ii've nth t0 bl0g actualiis , butt ii dunch wans keep my blog un-updated . well , r0t at hme e wh0le daes . cus iim still down wiif a bad flu , dunch feels lyk goings outt . den in e afternoon , ii gt v.pissed wiif somebodiis . he simply jus tink too much lors . he jus gets e wrong ideas larhs , ii damns angrii , ii jus hang upp e fone half - wae thr0ughh . ii g0t nth t0 sae larhs iif eu tinks tiis ways . wad eu said jus makes miie pissed off . well , tml goings swensens trainin wiif ba0beiis catherine & see theng . frm 3 - 5 pm , b0redd !. dunch feel lyk goings , h0pe tml my flu will get beta bahs . alriites , shall write a sh0rt p0st . takkaiire everii0nes ~

s0metimes its hard t0 understand a person , n0 matter hw hard eu tried , eu will still never manage t0 understandd .

currently listenin to : wo hen xiang ai ta
by: twins

lazii XUELI iis bac t0 bloggin agns !. Lols . so fast a brand new wks agns . haha .

a quick updates on last wk .

thursday

* off to chalets

friday

* went hme frm chalets

wkends

* outt wiif my family

realiis a v.sh0rt updates . jus t0k abit b0utt e chalets bahs , we headed t0 chalets on e 2nd nite which is thurs . e chalet is at aloha ( pasir ris ) & omg , it was a long way to reach dere . wen we reached dere , we f0und outt tatt dere's actuallii a free shuttle bus t0 bring us dere . Lols , it was too late den cus we alreadiis reach le .

we reached & settled down & ii found out tatt starhub line user has n0 receptions . wth niias . den ard evenin we've bbq , den watched princess hours while eatin . den we found outt tatt we'r still nt full yet , den we called peck hoon asked her to buy instant noodles . she cooked ferr us smemore , she indeed looks lyk our mummys !. 0ops ! . peck hoon thanks aniwae . den aft dinner , ii went to bath . den wait fer shengli & kailing t0 bath too , den we went outt t0 walk walk . den came bac , it's alreadiis mid nite le butt we'r still nt tired yet . den we watched taiwan dramas . it was a nice drama , butt too bad we din watched finishedd . den ii tink ard 4 am , miie & shengli went to orh orh le cus buay tahan le . den e next morns wake up , it was time to go hme le . we went to eat mac den headed hme , everione's tired le cus last nite din slp well !. afterall , ii cans sae e chalets is FUN !. ii h0pe dere'll b one more chalets ya , we had a great time dere . chalet rawkkss ~

todae

went bac to sko0l earliis in e morns at 8 am to take o lvls chinese , can't wake up in e morns cus din slp well last nite . havin a bad flu & keep sneeze sneeze sneeze !. poor miie , while doin e exams ii alm0st fall aslp !. shengli realiis t0t ii fall aslp niias . aft e exams ard 12 le , miie wiif xiao qing & frens went t0 jp go eat long john . miie goin to sick le still eat long john , LOls . den walk walk awhile jiu headed ferr hme . went bac hme , eat medi den jiu go slp . ii HATES flus !. alriites , shall end here . cus ii feel sleepy aft eatin medi . nites everiones ~

ii dun0s wadd makes eu feel tatt ways , ii realiis dunch understand eu at times . perhaps ii shld keep silent & dunch sae anithin bahs .

xueli is bac t0 bl0ggin agns !. =))

weets !. tml goin chalet wors . so happiis , lalalas ~

so won't b online tml , & may repliis testiis late too .

well , shall p0st a sh0rt post t0dae !. t0dae went 0utt wiif ba0beiis catherine & see theng agns . we went t0 lo0k ferr j0bs agns , e previ0us j0bs we nv d0 liia0s . we sacked e manager b4 he sacked us !. Lols . aiiyos , find so mani j0bs , endd up at swensens agns !. iim bac t0 w0rkin as a waitress agns , sighss * shld ii w0rk dere marhs ?. dun0s siias , confusedd ** butt ii tink it shld b betas den pizza hut bahs . havin trainin on 1st NOV , gd luck t0 miie bahs . YEAHS , w0rkin wiif catherine & see theng . FUN , FUN , FUN !.

