he simply jus tink too much lors . he jus gets e wrong ideas larhs , ii damns angrii , ii jus hang upp e fone half - wae thr0ughh . ii g0t nth t0 sae larhs iif eu tinks tiis ways . wad eu said jus makes miie pissed off . well , tml goings swensens trainin wiif ba0beiis catherine & see theng . frm 3 - 5 pm , b0redd !. dunch feel lyk goings , h0pe tml my flu will get beta bahs . alriites , shall write a sh0rt p0st . takkaiire everii0nes ~

s0metimes its hard t0 understand a person , n0 matter hw hard eu tried , eu will still never manage t0 understandd .

currently listenin to : wo hen xiang ai ta
by: twins

lazii XUELI iis bac t0 bloggin agns !. Lols . so fast a brand new wks agns . haha .

a quick updates on last wk .

thursday

* off to chalets

friday

* went hme frm chalets

wkends

* outt wiif my family

realiis a v.sh0rt updates . jus t0k abit b0utt e chalets bahs , we headed t0 chalets on e 2nd nite which is thurs . e chalet is at aloha ( pasir ris ) & omg , it was a long way to reach dere . wen we reached dere , we f0und outt tatt dere's actuallii a free shuttle bus t0 bring us dere . Lols , it was too late den cus we alreadiis reach le .

we reached & settled down & ii found out tatt starhub line user has n0 receptions . wth niias . den ard evenin we've bbq , den watched princess hours while eatin . den we found outt tatt we'r still nt full yet , den we called peck hoon asked her to buy instant noodles . she cooked ferr us smemore , she indeed looks lyk our mummys !. 0ops ! . peck hoon thanks aniwae . den aft dinner , ii went to bath . den wait fer shengli & kailing t0 bath too , den we went outt t0 walk walk . den came bac , it's alreadiis mid nite le butt we'r still nt tired yet . den we watched taiwan dramas . it was a nice drama , butt too bad we din watched finishedd . den ii tink ard 4 am , miie & shengli went to orh orh le cus buay tahan le . den e next morns wake up , it was time to go hme le . we went to eat mac den headed hme , everione's tired le cus last nite din slp well !. afterall , ii cans sae e chalets is FUN !. ii h0pe dere'll b one more chalets ya , we had a great time dere . chalet rawkkss ~

todae

went bac to sko0l earliis in e morns at 8 am to take o lvls chinese , can't wake up in e morns cus din slp well last nite . havin a bad flu & keep sneeze sneeze sneeze !. poor miie , while doin e exams ii alm0st fall aslp !. shengli realiis t0t ii fall aslp niias . aft e exams ard 12 le , miie wiif xiao qing & frens went t0 jp go eat long john . miie goin to sick le still eat long john , LOls . den walk walk awhile jiu headed ferr hme . went bac hme , eat medi den jiu go slp . ii HATES flus !. alriites , shall end here . cus ii feel sleepy aft eatin medi . nites everiones ~

ii dun0s wadd makes eu feel tatt ways , ii realiis dunch understand eu at times . perhaps ii shld keep silent & dunch sae anithin bahs .

xueli is bac t0 bl0ggin agns !. =))

weets !. tml goin chalet wors . so happiis , lalalas ~

so won't b online tml , & may repliis testiis late too .

well , shall p0st a sh0rt post t0dae !. t0dae went 0utt wiif ba0beiis catherine & see theng agns . we went t0 lo0k ferr j0bs agns , e previ0us j0bs we nv d0 liia0s . we sacked e manager b4 he sacked us !. Lols . aiiyos , find so mani j0bs , endd up at swensens agns !. iim bac t0 w0rkin as a waitress agns , sighss * shld ii w0rk dere marhs ?. dun0s siias , confusedd ** butt ii tink it shld b betas den pizza hut bahs . havin trainin on 1st NOV , gd luck t0 miie bahs . YEAHS , w0rkin wiif catherine & see theng . FUN , FUN , FUN !.

shall update till here !. will update moree after chalets bahs . takkaiire everione !.

ooh . ii finalli gt e time t0 updates agns !. shall updates b0utt ytd .

went outt e wh0le dae ytd wiif ba0beiis catherine & see theng . we mit at jp den went t0 s'p0re sh0ppin ctr ferr a j0bs interview . we've a appointments wif e person at 145 pm butt we reached e place late cus we couldn't find e place . by e time we reached dere is ard 2 plus le . & we waited fer b0utt 1hr outside e office , cus we wanted t0 went in le , but den gt a guy st0pped us & asked us t0 wait 0utside first cus inside gt al0ts 0f ppl marhs . den in e endd , we damns du lan le cus we waited v.l0ng le . den we decided t0 went t0 e 0ffice , den we asked e person dere wher's cherry ?. (e gal we've a appointment wiif) den we f0und outt tatt she's nt in e office le . WTH !. we damns pissed off lors . we were like a fool waiting outside ferr so long . den ii called cherry & t0ld her b0utt e situation , den ii tink she called e guy hu asked us t0 wait outside de bahs . den 5 mins lata , e guy called miie & he asked us t0 g0 plaza sing & he'll interviewed us . our feelin tatt time was '' #@$%&%#&%$$!!! '' so bo bian we went t0 plaza sing lors . den he interviewed us all tat , tell us b0utt e j0bs . ii shan't sae much b0utt e j0bs . den he asked us wen cans we start w0rk . den see theng repliis him `` now `` , den he misunderstood . he t0t we sae NOW !. tatt means cans ma shan start nw !. LOLS . den we start wk immd , its tiring man !.
but we'r jus try out , we h0pe we cans get used t0 e j0bs . w0rkin tml agns !. hahas . it's fun outt wiif see theng & catherine !. shall p0st till here bahs .

a few daes since ii last updated . bac here agns . 4got wadd ii did e past few daes le , LOls . well , frm mondae till t0dae . ii've been attendin sko0l , iim so guaii ok . haha , as usual . our klas attendance is still damns poor . is alwaes ard 13 plus of students attendin onliis . e classrooms is kinda of bored & quiet !. misses e noise levels tatt our klas used to be created , sighs ** tink will nort b hearin it agns bahs . t0dae shengli & hui min gt cum to sko0l , butt kailing din come leiis . so mani daes nv see her le , misses her !. Lols .

