went in to my friendster jus nw .
& ii kena shocked .
looked at this .






tis person by e name of ' micky ' send mi all this tings .
& e problem is ii dun even know hu he is , though he is in my fren list .
i only rmb he addin miie lahs .
ii jus find it ridiculous !.
arghh !!.

todae went hme wiif pui ying aft sch.
reach hme feelins vexed & troubled, so decide to soak myself in e bath - tub.
ii jus wannas relaxed myself & tink through wad im tryin to do & wad im gonna do.
ii spend almost half-hr or more in e bath - tub & i've nt tink of wad am i goins to do.
sighs*
ii almost fall aslp larhs.
nvm. at least im feelins much betas le.
thanks all my frens for all ur care & concern.
ii feel blessed to hab u all by my side wenever im feelins down.
& thanks jolin jie for tellin miie ur story. u'r indeed v.jian qiang!.

ii realised ii've been tolerating stuff which ii shldn't hab been toleratin &
makins myself , my life so miserable .
but ii dun understand y am ii toleratin?.
mayb ii jus wans peace & by perhaps ii feel tat by toleratin, it'll b peaceful bahs.
though, ii may b sufferin. but aren't it a better way?.
life is like this.
we'r bound to meet all sorts of up & down.
by runnin away, may nt help.
but smetimes i still choose to runaway.

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JAMOS CHUA IS A IDIOT PIG LAHS !!.

listenin to songs nw .
& thinkins bout e past .
cans time goes bac & stay at tat moment ?.
sighs, it's impossible .
ii wans bac e old youu !.
feels lyk cryins .
y aren't u havin any reaction at all ?.
xin hen tong , zhen de hen tong !.

[[`` 我很想你 你知道吗?.``]]

i knows lots of ppl askins miie wad has happpened causin miie so much of unhappiness .
i knows all youu ppl care .
i dun wish to sae much bout wad happened , read my post .
words says everythins .
i dunos wad more ii could do already .

18 Mar 07, 01:23
xinyi: i always believe that if you have faith in something,
you would get them, may your waiting be something thats worthy!

tiis wad xin yi says to miie in e tag .
thanks gal (:
ii alwaes believe in faith in whatever ii do .

BOY, ii hope to received ur tag agns .
ii noes u will b readin it .





我会好好过



等你再爱我



总有个角落



会让你想起我

well i wonder could it be
when i was dreaming about you baby
you were dreaming of me
call me crazy
call me blind
to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
did i lose my love to someone better
and does she love you like i do
i do, you know i really really do
well hey
so much i need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away
so sad but true
for me there's only you
been crying since the day
i remember date and time
september twenty second
sunday twenty five after nine
in the doorway with your case
no longer shouting at each other
there were tears on our faces
and we were letting go of something special
something we'll never have again
i know, i guess i really really know
why do we never know what
we've got till it's gone
how could i carry on
cause i've been missing you so much i have to say

} " tiis is hw ii feel , u know ?. "


why are you breakin my heart agns & agns ?.
why dun youu jus carry on wiif e lie instead ?.
ii dun wans ur sorry .
youu noe hw much ii needed you den why r leavin miie alone agns .
imagine miie without you .
wad will it b like ?.
ii can't imagine & i dun dare to imagine it .
ii really nd you , ii really nd youu !.
ii nv blame you forr wad u did ..
ii dun wans youu to be lyk tiis & carry on lyk tiis .
youu knows , ii realliis hate tat gal hu've hurt youu b4 & causin youus to b lyk tiis .
ii'll findd ur heart back de .
youus asked miie "wadd iif u asked miie to wait for 4xx days instead 1xx days, am ii goins to wait"?
ii tell youus , even iif its 1000 days or a millions days .
iim still willins to wait .
ii dun believe ur heart has lost e feelins wen ii've done so much ?.
u reallis dun hab anii feelins at all ma ?.
ii realliis dun mindd doins stupid tings & anithin jus forrs youus .
let miie b e one sufferin instead bahs .

136 days already ...
就是那麼爱你 什麼都想为你
你知道我爱你 会爱到很久

update , update & UPDATE !.

THURSDAY 15o3o6
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went to SGH on friday to visit huizhii BUDDY's mom .
her mom was hospitalized & still unconscious .
wen ii reached dere buddy was like keep cryin & standin beside her mom keep askins her mom to wake upp .
ii feel lyk cryins wen ii c buddy lyk tis , my eyes was alreadiis red already but i hold bac my tears .
ii cans understand hw buddy feels , really feels sad seein her lyk tis .
BUDDY , BE STONG !
ur mummy will b strong & wake upp de !.
may god bless .
went to read buddy's blog jus nw .
haiis . feel like cryin , ok .

this is was she wrote :

mummy, please wake up as soon as possible. daddy, jiejie, jie fu and me need you very much. mummy you must be strong and hold on to your strong will to wake up. stop sleeping and faster open your eye, you have been sleeping more than enough. you must overcome all the difficulties and survive this ordeal because everyone including our family, your god daughter and god son, aunts and uncles, and cousins love you very very much and we will always be in your heart to support you. please wake up soon for our sake, we cant afford to lose you because you are always the dearest mother in our heart. no matter what happen, the family will never give you up so do you, you must be strong and survive. there are still many things waiting for you to do, you must wake up to finish them all. everyone will pray for you to be safe and sound, you also must preserve your strong will. keep praying in your heart because all the gods will be able to hear, they will give you a helping hand. mummy you are the kindest and the most excellent mother in the world, i love you very very much, i am still 16 and that is still very young, you still must watch me enter poly and university, graduate and have a good job. you must see me wearing the square hat which means i have graduate from university, you must attend my wedding and carry your grand children. give me a chance to take good care of you, to love you and to cherish every moment i have with you. i want you to nag at me everyday because i know it was for my own good and also you love me. i want to see my pretty and elegant mummy to wake up and open her eye, so you must fulfill my wish. you always listen to me what i told you, so this time no matter what you must listen to me. mummy, we will pray hard for you so faster wake up. i love you mummy, and i know you love me and the family too. muacks

extracted frm : huizhi buddy's blog

* let's pray & hope her mummy will wake up soon !.