shall update till here !. will update moree after chalets bahs . takkaiire everione !.

ooh . ii finalli gt e time t0 updates agns !. shall updates b0utt ytd .

went outt e wh0le dae ytd wiif ba0beiis catherine & see theng . we mit at jp den went t0 s'p0re sh0ppin ctr ferr a j0bs interview . we've a appointments wif e person at 145 pm butt we reached e place late cus we couldn't find e place . by e time we reached dere is ard 2 plus le . & we waited fer b0utt 1hr outside e office , cus we wanted t0 went in le , but den gt a guy st0pped us & asked us t0 wait 0utside first cus inside gt al0ts 0f ppl marhs . den in e endd , we damns du lan le cus we waited v.l0ng le . den we decided t0 went t0 e 0ffice , den we asked e person dere wher's cherry ?. (e gal we've a appointment wiif) den we f0und outt tatt she's nt in e office le . WTH !. we damns pissed off lors . we were like a fool waiting outside ferr so long . den ii called cherry & t0ld her b0utt e situation , den ii tink she called e guy hu asked us t0 wait outside de bahs . den 5 mins lata , e guy called miie & he asked us t0 g0 plaza sing & he'll interviewed us . our feelin tatt time was '' #@$%&%#&%$$!!! '' so bo bian we went t0 plaza sing lors . den he interviewed us all tat , tell us b0utt e j0bs . ii shan't sae much b0utt e j0bs . den he asked us wen cans we start w0rk . den see theng repliis him `` now `` , den he misunderstood . he t0t we sae NOW !. tatt means cans ma shan start nw !. LOLS . den we start wk immd , its tiring man !.
but we'r jus try out , we h0pe we cans get used t0 e j0bs . w0rkin tml agns !. hahas . it's fun outt wiif see theng & catherine !. shall p0st till here bahs .

a few daes since ii last updated . bac here agns . 4got wadd ii did e past few daes le , LOls . well , frm mondae till t0dae . ii've been attendin sko0l , iim so guaii ok . haha , as usual . our klas attendance is still damns poor . is alwaes ard 13 plus of students attendin onliis . e classrooms is kinda of bored & quiet !. misses e noise levels tatt our klas used to be created , sighs ** tink will nort b hearin it agns bahs . t0dae shengli & hui min gt cum to sko0l , butt kailing din come leiis . so mani daes nv see her le , misses her !. Lols .

well , t0dae's lessons ends at 130 . aft sko0l went t0 coffee united wif chien juen & frens . peck hoon cum join us aft tatt . she bring pizzas tat she made durin her f&n lessons , niice niice * . hees . den sit dere chat chat awhile till 3 plus den we jiu went hme . o0ps !. promised susanna nu er t0 c0r her 2nite , ii 4gotten agns . aiiy0s . so 4getful of miie .

it's been awhile , e matter perhaps hab toned down le bahs . congrats miie , ii alreadi 4gotten all boutt it le . im n0 l0nger tatt sad animore , alth0ugh some times ii'll still rmb some of e tings . butt ii can't possibly 4get everiting oso de . butt ii n0 l0nger feels tatt hurt animoree . there were times ii feels so empty , like something is missin somehow . e feeling is jus so weird . butt nvm , iim nort lonely . ii still hab frens ard encouragin miie , b dere ferr miie . aft tis matter , ii jus feel tatt ii trust e wrong person , ii shldn't hab tell her everiting . perhaps all along , she was helpin her frens nort miie . ii dun0s is ii tink too much or not , is lyk to mie she's those kind of wen she nds help or wad den cum find miie , dunch nd miie den hack care miie . ii hate tis kinda of person lors . dun0s larhs , ii oso dunch wish to tink too much .

recently watchin princess hours , jus loves e show damns muchh .