well , t0dae's lessons ends at 130 . aft sko0l went t0 coffee united wif chien juen & frens . peck hoon cum join us aft tatt . she bring pizzas tat she made durin her f&n lessons , niice niice * . hees . den sit dere chat chat awhile till 3 plus den we jiu went hme . o0ps !. promised susanna nu er t0 c0r her 2nite , ii 4gotten agns . aiiy0s . so 4getful of miie .

it's been awhile , e matter perhaps hab toned down le bahs . congrats miie , ii alreadi 4gotten all boutt it le . im n0 l0nger tatt sad animore , alth0ugh some times ii'll still rmb some of e tings . butt ii can't possibly 4get everiting oso de . butt ii n0 l0nger feels tatt hurt animoree . there were times ii feels so empty , like something is missin somehow . e feeling is jus so weird . butt nvm , iim nort lonely . ii still hab frens ard encouragin miie , b dere ferr miie . aft tis matter , ii jus feel tatt ii trust e wrong person , ii shldn't hab tell her everiting . perhaps all along , she was helpin her frens nort miie . ii dun0s is ii tink too much or not , is lyk to mie she's those kind of wen she nds help or wad den cum find miie , dunch nd miie den hack care miie . ii hate tis kinda of person lors . dun0s larhs , ii oso dunch wish to tink too much .

recently watchin princess hours , jus loves e show damns muchh .

Mood : pissed off + angry + sad (abit) + numb + foul temper
( a mixture 0f mood im havin nw )

honestly , im numb le . my heart is numb . totally n0 feelins le . all thanks to u !. jerk !. i dun0s wad t0 use t0 describe u , onliis '' jerk '' is e word . i've nth to sae boutt eu le . mentionin u jus mkes miie du lans . eu jus continued playin lahs hors , jus continued lahs hors . i'll c how long eu cans continued play till . FUCK !. count myself suay to n0es some1 lyk u lahs .

ii won't cry animore . i've no more tears to pour le oso . & cryin over a jerk lyk u is damns nt worth it lahs . lyk wadd everibodis says to miie , it's nt worth mi to cry over eu . i'm nt goin to b angri too . angri will onlis caused mi to hab wrinkles , LOLs . im jus goin to b happys !. JERK , listen well . im livin well & i'll prove to eu tat ii will !. & e life im leadin will b betas den urs !. to miie , eu'r jus a useless beast , inhuman , jerk & a basturb , a flirt too . i hate you to e core !. and pls lahs . everibodis jus hate u . ur presence jus mkes everbodis feels disgusts . puii `` !.

iim b0red , so came t0 update my blog & ii dunch wish to left it unupdated !. =))

din updates ytd , cus klnda of lazii !.
yesterday

yesterday , nth much too . jus went to mit jiie in e after noon . peii her go library to borrowed bks . den we chat chat wiif each other , e tings chat reminds miie b0utt all his tings agns . sighs ** haiis !. den ytd , din go to sko0l . th0se in our klas hu turned up ferr sko0l , is lyk less than half lors . den tat mr phor sae wadd , th0se din attend sko0l hab t0 see him on fridae . wah liiaos , siians lors . c him ferr wadd siia , he v.free is it ?.

t0dayss ..

sighs !. havln sleepless nites recently . can't fall aslp norhs . my mind is all b0utt his tings agns . wen cans ii 4get everiting ??. even iif ii fall aslp le , ii'll b awaken by night mares !. why , why , why !. ii hate u ferr causin my life so miserable larhs .

ii still habs l0tsa tings in my mind left unanswered by u !.

^ y mush u lied t0 miie in e first place ?. whyy .
^ y u b'cum lyk tiis ?. r u really happis wiif ur life nw ?.
^ u reallys wanna carry on ur life lyk tis forever marhs ?.
^ y dunch u change fer e sake of urself ?. u aren't lyk tis de . jus change bahs !.

ii n0es u'r in e camp nw , eu won't b readin my post nw . perhaps wen u r bac durin wkends , mayb u'll read my post bahs . mayb nort . ii n0es even iif u read le , u oso won't bother de . ii jus wannas write to make myself feels betas .

ii spent my day changin my blog's skin . tlred of e prevlous blogskins , so change an0ther one . is tis betas den e prevl0us one ??. PEOPLE , glf miie ur comments . hahas , THANKS !. =))

happii swiit sixteen's b'daes t0 CHIEN JUEN !. h0pe u enj0y ur BIG days , LOLs .

t0days din went t0 sko0l , stayed at hme agns . goin to rot soon . sighss '' tml supp0sed t0 g0 bac sko0l de . tink iim nort goin too , jenn dey all nort goins . as usual , our klas sure a l0ts of ppl nort goin de . somemore , go bacs sko0l ferr wadd ?. nth to studii le oso marhs . go bacs oso siians . ii wanns t0 flnd jobs , ii wanna w0rk !. ii wanna earn moneys . dunch wans get money frm parents . anibodis gt ani jobs l0bang , pls tell miie . kkaes . thanks .

my mind is still damns confused , hen fans . xin hen tong . tings b0utt him is still in my mind , wen cans ii 4get everting ?. hw ii wish ii nv knew him b4 , y mush u appeared in my liife ?. mke my life so miserable . ii realiis dun0s shld ii hate u or wadd lors !. haiis . so irritated & pissed off by all his tings !. & my fuckin father too . everidae c his face oso siians larhs !.

ii misses my besties jiia huii . tink she busyin wiif her o lvls bahs , few wks nv mit up wiif her le . tink shall cor her tml bahs . & li ying , poor her . somebodiis send a frlendster msg & scolded her till damns jia let . is lyk she dunch even n0es her lors . gal ; dunch care b0utt tat gal bahs . n0 point botherin her . takkaiire =))

REPLIS of tags !.

10 Oct 06, 17:29
/*huili: hieex.. don think abt him le.. u can do it derhx.. jiayouss

xueli*: giif miie tlme bahs , all ii nds is time . iim sure time cans heal all my pains de . take cares !.

10 Oct 06, 18:16
qiing: ok tis one nicer than tat pink and black de haha but.... but.. but... mine is still nicer than urs.. bleah wahaahaa
10 Oct 06, 18:17
qiing: below can put more thing ? v blank leh
10 Oct 06, 18:17
qiing: and post dun use bright yellow.. my eyes v pain =] gd comments given hor. thks wo ah.

xueli* : wahh , xiao qing . u hab l0ads of comments leiis . yarhhs , ii shld thank u for tatt !. LOls . i still feel tatt mine is nicer den urs . lalala ~ i change e colours of e fonts le , is ur eyes still pain ?. haha .