i left e hospital & went to mit jiahui sis .
cus its been duno hw mani daes since ii last met her .
den went to her hse .
ard 9 plus to 10 , left her hse & headed to jp to mit pig pig forrs dinner .
tat idiot !. make miie wait dunos forr hw long .
& ii hab my dinner almost 10 plus to 11 .
iim already starving already lors . SI ZHU TOU !.
its really been awhile since ii last sat down to hab a meal wif him lahs .
sighs *

TODAY .
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went to find pigg .
prepared lunch for him & he nags sayins ii took a v.long time lahs .
arghh !. qian bian lors .
see , so gd of miie prepared lunch for him lahs .
den he still complains i took such a long time^ . LOLS .
he went for work aft tat , den ii jiu headed to jiahui hse .
went to mit her to decide if wans go to hospital .
but we end up nt goins .
sorry BUDDY !.
mayb tml den go visit her bahs .
alrite , shall end here le !.

" my love forrs youus is unspeakable "

two songs to share forr e day !.
tis two songs is frm e movie ii watch tat dae 'MUSIC & E LYRICS'.
ii love tis two songs la, so decided to share wiif everybody .







* click on play to listen .
enjoy ~

yesyes.
it's complicated between us(like wad u said)
我只想爱你

iim so so so disappointed & angriis wiif youu lahs .
youu alwaes lyk tat de lahs .
nan de youu tml off lors .
&yet u find excuses sayin tis & tat .
suan le lahs .
haiis .

hellos. (:
shall post a lil boutt todae.
wake upp quite earliis todae , 1oplus. is it still consider earlis?
haas. i shld b wakins up at 9 plus instead cus iim meetins yuling & see theng .
butt as usual , iim LATE agns !.
e bad habit of mine.
mit dem to go KING's ice-cream factory to buy ice cream.
they'r havin promotion lahs. sellin e ice-creams cheap.
e weather was so so so damns HOT todae larhs.
ii was lyk keep sweatin & ii hate e feelins of sweatin.
den in e evenin or so, went to catch a movie 'e music& lyrics' wiif mummy & br0ther.

it's been awhile since ii last watched movie wiif dem lahs.
so decided to catch a movie wiif dem.
overall, all ii cans sae is e moviie is nt bad lahs. quite funny.
oh ya. my leg nw pain loads, cus im havin blister.

see?. shi tong de lors.
alrite. shall end e dae wiif sme zii liians fotos.





takkaiire everyone ~

ii've gt nth to blog actualliis .
butt ii gt nth to do , rottin soon .
jus post sme music video to share .




Boa - winter love
a v.touchin song , tis song can mkes miie cry .




&other touchin song by Boa , key of heart .
e endin is sadd ya .
enjoy ~

ii wans tiis w850i fone badly!. hu is willins to buy forrs miie ?. haas.

im missin youu lyk crazy !.

wanted to post sme long entry .
but im nt in a gd mood lahs , no mood to post .
jus writing tis post to sae out hw i'm feelins nw .

hw ii wish youu could told miie tat its nt true lahs .
ii tot ii guess wrongly or tink too much .
but in end is still true .
dunos why ii feel lyk cryin wen u told miie bout it ?.
am i too emotional or wadd ?.
wo bu zhi dao lahs , jus wish tat its nt TRUE !.
ii feel kinda of sad nw .
my mind is all bout wad u've told miie .
ii keep thinkin & thinkin .
haiis ~

takkaiire everybody .
niites }

im missing you badly .

dun0s hw t0 describe my feelins nw .
iim angriis & sad at e same time wiif ya lahs .
tears gonna roll down .
do u n0es hw worried ii was today ?.
& in e end ?.
sighs *
suan le ..

UPDATES !!.

FRIDAY o2o3o7
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tiime passes real fast , nw is already e mth of march .
friday , ii rmb goins bac hme earliis cus ii've to visit my godmother's hse .
left godmummy hse ard 5 plus went hme to get changed den mit LIYING darlingg .
we to0k cab to causeway point to mit liying's frens .
hab our dinner dere , chit-chat awhile .
left e place ard 8 plus cus we reallis BTH alreadiis .
we went bac to jp went to play acrade awhile den headed to her hse .
her mummy gave miie angbaos !. lalalas ~
den we chat boutt loads of tings , it's been awhile since ii hab a gd chat wiif her .
ii share all my xin shi wiif her too , she told miie boutt hers too .
gal , dunch b too gd to guys !.
guys alwaes tke gal fors granted .
den she told mie sme stuff which ii get kinda of du lan .
is nt b'cus of wad darling hab said , it's bout smebodis hu told her sme tings .

p.s FUCKIN BITCH , ii DEPISE you & ii hate you loads !.
ii've enough of u alreadiis .
STOP actin as iif you'r pathetic lahs .
ur pathetic face mkes miie wannas PUKE !.
ii regretted tellin youus all my xin shi , ii trust you tat's y ii tell u .
y shld ii continue e friendship wif u , wen iim only e one fu chu in e friendship ?.
you hab taken frens for granted .
nvm , you dun nd miie & ii DUN nd youu too !.

ok . im jus ventin my anger out !. phew .
aft all th0se chit chatting , ii found out it was almost mid nite plus .
liying ask miie to stay over-nite but ii haven told mom bout it b4 hand .
so ii rejected , ii booked cab hme .
wen ii reached hme , daddy came out & found out tat ii reached hme so late .
nagged at miie as usual .
tat's nt all , he wake mummy up to tell her bout it . WTF lahs .
den mummy scolded miie too .. SADD !.
suan le . it's nt e first time oso .