Mood : pissed off + angry + sad (abit) + numb + foul temper
( a mixture 0f mood im havin nw )

honestly , im numb le . my heart is numb . totally n0 feelins le . all thanks to u !. jerk !. i dun0s wad t0 use t0 describe u , onliis '' jerk '' is e word . i've nth to sae boutt eu le . mentionin u jus mkes miie du lans . eu jus continued playin lahs hors , jus continued lahs hors . i'll c how long eu cans continued play till . FUCK !. count myself suay to n0es some1 lyk u lahs .

ii won't cry animore . i've no more tears to pour le oso . & cryin over a jerk lyk u is damns nt worth it lahs . lyk wadd everibodis says to miie , it's nt worth mi to cry over eu . i'm nt goin to b angri too . angri will onlis caused mi to hab wrinkles , LOLs . im jus goin to b happys !. JERK , listen well . im livin well & i'll prove to eu tat ii will !. & e life im leadin will b betas den urs !. to miie , eu'r jus a useless beast , inhuman , jerk & a basturb , a flirt too . i hate you to e core !. and pls lahs . everibodis jus hate u . ur presence jus mkes everbodis feels disgusts . puii `` !.

iim b0red , so came t0 update my blog & ii dunch wish to left it unupdated !. =))

din updates ytd , cus klnda of lazii !.
yesterday

yesterday , nth much too . jus went to mit jiie in e after noon . peii her go library to borrowed bks . den we chat chat wiif each other , e tings chat reminds miie b0utt all his tings agns . sighs ** haiis !. den ytd , din go to sko0l . th0se in our klas hu turned up ferr sko0l , is lyk less than half lors . den tat mr phor sae wadd , th0se din attend sko0l hab t0 see him on fridae . wah liiaos , siians lors . c him ferr wadd siia , he v.free is it ?.

t0dayss ..

sighs !. havln sleepless nites recently . can't fall aslp norhs . my mind is all b0utt his tings agns . wen cans ii 4get everiting ??. even iif ii fall aslp le , ii'll b awaken by night mares !. why , why , why !. ii hate u ferr causin my life so miserable larhs .

ii still habs l0tsa tings in my mind left unanswered by u !.

^ y mush u lied t0 miie in e first place ?. whyy .
^ y u b'cum lyk tiis ?. r u really happis wiif ur life nw ?.
^ u reallys wanna carry on ur life lyk tis forever marhs ?.
^ y dunch u change fer e sake of urself ?. u aren't lyk tis de . jus change bahs !.

ii n0es u'r in e camp nw , eu won't b readin my post nw . perhaps wen u r bac durin wkends , mayb u'll read my post bahs . mayb nort . ii n0es even iif u read le , u oso won't bother de . ii jus wannas write to make myself feels betas .

ii spent my day changin my blog's skin . tlred of e prevlous blogskins , so change an0ther one . is tis betas den e prevl0us one ??. PEOPLE , glf miie ur comments . hahas , THANKS !. =))

happii swiit sixteen's b'daes t0 CHIEN JUEN !. h0pe u enj0y ur BIG days , LOLs .

t0days din went t0 sko0l , stayed at hme agns . goin to rot soon . sighss '' tml supp0sed t0 g0 bac sko0l de . tink iim nort goin too , jenn dey all nort goins . as usual , our klas sure a l0ts of ppl nort goin de . somemore , go bacs sko0l ferr wadd ?. nth to studii le oso marhs . go bacs oso siians . ii wanns t0 flnd jobs , ii wanna w0rk !. ii wanna earn moneys . dunch wans get money frm parents . anibodis gt ani jobs l0bang , pls tell miie . kkaes . thanks .

my mind is still damns confused , hen fans . xin hen tong . tings b0utt him is still in my mind , wen cans ii 4get everting ?. hw ii wish ii nv knew him b4 , y mush u appeared in my liife ?. mke my life so miserable . ii realiis dun0s shld ii hate u or wadd lors !. haiis . so irritated & pissed off by all his tings !. & my fuckin father too . everidae c his face oso siians larhs !.

ii misses my besties jiia huii . tink she busyin wiif her o lvls bahs , few wks nv mit up wiif her le . tink shall cor her tml bahs . & li ying , poor her . somebodiis send a frlendster msg & scolded her till damns jia let . is lyk she dunch even n0es her lors . gal ; dunch care b0utt tat gal bahs . n0 point botherin her . takkaiire =))

REPLIS of tags !.