10 Oct 06, 19:48hontat: haha...pinch lor...la la la~

xueli* : hon tat , u sae de hors . lata ii realis punch hors . dunch regrets * hahas. btw , e promotor tat jobs , u nt workin le marhs ?

10 Oct 06, 21:57someone: stop thinking abt him le.. he wont change for the sake of u... he just wont....

xueli* : someone?. is it shu ting marhs ?. nvm , ii n0es he won't change for my sake . perhaps for himself bahs .

everiibodiis do take gd cares of urself , e weather is nort v.gd . my brother is sick , h0pe he get well soon . nites all !.

shall updates tiis post a bit b0utt ytd bahs . =))

well, ytd went t0 watch movie in e evening wiif my family . we watched e ROB-B-HOOD . actors was jackie chan & gu tian le . gu tian le so shuaii leiis. it's was a comedy actualli . ii laugh throughout alm0st e whole show . at tatt point of tlme , ii 4get b0utt all e bad memoriies . butt iit was jus ferr awhile . butt aft tatt , ii tink b0utt all th0se tings agns . haiis . ii keep askin myself , hab ii realli 4gotten all b0utt him ?. ii reali dun0s , h0nestly ii misses all his msg tatt he used t0 send miie . e tlmes he used t0 care fer miie . butt , wen ii tlnk b0utt all e tings tatt he've d0ne , my mind is confused agns & ii feel sadd too !. haiis . my hand feels itch agns , cans ?. ii feel lyk callin him . butt ii can't do tatt as ii pr0mised all 0f u t0 4get him de . PEOPLE , slap miie bahs . iim still nort awake !. ii cans even imagined tatt there'r a devil & a angel lors . e angel is tellin miie : XUELi , wake up bahs . st0p thlnkin b0utt him le . it's nort worth it . u've d0nes s0 much tings for him . but did he appreciate it ?. andd e devil is tellin miiie : he's nort bad de actuallii , he'll sure change . gif him tlme bahs !. arghh , iim v.confused cans ?!. ii keep findin tings to do , jus to 4get everting . haiis .

well , jus lyk wadd susanna nu er says . lyk some1 is easy , butt to 4get some1 is damns hard . all ii nds is tlme bahs ?. butt sorrys to says , ii still believe 1 dae he'll change ?. aiiyas , ii dun0s larhs .

TODays !.
t0dae ii nd nort go sko0l cus n0 m0re n lvls paper le . spend m0st of my tlme playin com . edit blogs , ii change my blogs songs too . take off e sad songs & its oso his fav songs . tml n0 sko0ls too . YAY !. shall end here le . takkaiire everione ~

IM BAC TO BLOGGIN !. =))

YEAH !. N lvls flnalli 0ver le. cans enj0y & hab fun le. alth0ugh n lvls over le, butt im nt happi at all. cus ii dunch n0es iif i've d0ne well an0t. im worrled b0ut my results. haiis. if tlme cans turn bac, ii will reali studii damns hard & st0p slackin!. nw sae anithin oso n0 use, its alreadi 0ver le. let's pray tat ii din did v.badly bahs. ii reali v.worried b0utt my results!. ii n0es h0n tat keep tellin miie nt t0 worrys, sure cans de. butt ii reali gt n0 c0nfldence. alrite shan't t0k b0ut n lvls le, since its over le. t0k b0utt 0ther stuff.

ytd in msn he c0me & t0k t0 miie. knn lors. frens, u all shld n0es hu im t0kin b0utt. pls larhs hors, dunch act lyk a ''mad dog'' & come barkin at miie. ii dunch entertained de hors. d0 u n0es tat u s0unds stupid by wad u've said?. makes n0 sense at all larhs. u'r jus makin a fool of urself lors. ii alreadi a few daes nv updates my blog liiaos. and i wher gt write tings ii bui song wif u or wad. & pls e last p0st tatt ii updated u've alreadi read it b4 lors. & u din sae anithin wen u t0ld mi u read it. s0 pls mke ur words clear & urself clear. d0n't b lyk a mad d0g, ok!.
ii alreadi mke myself v.clear. u gt anithin wans sae jus cor & sae. and wad u sae ytd was onlii NVM , NVM & NVM!. ands sae wadd nvm , ii dunch wans argue wiif u. pls larhs hors. is u quarrelled wif mi first de , ok!. WTF. then in e first place dun come & scold mii fer nth ok. since u sae i gt write in my blog sayin tatt ii bui song u or wad is it rites?. den ii shall fufil it. ii shall write. he's a basturd, goin ard cheatin innocent gals. he tinks he's great?. oh pls!. he's a flirt. u lyk t0 play , riite?. den go find bitches larhs. onliis bitches suits u. st0p flndin innocent gals & hurt dem. nvm, 1 dae u'll get ur retribution de. and pls st0p ur lies. ii n0es all e truth liiao, u tink u r great?. i ask u , u gt stead wif tat hu anot. u sae dun hab, is she treat u lyk her bf, but u din treat her gf?. & u scold mii 4 askin all tis. & wanted t0 n0es her, u c0r & scolded miie too. y?. u afraid i go mkes frens wiid her & n0es tat u'r lyin is it?. andd tat elaine, ii add her in frlendster os0 can't marhs?. dunch ii hab e rights t0 make frens?. y u care so muchh. nvm. u'll get ur retributions de. iim waiting, waiting 4 e dae wher u'r all al0ne. wher n0b0dys care 4 u. ii wans t0 c e pathetic u!.

aft tis incident ii realised al0t 0f tings. dere'r actualli al0t 0f ppl cares ferr miie. ii wans thanks ST & her frens for consolin miie in msn, ii've wake up le!. ii n0es wadd t0 d0 le. & thanks ELAINE jiie too. thanks ferr being dere ferr miie too, ii'll try to 4get everting de. iim tryin, believe mii ya. & th0se frens hu've been consolin miie too. sorrys to cause all of u to worrys, iim fine. sorrys susanna nu er, marmiie nv updates u on wad has happens. ii n0es u gt ask miie b0ut it, it's a l0ngg storii. guess u shld understand wad've happens aft readin tis post bahs. iif ii've time ii'll updates u b0utt it!. sorrys ya. iim believe ii'll 4get b0utt tiis incident soon de.