SATURDAY o3o3o7
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mit upp wiif BAOBEIIS catherine to china town !.
she peii miie went dere to tke fotos for my art work , thanks my dearr (:
HEH , HEH . guess wad .
iim punctual while meetin wiif baobeiis . LOLS .
aft all those fotos - tkin sessions , we went to BUGIS .
we went to long john to makans first cus we were both hungry .
den we went shopping .
tat's wher our shoppin addiction came agns .
we shop e whole bugis village dun0s hw manii times .
cat couldn't found any clothes tat worth her likins , while ii bought a top for myself !.
& a necklaces la . & my shoes spoilt too . sighs *
den ii suggested to go marina square cus ii wannas to find ahem ahem *
even though my shoes spoilt le .
den cat agreed to peii miie go .
wen we reached dere , she went to shop agns .
hope t0 prey for sme gd stuff . LOls .
den went to cartel to c pig pig !.
tink he gt kindas of surprised tat ii will go dere bahs .
tinks he t0t tat ii g0 dere for shopping onliis , but actually is nt .
ii noes ii alwaes do STUPID tings lahs .
but ii jus can't help it !.
ii ONLY managed to see pig awhile cus he's busy & ii've to rushed to mit mummy .
betas den dun hab .
& baobeiis still pei miie go mit my mummy even though her leg's pain due to e heels she's wearin .
thanks LOADS !.
c tiis is wadd ii call TRUE frens . understand ?.
shall end here le .
will uploads sme fotos tml .
kinda of tired le .

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wen u really like sme one a lots , you'll be willin to sacrificed for him/her .
iim willin to sacrificed anythin jus forrs youus ..

Never let you go

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Tho I told myself won t hold my breath
a part of me was dying
here is nothing left for me to do now,but give in
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell youI won t live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,I d never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don t know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can t believe we d never dance
I just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance
Tho I told myself won t hold my breath a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won t live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your handand look in your eyes and ya know,
I d never let you go
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won t live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chanceto tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I d never let you go

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e pains still remains .
iim missing you badly once agns .
you left miie all al0ne agns wen ii needed you e most .
ii've alreadiis tell you hw ii feel & want ii wanted .
y you jus hab n0 reaction ?.
haiis .

din update my blog forrs quite sme time. been busy recently.
shall updates boutt wadd ii did e last sat .

saturday 24o2o7
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ii've a number of visitors on tat dae . :D
ii went to fetch chien juen , xiao qing & winnie first at 3 pm plus at e bus stop to my hse .
my mummy oso cook food to serve dem .
thanks my dear mom !.
aft ard 5 plus , went to fetch e other grp of ppl which were baobeii catherine , see theng , yuling , pei yu , joshua & wilson . woots !.
b4 fetchin dem my mummy & ii was gamblin wiif chien juen they all . LOLS !.
ii was lyk winnin sme money alreadiis , but ii've to rush out to fetch catherine & frens .
den ii asked my brother to tke over & wen ii came bac . my money tat ii won was gone !.
all thanks to my stupid brother lahs .
But nvm, in e end my mummy was still e one hu won e most !. HEH ; HEH .
see theng left my hse to mit her parents for dinner . peiyu , joshua & yuling left lata too .
den left e 6 of us , we decided to go je to play pool .
we to0k cab down .
dere were quite a lot of ppl dere .
wen we reached dere , we found out tat onlis xiao qing & wilson noes hw to play lahs .
den b4 we start to play , e both of dem b'came our teachers .
they taught us hw to hit e ball & e positions all tat stuff .
at first , ii tot its difficult to learn & ii wasn't reallis interested with tables games lahs .
but ii gave it a try & it was nt difficult actualiis . haas !.
den joshua came to join us too .
we really hab lots of fun playin & im lyk addicted to it alreadiis .
we oso discussed to play agns aft e common test lahs . YEAH .
we left e place bout 10 plus goins 11 .

wilson , winnie & miie .

miie , xiaoqing & winnie .

xiiaoqing (tinks she gonnas kill miie if she saw ii posted her fotos, wahahas) shhs!

xiao qing , winnie & chien juen left for hme while mi , catherine , joshua & wilson headed to yuling's hse .
they suggested to walk to yuling's hse & ii was ok wiif it .
but joshua saw miie wearin heels & my leg were painful alreadis den he suggested tkin bus instead . thanks !. frens r alwaes e best =))
wen we reached yuling's hse , we found out tat see theng & pei yu were oso dere .
wen ii was at yl's hse , ii turned moody suddenly .
ii tink boutt him agns & felt lyk cryin .
ii gt much betas aft joinin dem wiif games .
den miie & see theng were v.shagg alreadiis den miie & her decided to leave first .
it was alreadis 230 am alreadis , we tke cab hme .
& wilson accs us down to wait for cab . thanks wilson !.
takkaiire everbody !.
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ii dun0s wadd ii am tryins to do .
ii still love youus .
ii dun0s y ii did tatt too . wadd r youus tinkin actualliis ?.
honestly , ii din regret forrs wadd ii've done .
im missing youus badly !.
dunch leave miie alone agns cans ?.
ii realliis need youus !.