10 Oct 06, 17:29
/*huili: hieex.. don think abt him le.. u can do it derhx.. jiayouss

xueli*: giif miie tlme bahs , all ii nds is time . iim sure time cans heal all my pains de . take cares !.

10 Oct 06, 18:16
qiing: ok tis one nicer than tat pink and black de haha but.... but.. but... mine is still nicer than urs.. bleah wahaahaa
10 Oct 06, 18:17
qiing: below can put more thing ? v blank leh
10 Oct 06, 18:17
qiing: and post dun use bright yellow.. my eyes v pain =] gd comments given hor. thks wo ah.

xueli* : wahh , xiao qing . u hab l0ads of comments leiis . yarhhs , ii shld thank u for tatt !. LOls . i still feel tatt mine is nicer den urs . lalala ~ i change e colours of e fonts le , is ur eyes still pain ?. haha .

10 Oct 06, 19:48hontat: haha...pinch lor...la la la~

xueli* : hon tat , u sae de hors . lata ii realis punch hors . dunch regrets * hahas. btw , e promotor tat jobs , u nt workin le marhs ?

10 Oct 06, 21:57someone: stop thinking abt him le.. he wont change for the sake of u... he just wont....

xueli* : someone?. is it shu ting marhs ?. nvm , ii n0es he won't change for my sake . perhaps for himself bahs .

everiibodiis do take gd cares of urself , e weather is nort v.gd . my brother is sick , h0pe he get well soon . nites all !.

shall updates tiis post a bit b0utt ytd bahs . =))

well, ytd went t0 watch movie in e evening wiif my family . we watched e ROB-B-HOOD . actors was jackie chan & gu tian le . gu tian le so shuaii leiis. it's was a comedy actualli . ii laugh throughout alm0st e whole show . at tatt point of tlme , ii 4get b0utt all e bad memoriies . butt iit was jus ferr awhile . butt aft tatt , ii tink b0utt all th0se tings agns . haiis . ii keep askin myself , hab ii realli 4gotten all b0utt him ?. ii reali dun0s , h0nestly ii misses all his msg tatt he used t0 send miie . e tlmes he used t0 care fer miie . butt , wen ii tlnk b0utt all e tings tatt he've d0ne , my mind is confused agns & ii feel sadd too !. haiis . my hand feels itch agns , cans ?. ii feel lyk callin him . butt ii can't do tatt as ii pr0mised all 0f u t0 4get him de . PEOPLE , slap miie bahs . iim still nort awake !. ii cans even imagined tatt there'r a devil & a angel lors . e angel is tellin miie : XUELi , wake up bahs . st0p thlnkin b0utt him le . it's nort worth it . u've d0nes s0 much tings for him . but did he appreciate it ?. andd e devil is tellin miiie : he's nort bad de actuallii , he'll sure change . gif him tlme bahs !. arghh , iim v.confused cans ?!. ii keep findin tings to do , jus to 4get everting . haiis .

well , jus lyk wadd susanna nu er says . lyk some1 is easy , butt to 4get some1 is damns hard . all ii nds is tlme bahs ?. butt sorrys to says , ii still believe 1 dae he'll change ?. aiiyas , ii dun0s larhs .

TODays !.
t0dae ii nd nort go sko0l cus n0 m0re n lvls paper le . spend m0st of my tlme playin com . edit blogs , ii change my blogs songs too . take off e sad songs & its oso his fav songs . tml n0 sko0ls too . YAY !. shall end here le . takkaiire everione ~

IM BAC TO BLOGGIN !. =))

YEAH !. N lvls flnalli 0ver le. cans enj0y & hab fun le. alth0ugh n lvls over le, butt im nt happi at all. cus ii dunch n0es iif i've d0ne well an0t. im worrled b0ut my results. haiis. if tlme cans turn bac, ii will reali studii damns hard & st0p slackin!. nw sae anithin oso n0 use, its alreadi 0ver le. let's pray tat ii din did v.badly bahs. ii reali v.worried b0utt my results!. ii n0es h0n tat keep tellin miie nt t0 worrys, sure cans de. butt ii reali gt n0 c0nfldence. alrite shan't t0k b0ut n lvls le, since its over le. t0k b0utt 0ther stuff.

