hey hey guys, Yours truly finally have the time to bloq again. ((:

REPLIES of tags ;

[Hui min]: Hehe... I saw my name! Referin miie mahhh?? Hahaha... Hw was sch???

yes girl, im refering to you. must be feeling honoured right? haha. sch was pretty alright for me but lessons were boring! im having fun with my new classmates too. how bout you? everything fine?

[CoNg™]: huh? dun hav my name?????????OMG....**SobSob**

oops! im so so sorry. i forgotten bout you. dun sad dun sad. i'll put ur name there luhs. hees. smiles! (:

[catherine]: hi.althought im nt by ur side,plz know that im tinking of u.okie?take care.

hey girl(: glad to hear that u'r thinking bout me. shys* do take care of urself too, alrights? meet up soon, i misses u!

[HUIZHEN]: let go watch the hottie & nottie tgt bah. =)

u also wanna watch? wen r u free to catch this show with me? (:

theory lessons in school sucks big time! i hate it when the lecturer is whining for hrs going v.fast when he don't even bother if we understands or not. arghh, damn it.

well, on wed, our school bought us to kallang for Caged soccer LOL.

i snap shots sme pics of my classmates playing.

pardon me for the unclear pics (:

the guys in my class is simply HOT when u look at them playing soccer! *roll eyes* all the girls in our class including me didn't intend to participate in the game. but.. BUT.. we were forced to play luhs. but afterall, we had fun! (:

i'm looking forward to the dragon boat programme at changi recreation club in May i supposed.

that day i walked past a shop, and this two hello kitty phones caught my attention! wah laos, damns damns CUTE lo!

anybody is willing to buy for me??? grins* haha!

yesterday while i was at boon lay interchange, i met yulinq, peiyu, puiying & singyi there. we exchange some short conversations with each other. glad to hear that they'r all doing fine in school.

seriously, im missing secondary school peeps.

especially catherine, yulinq, euniceyeo, seetheng ... whom i hardly can get the chance to see them around. girls, do meet up soon alrights? u people are always on my mind. <3

i really do miss the times where i will go to school late with my khakis, staying back to do detention for being late. Pon school toqether when we feel like not goin to school. rebel, talk back to teachers. rushing our art coursework at the very very last minutes together and cry, laugh together.

thouqh there'r many many bad memories in sec school, but there'r also good memories which is unforgetable. .

though im in ITE now but it can't compared with the life in sec schools.

but.. im gonna tell myself i'll enjoy every single day in ITE with my new class mates.

alright, bye bye people. ((:

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sup people(:
time passes really fast and today is already my 7th day in school.
im doinq fine, don't worry. hees.

well, today's lessons supposed to end at 33opm but it ended at 130.
hell early right? also have no idea why the lecturer released us so early.
perhaps he's too tired to carry with the lessons? haha. crap. =x

i suggest to go west mall to walk ard as it was still early and i didn't wish to head for hme yet.
so me, yanbing and terence headed to westmall.
we didn't planned to catch a movie, but eng wah cinema was havin a promotions.
student price was only 6bucks during wkdays.
f.cheap huh?

caught the movie "Street kings".




Cast: Keanu Reeves, Forest Whitaker, Chris Evans
i rate it 5/10.
the three of us find it boring.
the storyline was bad.
i almost fall asleep half-way through. =x




i wanna watch " the hottie and the nottie ".
anyone anyone??
just now, while walking ard westmall.
yanbing & me bought this cute lil mirror.


mirror is something a girl can't live without with.


and that day while shopping, i bought this rubbish bin to put in my room.









you might think that im acting cute, or im childish.
but but but.. who cares?
i fancy cute lil stuff. and im loving it.


pardon me for this boring post.
bear with it, im ending soon.
gonna hit the blankets soon.
tml gonna reach sch at 8am! sians ah.

school is bringing us to kallang to play soccer. LOL!
hopefully i'll have fun & hope to see shuai ge too.
haas, im insane.


alrights, Yours Truly need to go lala land le.
nights people(:

i'm sorry, i know my attitude towards you sucks at times.
yet you didn't say anything about it, but tolerate it.
you said u don't understand me.
don't understand myself too.
i don't know what i really want for now.
i'm so afraid i might hurt you in the end.


i really appreaciate the care u gave me. <3

I'M BACK!

hellos humans, i've finally found the time for bloggin!

before i start, i wanna thanks the below lovable peeps who stood up for me.Huizhi, Huili, Humin, Huizhen, Xinyi, Eilly.i love you people many many (:

thanks for lettinq me know there'r people who is there for me wen im in trouble.
spammer, im glad u stop ur childish act.dun try to spam again, b'cus till e end u'r still e loser.for those who'r curious to read the whole conversation.read it @http://www3.cbox.ws/box/index.php?boxid=2765952&boxtag=2610&sec=archive&i=392

im gonna delete e conversation soon.

alright enough bout e tagboard thingy.

well, its been a busy wk for me.school school school & SCHOOL!
wakinq up early in the morning is definitely a torture to me!

and im so so so not used to it!

i've been tryin to drag my ass off my bed eversince sch starts.

and hopin i could slp awhile lonqer. roll eyes*

school is still pretty alriqht.

but it can get kinda of bored at the same time too.

i've pretty long breaks in between and its really bored luhs.

b'cus outside bb ite are all coffeeshops & HDB flat.

westmall is still couple of miles away.

there's nothinq we could really do to kill our time.

build some shopping mall nearby pls(: grins*

well, most of the leftover time, im havin chit-chattinq session with my new friends cum classmates.

i should think of the positive side instead.

chit-chatting can bring each other closer & get to know each 0ther well. ((:

seriously, i don't need many new friends, one or two im already v.satisfied.

before i continued, i've some cam-whorinq pics 0f myself to upload.