hellos. pretty babes & handsomes. iim bac frm m'siia le!.
came bac ytd afternoon. honestly, ii din bear to leave lahs.
ii hab loads of fun dere & ii miisses my cute cute little cousin.
arghh!. hw cum s'pore new yr's holidae so short?.
m'siias haven even started sch yet. envys **
ii ate loads of food dere , play wiif fire crackers which ii onlis cans play in m'siias .
went shopping awhile , play acrade wiif cousins & went out walk walk in e middle of e nite!.
& play wiif my cute cute little cousins. lalala~
shiok. :D

ii've alwaes lyk CNY since ii was youngg , nt b'cus ii cans get angbao.
is cus ii cans dolled upp myself pretty pretty & gathered wiif cousins & relatives.
chit - chatting & blah blah blah .
you knows , you know . haha .
ii was quite irritated tis yr wen ii was asked by

relatives : " ah li , gt bf alreadiis ars ?
me : " huh ?. dun hab lahs . ii gt no bf , dun anyhw sae sae leiis .
relatives : sure anot ?. dun bluff bluff lahs . c ur face ii noes u gt bf la .
me : reallis dun hab , bluff you for wad ?. aiiyos . ( alreadiis quite pisses off )
relatives : i noe you paii sehs lahs , tat's y dun dare admit rite ?.
me : ehs . no lahs . no lahs . wad for pai sehs .
relatives : next yr chinese new yr , mush bring ur bf here & let us see see hors .
me : heh , heh . orhs .

see ?. hw funny cans they b ?.
wans mi admit tat i dun hab wen i dun even hab one ?.
mayb ii shld entertained them by bringin a ' FAKED ' one e next time .
LOLS !!.
& even my mummy oso de siiaos miie & keep askin miie go find a BF . arghhh !!.
alrite , enough of wad boyfrens tings .
i gt to noe a gal dere call ' li zhu ' while playin wiif cousins outside .
& she gave mi tis cute cute little froggy .



which will says ' i LOVE youu ' . cute *
hw ii wish it was a PIG instead of a froggy . haha ;
nvm , i really appreciated it .

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update boutt today !.

was kinda of lazy to go sch todays .
but still try to drag my heavy feet to sch .
sch was kinda of bored lahs .
den aft sch , went off wiif baobeiis see theng & yuling to KFC to makans .
& chit - chat .
iim so troubled & decided to shared everiting wiif dem cus ii couldn't tke it anymore .
ii told dem hw iim feelins nw & all tat stuff .
they did console miie .
ii felt much betas aft sharing wiid dem hw ii feels .
afterall, they r still e best !.
thanks gals =)) .

shall end wiif fotos .


&loves miie fors who ii am ;





iim still thinkins of you all tis while .

ii still waiting ..

ii tot ii could b strong .
butt ii realised im nt strong tat ii tot ii could b .
iim tryin my best to 4get youus , but ii can't do it .
do you its difficult to 4get somebody which youu once loves so much & care so much .
stop askin miie to gif upp wen u noe ii can't do it .
y dun yous jus turn bac & care fors miie jus fors once ?.
ii really nd you badly .
i hate to cry durin e nite all alone .
i hate e feelins of missin you .
i hate e feelins of numbin myself .
i hate e feelins of torturin myself !.
i really miss youus badly .


DESPO FREAK , pls FUCK OFF !.
you noe hu iim am referring too !.

HAPPYS CHINESE NEW YR ' o7 !. :]]

everybody do enjoys tis joyful festival .
ii'll b leavin tml in e early morning to m'siias .
do miiss miie ya !.
will update more wen ii cum bac .
takkaiire & enjoys :)

loves ,
XUELI .

u tink jus a sorry will do ?.
do u really appreciate iit ?.
appreciate it wen u dun even wannas accept it?.
suan le. suan le.
ii shldn't hab done anythin at all.
d0 u n0es hw hurtin it is wen u sae all th0se tings?.
u've changed.

hurts !!

dun u n0es tat u'r hurtin miie more & more ?.
& e scars is gettin deeper and deeper ?.
why ?.
why wadeva tings ii do , u jus dun appreciated it ?.
u jus makins miie hating u alreadiis !.

i will throw it away !.

HAPPY VALENTINE DAYS !.

UPDATE FOR YTD !.
>>>

went to wiif BELOVED daughter , susanna .
we went to hab our last grab for our new yr clothes .
mit daughter at 2 plus , she board in e train at chinese garden .
& beloved gave miie a hellos kittys watch tat we bought frm hong kong !.
omgg , it's NICE !.
daughter , thanks !.
we went to BUGIS . its was a sunday lahs , as usual . bugis village was loaded wiif loads of ppl .
we took a long time b4 we could get in .
me & daughter bought e same heels , same t-shirt & ii bought a purple strip clothes . blah blah ..
we went to took neo prints too b4 we left .
its been a long long time since ii last took wiif beloved .
aft our dinner , we decided to go far east to look for jolene & frens .
but went we were alreadis scannin our ez - link , waiting for e train .
we found out tat jolene & frens jus reached BUGIS !. arghh !.
nvm, e both of us went far east .
while on our way dere , we saw tis ang - moh , ang - moh lady .
her dressin caught our attention . u n0e she's almost half - NAKED !.
is lyk miie & daughter feels digusted by e way she dress .
we were lyk discussing , she might as well dun wear lahs .
& dere were guys hu walked past , their eyes alm0st POP out lahs . LOLS .
guys r lyk tatt !. ii shld hab taken a pics of tat lady & upload here . wahahahas .
we carry on wiif our shopping dere , found out tat they were loads of tings ii wannas buy !.
ii gotta save money !.
we left far east bout 9 plus or so cus we were both tired alreadiis .

shall ends e post wif fotos .


e watch tat daughter gave miiie .

mummy & daughter . LOVED ^^

heels .



ii cans lived without youu too .

you came & you left .

if time could return , ii would hab ...


isn't tis pig cute ?.
is our klas notice board new yr deco.
done by us !.
we've been spendin time in sch doins it , hope we will win !.

tata ~

iim still missing u badly .