ytd in msn he c0me & t0k t0 miie. knn lors. frens, u all shld n0es hu im t0kin b0utt. pls larhs hors, dunch act lyk a ''mad dog'' & come barkin at miie. ii dunch entertained de hors. d0 u n0es tat u s0unds stupid by wad u've said?. makes n0 sense at all larhs. u'r jus makin a fool of urself lors. ii alreadi a few daes nv updates my blog liiaos. and i wher gt write tings ii bui song wif u or wad. & pls e last p0st tatt ii updated u've alreadi read it b4 lors. & u din sae anithin wen u t0ld mi u read it. s0 pls mke ur words clear & urself clear. d0n't b lyk a mad d0g, ok!.
ii alreadi mke myself v.clear. u gt anithin wans sae jus cor & sae. and wad u sae ytd was onlii NVM , NVM & NVM!. ands sae wadd nvm , ii dunch wans argue wiif u. pls larhs hors. is u quarrelled wif mi first de , ok!. WTF. then in e first place dun come & scold mii fer nth ok. since u sae i gt write in my blog sayin tatt ii bui song u or wad is it rites?. den ii shall fufil it. ii shall write. he's a basturd, goin ard cheatin innocent gals. he tinks he's great?. oh pls!. he's a flirt. u lyk t0 play , riite?. den go find bitches larhs. onliis bitches suits u. st0p flndin innocent gals & hurt dem. nvm, 1 dae u'll get ur retribution de. and pls st0p ur lies. ii n0es all e truth liiao, u tink u r great?. i ask u , u gt stead wif tat hu anot. u sae dun hab, is she treat u lyk her bf, but u din treat her gf?. & u scold mii 4 askin all tis. & wanted t0 n0es her, u c0r & scolded miie too. y?. u afraid i go mkes frens wiid her & n0es tat u'r lyin is it?. andd tat elaine, ii add her in frlendster os0 can't marhs?. dunch ii hab e rights t0 make frens?. y u care so muchh. nvm. u'll get ur retributions de. iim waiting, waiting 4 e dae wher u'r all al0ne. wher n0b0dys care 4 u. ii wans t0 c e pathetic u!.

aft tis incident ii realised al0t 0f tings. dere'r actualli al0t 0f ppl cares ferr miie. ii wans thanks ST & her frens for consolin miie in msn, ii've wake up le!. ii n0es wadd t0 d0 le. & thanks ELAINE jiie too. thanks ferr being dere ferr miie too, ii'll try to 4get everting de. iim tryin, believe mii ya. & th0se frens hu've been consolin miie too. sorrys to cause all of u to worrys, iim fine. sorrys susanna nu er, marmiie nv updates u on wad has happens. ii n0es u gt ask miie b0ut it, it's a l0ngg storii. guess u shld understand wad've happens aft readin tis post bahs. iif ii've time ii'll updates u b0utt it!. sorrys ya. iim believe ii'll 4get b0utt tiis incident soon de.

*TO jiie : sorrys elaine jiie, din peii u go outt eat dinner todae. mom dunch all0ws, h0pe tat u f0und some1 t0 accs u bahs. wen u free, u msg miie bahs. we mit up, alriites?. u take cares of urself arrs.

repliis of TAGS!. sorrys din hab time to repliis tags at all.

29 Sep 06, 15:20
qiing: dun wei le yi ge ren & spoilt ur life. live happier lah.. haha u still gt lots of fren concern for u de.. forget bout tat blar blar bah

xueli*: qing ; dunch worii, ii'll 4get all b0utt it de. ii'll live hapily de. ii n0es u care ya. thanks ferr being dere ferr miie. thanks.