*TO jiie : sorrys elaine jiie, din peii u go outt eat dinner todae. mom dunch all0ws, h0pe tat u f0und some1 t0 accs u bahs. wen u free, u msg miie bahs. we mit up, alriites?. u take cares of urself arrs.

repliis of TAGS!. sorrys din hab time to repliis tags at all.

29 Sep 06, 15:20
qiing: dun wei le yi ge ren & spoilt ur life. live happier lah.. haha u still gt lots of fren concern for u de.. forget bout tat blar blar bah

xueli*: qing ; dunch worii, ii'll 4get all b0utt it de. ii'll live hapily de. ii n0es u care ya. thanks ferr being dere ferr miie. thanks.

4 Oct 06, 00:26
a gal hu cares too*: guess u r the one hu wanna ask mi qn b4 right.. i'm here to tell u something gal.. u r onli 16 yrs old... way long b4 u to go.. for wad thinking abt wil.. he dun worth it i can tell u.. i noe him for yrs le.. yet i still dun understand him at all... he just wanna play w u onli.. having someone to acc when he need 1.. u realise tt much faster than mi.. u r not stupid kayz... he dun deserve anythin. from u.. so dun bother to care abt him.. live ur own life.. u r a nice ger.. get on w ur life n be w ur frenz.. tts wad u need to do.. n stdy hard for ur n lvl... n 1 last thing.. after wad u feel for him.. n after wad he had done for u (i guess none..).. just throw him behind u... coz there r no room for frenship or wadever.. its onli a short sad memories... jiayou... n be a happy ger again~~...

xueli* -> e gal hu cares too* : ii n0es hu u le. shu ting marhs. wow, a l0ng tags u gave miie. dunch worrys, ii've straightened out le. ii'll 4get everiting & continues wiif my life de. ii'll b happis agns. thanks fer consolin miie tat dae. take cares.

4 Oct 06, 23:04
a person hu cares;: though u might be sad now, however as time goes by, u'll knw this is the correct choice. to get over him and carry on wif ur live. u still have alot to go since u're 16yrs old. trust me. he's jerk. (=
work hard for ur N*level.. nt for others but truly for urself. nothing worths more than education. (=

xueli* -> e person hu cares : ya. ii n0es. ii'll carry on wiif my own life de. thanks ferr all e consoling.

5 Oct 06, 20:20susanna: cheer up!! dun bcox of tat person spoilt euurx own mood...liveLIFEtoEfullest..b happiex..study hardd ferr euurx n lvl okiiex?? jia yous worx!!! =)

xueli* -> susanna nu er : yesh. marmiie will cheer up de. sorrys din updates u on wadd happens. gt time den update u bahs.

REPLIIS of tags d0ne!.

ii change my friendster profile songs. free do visit. so long din updates blog le. hab l0tsa tings to sae. sorrys ferr e l0ng posts. alrites, shall end here le. it's late.

* i'll try to 4get all e unhappiness de. live life t0 e fullest. takkaiire everii0ne!.
nltes all.

XUELI is bac t0 bloggin agns !.

sorii have nt been updatlng ferr daes. been busii wiif n lvls. exams & exams & EXAMS!. goin crazii , cans?.

Monday
*English paper 1 &2
*combined humanities
Tuesday
*Maths paper 1
wednesday
*combined science

ii reali dunch hab confidence in passin all e papers lors. nvm, wadd has been d0ne cnt b und0ne. ii alreadi did my best le, riites??.

MY HEART IS DEAD!.



it has been a while since ii last p0sted. ii g0t n0 mood t0 blog. ii dun0s wadd ii've done is it worth it wen u dunch even care, dunch even b0ther. ii n0es im stupid larhs. but lyk wadd chien juen say to miie. `` LOVE is BLIND `` . wen ii n0es tat s0mebody is nt worth miie to like & im still likin him , dunch u tink im stupid marhs?. dere's n0 turnin point ferr miie le. hu ask miie fallen for a bad guy, ii nv regret. h0nestly , ii v.disappointed in u. s0me 0f tings eu n0 nd t0 sae, ii oso n0es. ii will pretend tatt ii dun0s anithin de. my heart is alreadi dead. ii misses u damns l0ads, u n0es?. u r nt bad person at all. ii believe u will change de. change , ha0 marhs?. ii n0es u won't change ferr e sake of miie, butt for e sake for urself. cans?. tat's all ii wanted.

tml is my n lvls le. ii tlnk eu've 4gotten boutt it le bahs. t0t u were reali cum down ytd & teach miie. BUT in e end u still nerber. nvm, suan le. ii cans studii on my own de. ii pr0mise u le, ii will studi hard de. i n0es u won't care b0utt miie le. i gt nth t0 sae animore.

all my frens, dunch worii b0utt miie le. iim FINE. ii will studii hard ferr my n lvls de. FOR e sake of myself & u all. takkaiire every0ne!. <3>

wen u were out havin FUN ,d0 u n0es tatt iim actualli cryin all alones??. eu never kn0w it.

bac t0 tiis place agn, a place tatt ii cans vent outt all my anger, saddness & everiting deep inslde my heart!. nw, wo de xin reali ha0 t0ng , ha0 t0ng!. ii n0es iim in e wrong. iif eu wans, jus blame miie bahs. jus vent all ur anger on miie bahs. ii jus wanna help eu, cans?. ii jus dun wans e b0th of u t0 b'cum enemy, is beta t0 stil b frens den beta t0 b enemy , riiteS?. ii realli jus wanna help. butt ii din n0es tatt it'll end up b'cum lyk tiis lors. iim reali v.sorii, ii caused eu so much tr0ubles. makes eu so fans!. ii feel guilty too. cans?. iif cus of tiis, eu bu li wo le. ii oso gt nth to sae. jus h0pe tatt everting will b fine. wadd ii wanns sae , ii alreadii sae le. iim tired too. & ii jus can't stop cryin. ii've nv been so sadd b4. ii caused all my frens to worried b0utt miie. although ii keep tellin eu guys tatt iim fine, iim fine. butt actualli iim nt fine at all. suan le, ii g0t nth t0 sae le. eu sae ii onlii care b0utt my feelings . nv care other ppl's feelin. yarhhs, iim selfish, cans?. ii dunch wans sae anithin le. wadeva ii sae is useless. somebodii mush b damns happii bahs. hate ppl actin ke lians. tink u cans win iif eu act ke lians marhs?. pls larhs hors. eu'r e most stupid ppl in e world.