XUELI'S ROTTING!.

iim gonnas rot le lahs.
was at hme e whole dae todae.
& wadd most of e time ii spend todae was wiif e com lahs.
online - ingg & msn - ingg.
ii gt irritated wen ppl t0k to miie & sae : " hellos , nv go out ars?. " OR even " so guaii nv go out mehs? haha"
wads wrong wiif miie stayin at hme & nt goins out?.
ii knows it's a saturday & tat doesn't mean ii've to go out lahs.
nobody DATE miie wad?. arghhh!.
got kinda of pissed off lahs. haiis.

nvm.
ii jus gotta a guy called " lincoln "
he's a nice guy & he looked lyk e campus superstar , ADRIANO !.
iim nt e only hu said tat, his fren oso lyk tat sae.
LOLS.

aniwaes, ii uploaded 10 songs into tis blog.
do enjoy e songs. gonnas end here le.
kinda of moody nw.
dunos hw many many daes nv saw pigg le!!.
sadd lors.

sorrys dearie shengli , can't go celebrate ur b'dae wiif u tml.
hope u enjoy urself ya.

ii've been missing u all e while.
do u noe hw much hab ii suffer all tis while?.
ii've been cryin almost everynite.
u mush hab tink tat im happii nw & livin well , rite?.
ii tell u, iim nt happii at all.
iim havin sleepless nite everiidae.
e smile tat ii've is all FAKED!.
ii keep findin tings to keep myself occupied, in order nt to tink bout it.
do u noe hw torturin is it?.
y can't u jus care for miie nw lyk b4, even iif is a fren oso. can't u jus care marhs?.
am ii realiis nt worth for u to care?.
do u noe ii've tried to 4get, but ii jus can't.
do u noe?. DO U NOE?.
u dunos at all.

" eu've taken miie for granted "

jus read tis at POORFUHUANITES.FORUM5.COM .

Hi all. We've got a letter that's email-ed to STOMP to share!
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Okay. Here goes nothing:

I am a student currently studying in Fuhua Secondary School. I have tolerated the school’s imbecile, inefficient and impractical way of running the school such that I am reduced to having to share my thoughts here.

Every school is bound to have students violating the school rules. Firstly, it's about the electricity problems in this school. Fuhua Secondary turns off the toilet lights 24/7 just to save electricity bills, but who doesn’t know that air-conditioning consumes the most electricity? Are we trying to save that little bit of electricity just for the luxury of some, but yet the necessity of many? I find this case ridiculous as we can't possibly see even in the afternoon. The whole toilet will be left very dark and only when important guests step into Fuhua, will they then turn on the lights. So what kind of show is the school putting up in front of others? Isn’t it indirectly inculcating negative values in the students?

The next thing is about grooming. Last Monday (29/01/07), when the school checked for the girls’ grooming, the teachers caught some students with fringes over their eyebrows. However, what was unexpected was that the girls were sent to the principal office and had their hair cut by the principal leaving them with straight ugly fringes. The principal should instead give a one-day grace or at least a warning before doing so, and not making the girls cry like a river in the toilets (which has no lights!). This will make them unable to concentrate on their lessons for the day. If they want to continue with their disciplinary actions this way, Fuhua students would not be convinced by the school as this is an act of public humiliation to the victims. There were students with their fringes pinned up, however some teachers caught them… According to our handbook; School Rules for Pupils (2007), Page 9, Part 5.4: Girls should pin up fringes covering their eyebrows and tie up the hair covering the shoulders. Long hair must be plaited and black hair accessories may be used. So, are we also being punished for doing the right thing?
This made me think that Fuhua has a number of contradicting teachers, as I have also encountered such problems in the past.

Thirdly, another case I found ridiculous is that Fuhua actually reprimanded the pupils for wearing jackets in the school compound. My friends were being told off by the discipline master for wearing jackets during these days. As we all know, we are still experiencing the monsoon season. They told us that the jacket is not part of Fuhua's attire and we should not be wearing one even if it's a rainy/cold day. We are to report to the office if we are sick and our parents would be phoned to acknowledge that we’re not feeling well. Only then, we’re allowed to wear our jackets. But Fuhua didn't even design a jacket for us and expect us to wear only our uniforms even if we are cold. So who is to blame for not having a school jacket? The weather is really heartless these days, aren’t the teachers being heartless too?

Lastly, students were caught and asked to remove their non skin-coloured undergarments and wait till their parents come with a white/skin-coloured undergarment for them. I’d like to note that there isn’t any restriction for females under 16 to be banned from coloured-bras, so should we blame the manufacturer for the rainbow range of colors available? I don't see the reason why girls have to take their undergarments off with boys inside the school. If the school is worried that the guys will have nasty thoughts about girls wearing coloured-bras, being totally exposed right in front of them isn’t that more absurd? The disciplinary actions of Fuhua are causing the students to lose their self-esteem (Particularly girls). This is not the first time that I have read on articles regarding coloured-bras, and I feel it should be dealt with. If the school thinks that by stripping someone’s esteem will wake the student up, I’m sorry. This ‘traditional method’ has to be given up as the modern day society doesn’t practice this anymore. We believe in reasoning things out rather than solving things under an iron-fist method.