4 Oct 06, 00:26
a gal hu cares too*: guess u r the one hu wanna ask mi qn b4 right.. i'm here to tell u something gal.. u r onli 16 yrs old... way long b4 u to go.. for wad thinking abt wil.. he dun worth it i can tell u.. i noe him for yrs le.. yet i still dun understand him at all... he just wanna play w u onli.. having someone to acc when he need 1.. u realise tt much faster than mi.. u r not stupid kayz... he dun deserve anythin. from u.. so dun bother to care abt him.. live ur own life.. u r a nice ger.. get on w ur life n be w ur frenz.. tts wad u need to do.. n stdy hard for ur n lvl... n 1 last thing.. after wad u feel for him.. n after wad he had done for u (i guess none..).. just throw him behind u... coz there r no room for frenship or wadever.. its onli a short sad memories... jiayou... n be a happy ger again~~...

xueli* -> e gal hu cares too* : ii n0es hu u le. shu ting marhs. wow, a l0ng tags u gave miie. dunch worrys, ii've straightened out le. ii'll 4get everiting & continues wiif my life de. ii'll b happis agns. thanks fer consolin miie tat dae. take cares.

4 Oct 06, 23:04
a person hu cares;: though u might be sad now, however as time goes by, u'll knw this is the correct choice. to get over him and carry on wif ur live. u still have alot to go since u're 16yrs old. trust me. he's jerk. (=
work hard for ur N*level.. nt for others but truly for urself. nothing worths more than education. (=

xueli* -> e person hu cares : ya. ii n0es. ii'll carry on wiif my own life de. thanks ferr all e consoling.

5 Oct 06, 20:20susanna: cheer up!! dun bcox of tat person spoilt euurx own mood...liveLIFEtoEfullest..b happiex..study hardd ferr euurx n lvl okiiex?? jia yous worx!!! =)

xueli* -> susanna nu er : yesh. marmiie will cheer up de. sorrys din updates u on wadd happens. gt time den update u bahs.

REPLIIS of tags d0ne!.

ii change my friendster profile songs. free do visit. so long din updates blog le. hab l0tsa tings to sae. sorrys ferr e l0ng posts. alrites, shall end here le. it's late.

* i'll try to 4get all e unhappiness de. live life t0 e fullest. takkaiire everii0ne!.
nltes all.

XUELI is bac t0 bloggin agns !.

sorii have nt been updatlng ferr daes. been busii wiif n lvls. exams & exams & EXAMS!. goin crazii , cans?.

Monday
*English paper 1 &2
*combined humanities
Tuesday
*Maths paper 1
wednesday
*combined science

ii reali dunch hab confidence in passin all e papers lors. nvm, wadd has been d0ne cnt b und0ne. ii alreadi did my best le, riites??.

MY HEART IS DEAD!.



it has been a while since ii last p0sted. ii g0t n0 mood t0 blog. ii dun0s wadd ii've done is it worth it wen u dunch even care, dunch even b0ther. ii n0es im stupid larhs. but lyk wadd chien juen say to miie. `` LOVE is BLIND `` . wen ii n0es tat s0mebody is nt worth miie to like & im still likin him , dunch u tink im stupid marhs?. dere's n0 turnin point ferr miie le. hu ask miie fallen for a bad guy, ii nv regret. h0nestly , ii v.disappointed in u. s0me 0f tings eu n0 nd t0 sae, ii oso n0es. ii will pretend tatt ii dun0s anithin de. my heart is alreadi dead. ii misses u damns l0ads, u n0es?. u r nt bad person at all. ii believe u will change de. change , ha0 marhs?. ii n0es u won't change ferr e sake of miie, butt for e sake for urself. cans?. tat's all ii wanted.

tml is my n lvls le. ii tlnk eu've 4gotten boutt it le bahs. t0t u were reali cum down ytd & teach miie. BUT in e end u still nerber. nvm, suan le. ii cans studii on my own de. ii pr0mise u le, ii will studi hard de. i n0es u won't care b0utt miie le. i gt nth t0 sae animore.

all my frens, dunch worii b0utt miie le. iim FINE. ii will studii hard ferr my n lvls de. FOR e sake of myself & u all. takkaiire every0ne!. <3>

wen u were out havin FUN ,d0 u n0es tatt iim actualli cryin all alones??. eu never kn0w it.