XUELI PLS WAKE UPPP !.

BEEN outt alm0st e wh0le dae ytd!. g0 mit him at je, iim late alm0st m0re than half an hr norhs. sorii ferr waiting. den he nt in a gd mood, ii oso dun0 wadd t0 d0 oso. den peii him go arcade play, watch he play onlii, ii din play. hais. den we ard 5 plus jiu leave e place. he nd to rush to orchard to mit his frens at 530 den go b'dae party. although he's gonna b late le, butt he still peii miie go hme. thanks aniwae & thanks ferr tatt presents too.
h0nestly, sometlmes ii reali dun0 understandd eu. eu sae eu dun0s wadd iim thinkin boutt smetlmes, butt actualli ii oso dun0 wad eu'r thinkin boutt too. eu sae ii treat u nt gd?. den hw eu wanna miie t0 treat u?. cans eu jus tell miie , ii reali dun0s larhs. yarhhs, t0 u , u may tink tatt ii alwaes fa xiao jie pi qi. butt ii feel tatt ii din. iim sorii , iif u feel tatt ii did. haiis.

t0 all my frens outt dere , iim flne. dunch worii b0utt miie!. thanks ferr all e concern. XUELI, pls wake upp le larhs. STOP dreamin le larhs!!!. iim slappin myself t0 wake myself uppp! ii even feel lyk bangin myself to e wall lors. XUELI WAKE UP, WAKE UP!... alriite, shall end here.

** susanna nu er, dunch angrii le larhs. dunch bother boutt all th0se ppl larhs. dey are jus being childishh. marmiie misses eu!.

iim still feelin sad by wadd eu've said larhs. keep readin all messages in my inbox by u!. ii reali .. haiis. nw even eu online or wadd oso nv start t0 t0k to miie first. den iim so afraid to t0k t0 u first too. sae reach hme le will msg miie, den nw ii even saw eu online liiaos, butt ii din even received da0 ur msg. haiis!. suan le bahs. eu oso n0 nd t0 rep0rt everitlng t0 miie marhs. andd everltime wen ii offline flrst, den ii sae msg u. butt wen eu waited damns long oso nv recelved my msg , eu will still msg mie first. butt nw seems t0 b dunch hab le. haiiis. haiis. feel lyk cryin outt l0ud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

iim feelin damns hurt by wadd eu've said larhs. y eu alwaes mistaken wadd ii've said??. tat's nt wadd ii mean larhs. can't eu jus ran wo marhs?. suan le. eu will nv understand hw ii feel de larhs, wadd iim thinkin b0utt eu oso won't n0es. iim jus belng damns unreasonable ii n0es. everithin is my fault, cans??. iim damns bad larhs. haiis!.

t0dae din went t0 sko0l. is nt ii p0n sko0l, cus ii've n0 prelim exams. tml goin bac t0 sko0l le. b0redd** dun0 y. alth0ugh t0dae n0 sko0l, ii wake up at 6 am. den msg him. den he scold miie BEN DAN, y wake up so earlii. he v.bad lors. t0dae ii jus stay at hme, play wiif com. den nth else, den chat on e fone wiif frens. gotta b0red t0 death le.

ii feel lyk cryln outt!. sobbs.

TODAY went 0utt wiif hlm. mit hlm at queenst0wn at 130, butt ii was alm0st late b0utt half an h0ur. den we went t0 queensway, cus he wanna buy cl0thes marhs. butt den he nerber f0und da0 ani tatt he lyk. den we went t0 tlong bahru, went t0 watch m0vie, he treated miie!. thanks l0ads. we watched ''the haunted apartments''. ii dunch watch h0rr0r m0vie de, butt he wanna watch marhs. jiu peii him l0rs. e m0vie s0 scary. we watch e 445 pm de, e m0vie ended b0utt 6 plus den ii hab t0 rush bac t0 '' a party ''. den he peii miie bac frm tl0ng bahru t0 boon lay. den he g0 bac t0 tl0ng bahru agn. thanks ferr accompany miie. haiis. ii reali dun0 wadd t0 d0 larhs. cans eu pls tell miie wadd u r tlnkln b0utt??. iim reali v.confused. jus ask eu a slmple qns , eu oso can't ans miie. suan le!. ii jus feel lyk cryin larhs. perhaps tiis song , cans describe hw ii feel bahs.

**tiffany ur blog is linked! thanks ferr taggin miie.

XUELI BAC TO BLOGGIN AGN =))

well, actualli few daes ag0 gt al0t of tlngs wanna p0st de. butt n0 tlme t0 p0st. flrstly, t0k b0utt my prelim bahs. prelim ended ytd, indeed qulte fast de. e results, ii dunch wlsh t0 n0e. ytd, last paper is art. aft e paper, ms h0e call miie, shengli& kailing. she asks us h0nestly did we put in effort in tis prelim paper. e 3 of us tell her we didn't. den she t0ld us, she gt frens t0ld her tatt e n lvls exams ferr our art coursewk is pretty gd, so whether if we wans do well ferr it, depends on e paper 2 le. tlnk ii nd t0 d0 well ferr my art paper 2 le!. mushh jiia y0us!. nw jus get to online. g0 frlendster jus nw, gt frlend request & guess hu added miie?. my classmate OW YEW TINN!. aiiy0s, din n0e tatt he gt frlendster. andd hls pr0file & f0t0s s0 funni lors. haha.


well, c0untd0wn t0 alm0st 2 wks t0 n lvls le. haiis. left so less daes. HOW How how siia!. so stress!. god pls help miie. ii reali wanna d0 well ferr my n lvls. tml goin outt wiif e ''BIG BULLI''. L0ls. tlnk peii him g0 queens way buy cl0thes bahs. lalala~ actualli ii wanna g0 watch movie de. butt den he ytd & t0dae alreadi g0 watch le. dunch tlnk he wanna watch agn tml bahs. alriite, shall endd here le.
tata ~

alriite, t0dae bac t0 sko0l le. well, e feelin is NOT good!. still dunch feel lyk goin bac. right aft holidae jiu continued wiif prelim exams. todae to0k english paper 1, all e composition qns gt nth to write de. i spent quite alot of tlme lookin at e qns b4 i decide on which qns ii wanna write. butt ii knew tat tis will b e worst compo ii've ever wrlte bahs. bullshit throughout e whole compo!.