The school should give an explanation to the students. Hopefully, this saga ends benefiting both the school and the students making it a better learning condition.

Thanks for your attention.

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ii agreeds wiif wadd e person has wrote.
tiis sch is simply SUCKS!.
& e principal MDM OEN is MANIC!.

HELLOS : D
UPDATES !.

SATURDAY o3.o2.o7
>>>

mit upp wiif baobeiis see theng at jp at 2pm.
BUT she was late!. HEH HEH ;
first time iim punctual larhs. claps **
den we headed t0 BUGIS.
went to I.P zone , miie & see theng bought tiis pinkish jacket .


which cost us 26 bucks.

ii wanted t0 buy e black one, butt iim in love wif e pink one wen ii first saw it.
see theng wanted to find a place to sit down & we saw tis " BUGIS TEENAGE CAFE "
den we went in f0rr a bite. e tings dere is cheap even though is a cafe.
& it suits teenagers lyk us.
we ordered e blueberry muffin , it's nice.


yummy !

cans go try it dere.
we headed to BUGIS village aft tat.
as usual lahs, its crowded wiif many MANY MANYY ppl!.
we shopped dere till ard 8 plus & finalliis bought clothes tat we wanted.
went t0 haf our dinner jiu went hme.
we wanted to tke neo prints 2gether cus its been awhile since we last took.
but we were both shagg le.

SUNDAY o4.o2.o7

went outt wiif mummy for shoppingg.
ii go buy clothes agns.
& mummy bought tis handbag forr miie.



ii oso bought a BELT.
mummy bought herself a handbag too.
lalalas !.
MUMMY is e BEST! iiLOVEher ;D

97 days of waiting .


note : to tat person hu keep comin to my tagboard to tagg . pls jus FUCK off !.
pls stop usin my name to FAKE lahs. u tis idiot FAKER!.
iif u wans pls use ur own name, STOP being childish.
ii dun nd ur words!.

TO TAT PERSON HU TAG MY BLOG JUS NW !.

pls larhs. STOP ur stupid acts!.
iif u wannas tag my blog, use ur name. dun b so HUMJI cans?.
& tis is my blog, dun lyk it? pls jolly well, FUCK off!.
so childish!.

shengli , thanks !. (:

angriis *

my babyy bear which accs miie to slp




UPDATES !.

went to LITTLE INDIA wiif shengli today , her fren audrey was alongg wiif us too.
miit her at china town first at ard 3 plus , she was LATE !. arghh. butt, nvm.
shengli b0ught e sony ericsoon Z610i.
arghh, so gd. she gt new fone le.
mayb ii will b buyin tat fone too.
alriite, china t0wn today was cr0wded wiif l0ts 0f ppl.
perhaps ppl r busii buyin new yr stuff. HOHO.
CNY is comingg & i haven even boughtt my new yrs stuff.
went to little india temple to tke fotos for my art w0rk.
& ii went to did tis my hand too.


this cost miie 5 bucks.
niice?.

aft tkin fotos all tat stuff , is alreadiis boutt 5 plus.
we decided to went IMM.
had our dinner at long john.
shop shop awhile jiu went hme le.
im tired.
i wanted to rest, but wenever ii close my eyes i'll tink of him.
e image of him will appeared.
sighs *

it's friday already. time passes so fast.

sch sucks totally !.
well, today sch ends at 1230.
aft sch, mit up wiif my BELOVED daughter, susanna to vivo city to buy a bag tat she wans. winnie was along wiif us too.
we went to je entertainment, went to KFC for our lunch.
we chat b0ut l0ts of tings, it's been awhile since ii've get t0 chat wiif my beloved daughter.
den aft lunch jiu headed to vivo, ii noes it looks stupid wearin sch uniform go vivo larhs.
but if go hme to ger ourselves changed, its kinda of waste of time.
& i'll lazii to get out of e hse aft tatt. LOLS!.
we shop e whole vivo larhs & e tings is ex cans?.
den nu er went in to adidas to get her tat she wanted.
& eu n0es hw much tat bag cost?. of cus, it's nt cheap larhs.
e adidas bag cost her 75 bucks. omgg.
see?. hw rich my daughter is. wahahas.
nvm, she happii jiu hao larhs.
alot of ppl came to approached us to ask us wher to get to tis place or wadeva de larhs.
do we look lyk a s'pore map?. arghh.

phew. iim gettin v.fuck upp wiif sch work larhs.
damns stressed cans?.
& common test gettin nearer too. FAINT!!.
& iim lyk still slackin larhs. (arbishh*)
haiis. im missing pigg agns.
ii n0es ii shouldn't, feel lyk callin him.
wonder wadd he's doin lors. sighhs*
shld ii call??.

aniiways, ii changed my blog songs.
pls giif miie all ur comments.
so c'mon, move ur butt to my tagboard :D

iim lyk been thr0wn aside agns .
eu dun b0ther b0utt miie aniim0re .
criies .

"im nt happii at all" .

Words to y0uu ..



Don't stop miie from l0ving y0uu , pls.

cus iim reallys crazzy over y0uu .

y0uu are e one tatt ii wanted .

ONLY y0uu cans mkes miie go crazzy .

ii believe in endless waiting .

& time will proves everitingg .






XUELI is so zii liian !. lalas ~
aniwae, being zii lian is nt a crime .

well, todae finaally cans rest at hme.
superteens course finally over!.
din realli peii mummy for e past 3 daes, so peii mummy for dinner today.
went to shop sh0p first .
mummy b0ught bras sets & new bedsheet for miie !.
& she even help miie pay my fones bills .
mummy is still so gd to miie , cans ?.
& ii so so LOVE her !. thanks mummy :D


new bedsheet for tonite .



isn't tis little gal cute ?. haas .

talk bout my tagboard ting .
somebody wiif e name of " DAMN " tagged miie wiif tis ..

15 Jan 07, 10:41
DAMN: DONT ACBC WITH SL LA!****!THINK U ALL VERY LIAN MEH?ALBL.GOT PEOPLE HELP,BIG AH?GOT JI THEN ONE TO ONE!
DAMN: think u wad?JUST A PILE OF ****!@#@$%&^*@#$&#:
DAMN: **** THE WALL LA!CB

see?. dun eu all feels tat tis person is so so so CHILDISh?.
aniways ii n0es hu tis person is lahs.
she's simply jus so brainless, tink tat miie & sl is stupid de lahs.
tinks tat we won't find out is her lahs.
alreadiis 16 + goins seventeen liiaos. but hors, e behaviour she does is lyk onliis a six yrs old small little gal larhs. so CHILDISH.
heys, iif y0uu dare jiu one on one lors. iif eu reallis dare pls come.
dun jus say onliis, pls jus do it.
& gt anithin bu shuang wiif miie , come face to face & sae it to miie.
aniways, thanks th0se frens hu come & scold her bac oso.
she's so hum ji larhs, she nv tag bac lors. HAHA.
ii tinks ii knws y, heard ppl says she've n0 c0m at hme. pathetic riites?.
& ii f0und 0ut smethin, she DELETED her blog aways.
mayb she afraid us go tag hers. so IDIOT lahs.
nvm, enoughh 0f her.

" as long as y0uu'r happii jiu ha0 le , ii dun mindd sufferingg . ii n0es y0uu can't d0 wadd ii've said t0 ytds la . ii n0es is impossible . feels so sad wen u dunch hab anii reactions b0ut it wen ii sendd eu tat msgs . haiis, suan le larhs . u happiis jiu ha0 lahs . dun care b0utt miie . time will pr0ves evertingg "

iim so damns damns miisses pigs voice larhs !!.
misses e times wen ii alwaes t0k t0 him late in e nite .
sighhs *

jus login to my friendster private acc jus nw .
it's been a wk since ii last login .
ii found out darling liying wrote miie tis testimonial .

liying darling says :

yo darlin..

hmm dun b sad bout de matter le k

all ur frenz will b by ur side de

i jus wan 2 tell u follow ur heart

and continue 2 wait..

one day he will realise u r de best de

if u give up nw..then reali no hope le

jia you darlin

muackx

loves

sister 4ever

so touched by wad she wrote :D

li ying darling , thanks !. iiLOVEyou too . muacks .

alrite , was kinda of pissed off jus nw .
iim still angriis wiif kelvin kor kor larhs .
alreadis sae hao today mit upp de larhs , den last min ..
he MIA !.
ii couldn't findd him . shit him .
i hate ppl lyk tis , iif can't mke it or wad jus sae la .
is it v.difficult ?. sighs *

hellos :D
shall update tings bout ytd ba.
aft sch hang out wif siiao char bo shengli, baobeiis catherine & kailing.
accompany catherine go hme to get her bank bk, cus she wanna withdrawn money.
kailing went hme too, we mit her lata at jp.
we headed to jp , went to long john silver for our lunch.
before tat me & shengli b0ught e same pinkish water bottle at precious moments.
ii love e bottle, its CUTE!.
chit - chat awhile den went to library to do our art reseacrh.
ii was so tired , havin headache too.
dun even hab e mood to find bks lors.
didn't managed to borrow ani bks, so we went off.
we were all shagg le.
ii went e other way while they headed to e bus stop.
hp l0w batt, went hme to charge.
ii gave pigg a call cus ii rmb he sayin will call miie bac, but my hp low batt le.
den, he told miie he saw miie walkin hme wen he was on e bus!
omgg!.
so paii sehs, cans?.
den he keep suan miie bout my sch uniform agns. wth lahs.
sadd lors!. humphhs!.
den aft tat , kelvin kor kor called miie too.
chat wiif him & he suan miie oso. wth.
on e same dae, kena suan by e ppl.
suay riite?.

ok. todae. nth much.
lessons as usual, so stress upp wiif maths lahs.
dislikes e chapter im doins nw.
aft sch went hme straight wiif shengli & kailing.
pigg ring miie up while ii was in e bus till ii reached hme larhs.
were engrossed in sme topics lahs, he mke miie feelin so paii sehs , cans?.
it's been a long time since ii cans chat wiif him on e fone for so long le.
haiis.

endin here /=

arghh, was pissed off with some things jus nw.
shan't talk bout it. onlis my beloved susanna n0es b0utt it.
ii dislikes last mins notice!.

today is e second day of e wk.
lessons as usual.
im still so shag lahs.
shengli pangsehs miie todae. w/o her entertaining, im so bored lahs.
haha.
alrite, today havin art lessons. was told to tink of a theme for coursewk le.
ii've no ideas of wad theme ii wanna do.
my brain is still in lala land. LOLS!.
anybody cans giif miie suggestions?. haha.
alrite, today aft sch headed to jp wif cj & frens.
go kopitiam to makans.
den ii found out tat pig is at jp!. wiinks* so qiiao.
he cut his haiir!. lyk ah beng siias. so short.
he nv saw miie wearin uniforms b4, den he sae my uniform nan kan lors.
still sae jurong sec uniform nicer, of cus he lyk tat sae lahs. cus jurong sec used
to b his sec sch marhs.
he v.bad , riites?. tat idiot pigg!. lalalas .
butt ii onlis managed to chat wiif him for awhile. sadden.
haiis.

well, susanna nu er is sick. h0pe she get well soon.
gt a chance to chat wif her jus nw. but ii still hab loads & tons of tings to share wif her.
sayang, rest well!. MUMMY misses you.
end here.
nites everybody.