tml havin history paper, dunch tlnk im studyin?. cus i dunch even n0e which charpter to studii lors.

t0 tatt anonymous !. pls replii miie. hw u n0e tat is tat place?. thanks. & hon tat sorii ferr disturbin u in e mid nite. my hp hp sot sot de, so sorrii.

alriite ii shall end here le bahs, ii got nth muchh to post todae. aniwae, rui ying `` happi belated b'dae!. everibodi work hard ferr prelim bahs.

bac to bloggin agn . =))


well , tatt person hu called miie t0 ask miie t0 g0 ferr e intervlew. keep callin miie on thursdae & even msg miie too. although my intervlew is 2pm , he called miie frm 11 till 2 lors. siiao de leis. den ii buay ta han , ii switch off my hp !. den ii t0t he will stop . nv n0e tatt he continued called miie 0n frldae . wth . den ii oso nv answered larhs . tat person damns irritatin larhs , lyk forcin miie t0 go lors . den he msg miie sae wadd , e interview won't tke long de den keep askin miie wen cans ii mke it agn . diiao !. -.-!!! . ii dun even n0e wadd klnda of company is tatt & im reali nt interested .




tlme reali passes damns fast . left one m0re dae , e sept holidaes gonna end le . sigh . *** prelim gonna start wen we return to sko0l . gonna studii hard le . tiis few daes klnda of havin a moodswlng larhs . dun0 wadd im tryin t0 do oso , feels so lost larhs . im lyk so lost in a world of my own lors . i gt to found out smethin & ii reali damns pissed off . ii din sae out , ii jus kept quiet . ii kept quiet doesn't mean ii dun bother . st0p actin as if u r reali v.ke lians larhs . ur ke lians looks mkes miie feel lyk vomitin .

alriite shall ends here le . may nt be bloggin tml !.

takkaiire =))))

oh well, ii went to skool t0 tke my 'n' lvls social studles paper wiif huili t0dae. and oh man, jus get d0wn frm bus & rain start p0urin!. we waited at e bus st0p fer awhile den run to sko0l in e rain. haiis, ii hate gettln wet!. den e paper started at 2pm. wen ii gt e paper, turn to e SEQ page & guess wadd?. wadd ii studied for din came outt. -.-!!! nvm, alreadi over le.

ii heard b0utt a bad news tatt mkes miie feel sad over it. a sec 1 guy hu has been fightin wif a illness has jus came bac to sko0l met wiif an car accident???!!. oh my god. ii can't believe it!. and e accldent happens near our sko0l de mac. den ii read thr0ugh e newspaper b0utt it too. feel lyk cryin after readin it. jus feel sad, y he still can't run awae frm death?. well, perhaps his lifes is fated to b lyk tis bahs.

went to frlendster jus nw, ii saw jun rong viewed my profile. wth!. y b0ther t0 cum view my profile?. hate him lors. and he put his profile to th0se in his frens list den cans view. wadd e. nvm, ii oso dunch wish to view lahs. jus h0pe he get his retributions.

oh ya, ii received a v.weird call jus nw. e conversation is lyk tiis.
guy:hellos, r u xueli?.
miie:yes, ii am.
guy:iim callin frm ''blah, blah, blah'' company(can't rmb e company name). u r still studyin nw but havin a holidae rite nw?.
miie: oh ya, iim havin a holidae nw.
guy:my company is lookln for students to work in our company. u r invited to cum to our company for a interview.
miie:errms, may ii n0e hw u got my no.?.
guy:do u rmb takin any survey at t0wn.
miie:errms. tlnk so?.
guy:okaes, cans u cum down tml for interview?.
miie:cans ii tlnk a boutt it first.
guy:errms, ii nd to flxed e tlme.
miie:cans ii mke it on thurs?.(actualli ii dun intend to g0)
guy:sure.cans u tke a piece of paper & pen to write down e address. tke down my no. as well.
miie:okaes.
guy:alriite, c ya on thurs.
miie:bye.

actualli i dun rmb takin ani survey. ii feel tat its weird. ii tink tat e person is lyin bahs. nvm, ii wont go de. but ii jus feel weird. hw did e person get my no. actualli?.

alriite, shall end here. andrew, get well soon!.

well, iim havln my 'n' lvl soclal studles exams tml le!. guess wadd?. iim still daydreamln nw. haiis. iim nt prepared ferr it leis. die le larhs. ii spent my wh0le afternoon chattin online & stuydin my ss. ii cans do multitask siia. LOLS!. ii was chattln wiif andrew in e afternoon & ii f0und out smethin, we actualli live near each other?. oh my, ii was so surprlsed. iif ii din ask him t0dae wher he stay, ii oso din n0e tat we r so near each other. haas. mayb ii saw hlm b4, butt ii oso din noticed?. perhaps bahs. chattln wiif him is great, he mke miie laugh cus he keep sayln lame tinggs. he's so LAME!. hahas. read his ytd post in his blog. tink he's slck bahs. andrew, take cares wors. h0pe u recover soon. alriite, shall end here le. gd luck to miie ferr my ss tml!. niites everibodii!.

well, iim havln my 'n' lvl soclal studles exams tml le!. guess wadd?. iim still daydreamln nw. haiis. iim nt prepared ferr it leis. die le larhs. ii spent my wh0le afternoon chattin online & studyin my ss. ii cans do multitask siia. LOLS!. ii was chattln wiif andrew in e afternoon & ii f0und out smethin, we actualli live near each other?. oh my, ii was so surprlsed. iif ii din ask him t0dae wher he stay, ii oso din n0e tat we r so near each other. haas. mayb ii saw hlm b4, butt ii oso din noticed?. perhaps bahs. chattln wiif him is great, he mke miie laugh cus he keep sayln lame tinggs. he's so LAME!. ii enj0y chattin wiif him. hahas. read his ytd post in his blog. tink he's slck bahs. andrew, take cares wors. h0pe u recover soon. alriite, shall end here le. gd luck to miie ferr my ss tml!. niites everibodii!.

well. 1 wk of sep holidaes start le. butt ii dunch hab tatt klnda of h0lidae mood at all. perhaps is b'cus ii havln my 'n' lvl social studies le bahs. haiis. din expected it to b so fast. h0nestly iim nt prepared ferr it!.

t0dae v.siians lors. den ii asked my mom brlng miie & my bro go china t0wn sh0p sh0p. if nt stay at hme oso rot marhs. den sme m0re l0ng tlme nv go dere le.
den miie & my brother takkin sme f0t0s at dere too. we damns bo liiaos, ii noes. LOLS!. ii shall post some , e rest shall kept nt to b exposed!. haha.