" iim missin you everyday "

hellos. bac to bloggin agns.
tok a little bits bout ytd.
quarrelled wiif Daddy ytd.
he touched my tings w/o my permission.
Den ii shouted bac at him lahs. den we jiu quarrelled le.
i damns sad & hurt, i hate ppl touchin my tings w/o my permissions.
i guess nobody likes. its RUDE!.
i cried . e first person tat was on my mind & tat could console miie is " him "(pigg) .
i noes ii shouldn't call him , but ii din care so much.
all ii wans is to tell him & onliis him.
Din care much, tell him e whole story.
Ran out of e hse at ard 130 a.m , find pig. went hme ard 430.
hopin tat he could console miie. he did console miie. But..
we chat bout other stuff lata on & ii ended upp crying agns.
tears immediately dropped down aft hearin all those hurtful words
he said, it jus couldn't stop. *floods*
hw manii times must u mke miie cry?.
is it v.happy to see miie cry?. why , why , why?
why can't u jus spare a thought for my feelins?
givin up? u wanna mi to gif up?
its easier said than done, do u noe tat?.
im reallis devastated.
all e word said hurts, deeply hurt!. heart pains.
understand hw ii feel cans?.

today : D
today late for sch due to traffic jam.
& its al0t 0f ppl late for sch.
miie & huili still chiong to sch, tot tat we could mke it in time.
but hu noes. still LATE!. arghh.
shld hab tke our own sweet time walk to sch.
met shengli on e way .
reached sch, mr govin ask us to write our name & write e reasons for been late.
den stand in rows of threes , den do head count.
& wtf!. im e first one lors.
so ii shouted '' one '' den continued.
den continued countin but stuck at 13 plus jiu stop liao. cus gt ppl dreamin!.
den ii was told to shout agns. & e same ting happened agns.
and ii've to shout agns & agns. dun0s hw manii time ii've shouted one lors.
ii v.dun lan alreadis. dun0s which bloody idiot, still nt awake!.
ii nv slp e whole nite, but im still awake cans?
den, finally finished counting.
den one by one let govin sign e paper. den he sae my hair all tat, blah blah blah..
den gt to c him aft sch for dentention.
& detentions sucks totally!.
den went bac for class for lessons. ii tot ii'll b v.shagg.
butt ii din, thanks to shengli for entertainin miie. Lols.
im still feelins sad honestly, feels lyk cryin le.
but ii tried to hold my tears back. it's terrible.
all e tings pig have said was always in my mindd.
ii tried to put my concentrations in doin work, in order nt to tink of anythin.
But ii still can't.
sorrys frens, ii still can't stop toleratin myself.
im stubborn.


ii still believe ..
iim still waiting ..

woots!. today is e first day of sch, & im so so so nt used to wakin upp earliis!. so long nv wear sch uniform le. e feelins is so damns weird!.
ii still misses holiday, ok.
sch today is damns damns borin too!. SIGHS.
ii dunch lyk my chemistry teacher, ii request to get him changed!.

tok boutt ytd, met up wiif see theng baobeiis & catherine baobeiis to get sme sch stuff.
as usual iim late!. butt ii met pig at e bus - stop, so surprised to saw him.
its lyk long time nv saw him le.
ii DAMNS miss him honestly ..
haiis.

" e feelin of missin someone is terrible , ii hate tis kinda of feelins honestly!. "

Happy new yr , everii0ne !.

well, a yr has passed. a new yr has started. omg, it's reallis damns fast!.
ii treat is as a new begininng for miie.
sko0l g0nna reopen le, ii've to bucked upp wiif my studiies le. no more slackin le!.
cus tis yr im tkin 'o' lvls le. ii've alreadiis wasted one yr playin, ii dunch wish to continue lyk tis le.
so iif u find tat im slackin, pls gif miie a kn0ck on my head. LOls!.
alrite, it's a brand new yr. ii h0pe everting will b alright throughout e whole yr.
& ii hope to 4get all e sad memoriis ii've, even th0ugh iim still broodin over it.
it's hard to 4get in such a short time, ii still nd time.
but im still waitin, ii'll continue to wait de.

alriite, tok bout ytd countdown bahs.
mit upp wiif huili , chia yee & kelly at bout 5 plus.
we went to jp mac to makan first.
den saw kok wah kor kor & hong zhan.
they oso goins boon lay.(butt ii din saw dem)
den aft tat we headed to boon lay, jing hong came to join us aft tatt.
we met al0t 0f frens there.
it's FUN!.
shan't p0st m0re b0ut ytd, (lazii)*
haas, oh ya. ii saw nicholas there too. lalalas.
thanks ppl for those new yr wishes sent.
& ii f0und out smethin, kelvin kor kor gt gf le. butt he nv tell miie.
ii f0und ytd wen his gf uses his hp to send miie e wishes.
humphs, wadd kinda of kor kor is tis?. bo xim!!
hahas. craps.

alrite. shall endd here le.
nites everybodis.





times proved everitings.