MY BROTHER & MII !. <> e outfit ii w0re SISTER & BROTHER 4 LIFE !.

alriite, shall endd here le.

BTW, HAPPI BELATED B"DAE TO ARTHUR !.

wah. lazii miie. so longg den cum updates my bl0g. lalala ~ wanted t0 updates my bl0g few daes ago le. butt iim slck, d0wn wiif fever e past few daes. den ok liiaos, fever is g0ne. BUTT!!. e stupld c0ugh arrlved. pathetlc miie. ii t0t it was onlii a slight c0ugh, but din n0es it b'cum worse & worse. ii c0ugh till wanna v0mit & ii've sleepless nite b'cus of e c0ugh. cus ii keep c0ughln & c0ughln, den chest v.pain. can't even fall slp. den mom t0dae cor miie ask mie wans go c doctor anot , ii agreed cus ii reali buay tahan le!. so aft sko0l went t0 mit my mom , den straightawaes go visit e doctor. thanks mom!. <3>

nw , ii wanns p0st b0utt sundae. sundae went outt wiif chien juen & xiao qing to plaza sing. den mit eunice , yc & ch at dere. flrst tlme go out sh0p wiif dem, ii tlnk?. hahas. we went dere cus xiao qing wanna buy teachers dae presents. den peii her sh0p e wh0le plaza slng den finalli f0und 1 sh0p sellin wadd she's lookin ferr. den v.funni, she c0uldn't mke up her decisions whether to buy or nt. aft sme th0ughts , she finalli b0ught it. den we went bac to jp sh0p awhile cus chien juen wanna sh0p awhile. den we went in to a sh0p, xiao qing saw e presents tat she b0ught almost e same , is jus tat its much more nicer?. haha. xiao qing, heart pain , riites?. and regreted too?. haas. nvm larhs. alreadi buy le.

alrites, ends here le. nites all!.

ii misses jiahuii besties, huizhi buds & liyingg !!.

oh well, im bac here agn. so long since ii last updatees. cus i was tinkin of aft finishin my art den updates. oh yesh!. ii finalli finished my art coursewk & handed in to MOE le. FINALLI!. n0 m0re art for miie le. im so happi cans, i lookin foward to tis dae v.long le. butt ii oso duno if i cans passed anot. n0 confidence* hais. although finished le, but still misses e time spent in e art rm, e times spent wif frens till v.late in sko0l. its fun actualli, but feel stress at times. i wanna thanks all th0se hu hab helpin in my art, enc0uragin miie thr0ugh tis difficult & stressful j0urney. and th0se hu've been dere for miie wen ii needed s0meones. especially catherine. reali thanks l0ads!. hmms, chien juen as well, for helpin miie too and being dere fer miie wen ii needed some1 to t0k to.

thr0ugh tis art j0urney, ii hab realised alot of tings. i've see thr0ugh ppl's true colours. i realised tat some people r reali damns selfish!. dey onli care b0ut themselves. and some pe0ple tink tat their art wk is damns gd, & sayin ppl's art is damns bad or wad. i hate tis kinda of ppl. nth is perfect in tis world!. dey hav n0 rite to sae b0utt too.

alriite, ii end here le. im tired, goin lalala land soon~

takkaiire everyone!.

yeah , iim bac here agn. its been a week since ii last updated. oh god, ii've been so stress over my art c0ursewk lors. stayin bac in sko0l alm0st e wh0le wk till b0utt 9 plus to 10!. damned siians lors. h0nestly , ii regret takin art larhs. ii've t0 sacrifices so much of my time doin it. ii feel lyk givin up nw larhs, cus ii've art, ii've neglects my other subjects. haiis. 4get it, nw regrets oso n0 use le. ii'll at least try to finished it bahs.

well, t0k b0utt t0dae. ii went t0 cut my fringe todae wiif besties jiia huii. haas, ii l0ve e times spend wiif my besties!. LOLs. she oso cut her fringe, she look nice wiif tatt kinda fringe. haas.

alrite, t0k b0utt tatt blur s0t0ng bahs. s0meh0wly, ii've alreadi 4g0tten b0utt him le. so all my dear frens, dunch worii le. ii've alreadi 4g0tten b0utt him le. ii w0n't tink b0utt him anim0re le. butt ii'll nv 4get hw he've hurts miie de. actualli ii reali bu gan xin lors. hate him loads!. ii h0pe he's readin tiis siia. oh ya, he still dare cum view my friendster pr0file. oh my goodness!. he's a hum ji kiia, a jerk, a basturd!. phew, h0pe ii won't get t0 knw an0ther person hu's same lyk him oso bahs. may god bless!. shall p0st till here ferr t0dae. tml hab t0 d0 art agn!. siiansssss...

nites all.


my fringe so short !.

iim bac t0 bl0ggin agn. tiis few daes, ii dun0 wadd iim tryin to do & ii dun0 wadd iim tinkin too. ii l0st h0pe in doin everting!. iim v.disappointed in myself, ii disappointed al0t 0f ppl too. haiis. all ii cans sae is sorii t0 all th0se ppl tatt ii've disappointed.

ii feel hurts. iim deeply hurt by blur sotong, ii hate him alot nw!. tiis is e 2nd time he hurt miie. ii won't believe him animore, he's a JERK!. he's a c0ward too. ii nv expected tatt he's tiis kinda of person, iim v.disappointed in myself fer likin such a person, ii onli cans sae tatt im stupid. ii treat him so nice, in e end wadd ii get?. all ii get is being hurt & mke myself sadd. al0t 0f tings b0utt him keep flashin thr0ugh my mind, hw he treated miie. ii still rmb he mit miie ferr breakfast butt he din turned upp & ii was lyk a fool waiting ferr him. al0t 0f ppl asked miie t0 gif up on him long tlme ag0 , butt ii din listen to dem. iim v.stubborn. ii mke all my frens worried ferr miie. sorii everibodii, t0 let eu all w0rry. dunch worii, ii'll 4get him de!. haiis. butt its v.difficult ferr miie. s0bs. whyes am ii gettin hurt all e times?. wen can ii b happi & st0p gettin hurt. iim realli v.tired of everiting le. whyes am ii havin so mani problems?. wen can it stop?.

s0me 0f eu dunch understand hw ii feel. ii n0e e submition date ferr art is gettin nearer. ii oso wish to faster finish it, butt ii jus cant concentrate in completing it. ii realli feel lyk givin up le. iim reali v.disappointed in myself.

I HATE BLUR SOTONG!. I HATE TAY JUN RONG!.

TAY JUN RONG, ii h0pe eu'r readin tiis. LISTEN UP!. ii hate eu l0ads!. w/o eu, ii w0n't die. ii will still live v.happily.

hmms . todae sko0l celebrate e racial harmony dae , den ii wore e malay costumes . and ii feel so paii sehs wen ii board e bus , cus other sko0l celebrate it on fridae . aiiyos , den everibodii giif miie tat kinda of stupid looks . wah liiaos . tiis is e out fit ii w0re *

do ii look weird in e outfit ?. haas . well , ii tink t0dae was a fun dae arhs . aniwae , thanks AQIDAH fer lendin miie e costumes .

well , aft sko0l went to art rm wiif e gals to get our stuff hme . after tat , went off wiif cat & pei shan . den e 2 of dem sae dey hungry , den we go makan at CU . we were t0kin b0utt tat TEO CHIA LI while eatin . andd ii was so shocked cus she was sittin in front in front & in front of miie !. ii feel lyk wen ii saw her , she was so disgustin lors . andd she turn & saw miie , den she quickly turned her sittin positions den tio miie somem0re . knn , idiot lors . tink her eyes v.nice is it ?. feel lyk slappin her . YUCKS !. she so BHB lors , is lyk todae some of e gals takin fotos marhs , den dey nv ask her take wiif dem , den she extra join in . wah liiaos , and somemore take foto still act cute lors !. shall end here , continue updates tml .. cus iim TIRED !.

shall update boutt ytd . as usual ytd went bac to skool in e mornin to do art . iim so tired & stress wiif art tings , siians lors . reach sko0l at boutt 11 plus , b4 tat ii chat of e fone wiif xiiaoqing shifu . chat boutt some stuff , some of e tings she sae , till nw iim still thinkin iit . ii tink ii shld realli start to work hard intead of slackin liiaos . ii realli shld buck up !. iim tellin myeself to wake up , is it too late nw ?. nvm , iim goin to work hard nw .

after doin art stuff , reach hme boutt 6pm . den mit huili at 730 , ii waited ferr her quite long . aiiyos , tiis gurl ars , evertime late de lehs . she still sae wans mit at 715 , luckily i nv agreed . hahas . den we went jp shop shop den go buy bubble tea , den went bac to our hse downstairs chat chat till 10 plus , den mye mom cor miie ask miie go hme . actuali , ii still dun wans go hme de . cus we still gt alot of tings to sae , butt ii mush b guaii , listen to mama , so i go hme . LOLS !. den cor blurSOTONG , den chat chat wiif him awhile , cus he mitin his mum & sis . so cant chat too long . aiyos , ytd supposed to wait him up de , butt im to tired liaos . den nv wake up . den todae i 4get to wake him up agn , hais . duno iif he gt wake up on time anot . so sorii wors .

fiirstly , wanna sae ' HAPPI BELATED B'DAE TO BESTIES JIAHUI ' . ytd wass her b'dae , sorii ferr e late wiishes . t0dae , hab mye ENG oral , ii tink iim gonna fail ?. mye miind was t0tally blank b4 e oral . iim worried b0utt hiim , t0dae iis e third dae ii c0uldn't fiind him le . haiis , realli dun0 wadd t0 d0 larhs . ii n0e eu all will scold miie stupid !. butt eu all won't understand hw ii feel de larhs . ii oso feel tired searchin fer him lors . ii wanna giff up , butt its nt easiii . haiis .

been so busii recently , andd so lazii t0 bl0g . jus came bac hme n0rt l0ng , have mye ' o ' level chinese oral todae . ii was so nervous b4 e oral , cus tiis oral is n0rt lyk e normal oral tat ii usually take in sko0l . ii've to face 2 teachers frm another sko0l de . e 2 teachers testiin miie was a lady & a guy !. LOLS , e passage readin was still alrite , onlii gort 2 words duno hw to read(still dare to sae). butt wen cum to e c0nversation , its was so funni lors . e guy teacher was e one t0kin , andd n0e wadd ?. he t0k damned s0ft , canns . den ii gort n0 choice den ii sae : '' iim sorii , cann eu speak l0uder?.'' den he repeat wadd he sae . aiiyo , he's a man andd he speaks lyk a woman lors . ii tlnk wen im readin e passage , mye voice iis l0uder than him lors . laughs ** overall , ii tlnk e oral iis fiine ?. haas . ii was so happii b4 e oral siia . cus ii msg blur sotong tellin him tat ii v.nervous , dunch feel lyk takiin e oral niia . den ii t0t he w0n't replii mii , butt he did replii miie !. he asked miie t0 '' relax . take deep breath . you can do it . wahh , ha0 gan d0ng lehs !. xD~ thanks wors !. he n0e iim takin oral t0dae , ii t0ld him ytd . and he even ha0 lian t0 miie tat he g0rt A1 fer his ' o ' level chinese lors . idiot him !. but , aniiwaes , thanks blur SOTONG !. shall p0st till here ferr t0dae .

hmms. was asked t0 updated by xinyi, so ii shall p0st b0utt t0dae. t0dae we've art lessons, andd a gr0up 0f us was asked t0 g0 c e prlnclpal by e art teacher. and so we went, e principal asked us t0 tell her wen we can hand in our 5 multi-b0ard. miie , shengli & peiyu t0ld her by m0ndae. can we finished iit by mondae?. ii dun tink so, hais. diie le larhs!. so stressed cann. i oso h0pe t0 faster finish my art wk lors, but is jus tat i dun0 wadd t0 draw fer my flnal w0rk larhs. GOD!. HELP MII!!.