FOR HEAVEN SAKE, PLEASE DON'T CONTINUED SCROLLING DOWN IF U HATE ME OR HAVE ANY COMMENTS ABOUT ME.

I SUGGEST YOU TO CLOSE THIS WINDOW & LEAVE.
THANKS!

i jus have the urge to camwhored, excused me for that. heh (:

Ben ben (:

well, meet up with ben ben at buqis today .

i think i got the wrong pic.

his current look !

BOTAK!!

a big difference? don't you people agree?

duno why he go cut botak.

with hair nicer lo. OOPS! =x

think he's gonna kill if he see this , hors?

hope he won't see it la. hiak hiak(:

wish ur hair faster grow back ba.

before he accompany do shopping.

i acc him go pray pray first.

then went to get huili buddy's birthday presents too.

people, my buddy's birthday is this cominq MONDAY!

must rmb ah. LOLS!

went into KFC, i didn't wanted to eat.but ben ben insist me to eat if not he won't eat also, then i bo bian eat lo. -.-

aft that, we went separate ways.

he went to sembawanq to look for his friends, i wanted to mit up with my xinyi girlfriend but everythin was still not confirmed so i went home to have dinner then headed to huizhi buddy hse.

do some catching up with her.

we always have many many things to chat luhs!

nvm, meet you up next wk for chattings again ba.

to my XINYIgirlfriend:

i misses you many many wors.

hope to meet up with you real soon.

i knows i always have no time to do some catching up with you,

but but but.. you'r always missed by me.

in the meantime do take care 0f urself ya.

love you girl(:

wow, its already gg to 2am in the morning le.

i need to get some beauty sleep soon.

good nights people. (:

i know yr feelinqs towards me.

but pls give me sometime.

i need time to trust guys again.

i know u think that im doubtinq ur feelings towards me.

but.. please put urself in my shoes.

let me gain back the confidence in guys first, i don't wish to get hurt again.

i know u'r good to me, but i don't wish to hurt you.

hope you understand.

Dear readers,
i'll be back for blogging real soon!
do bear with it.
cause im real real busy.

thanks for visiting! ((:

TAGBOARD SPAMMER !

firstly, i have something to clarify regarding my tagboard spam.

someone has been using my name and blog url, going around other people's tagboard to give negative comments. so if you happen to be one of the victim, i would advise you to double confirm the spammer's IP address with mine. i dont wish to be accused of something which i didnt do.

dear spammer, i would suggest that you should stop your silly act once and for all. you can go around using my name and url to post rude comments but my IP address will be able to prove that im innocent. of course, you can still continue your childish nonsense as you wish because im able to delete your tags and ban you from my tagboard.

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School today (:

well, first day of school today? erm, alrights?
no comments actually.
meet up with huili buddy went to bus stop to wait for bus but went separate ways aft that.
i reached school kinda of early.
was bored while waiting cus im all ALONE, not familiar with the environment there.
and i was damns nervous too!

luckily, i still managed to make a friend there.
cus my class are almost guys.
girls are really pathetic few of us.

this new girl i make friend with is called yan bing.
we could really click well even though is only the first day we get to know each other.
well, im gonna stick with her and ONLY her from tml onwards. ROARS!

everything ends damns early today for me.
ard 12 we can leave already.
then me & yan binq went to get sch uni stuffs & all.
oh man, tml i gonna wear sch uni to sch le. ((:

aft sch, went to Dover ite to look for buddy.
waited for her till 1plus for her breaktime.
accompany her till 2 b4 she continue wif e orientation, she seems bored there. sighs.
must endure girl!

im having lessons tml at 9pm.
gonna hit the blankets soon.
i wonder hw's all the others doing?
hope everyone is doing fine ya.



don't view my blog, if you hate me.

im back ((:

oh well well well.
if you people have notice.
"someone" is trying to catch attention in my blog.
and she is happily advertising her blog here at the same time.
oh my, look how thick skinned can she be.
nobody ask for her identity, but she just leave her blog link there and expecting us to visit her blog & tag.

so people, if you'r free do visit her blog and leave some "shits" there for her too.
she is bored i guess.
so people, if u'r bored visit her blog and she will be v.happy to entertain u.
tsk tsk.

school is starting tml for me & all the others as well.
so im gonna hit my blankets soon.
im sooooo nervous about tml.

well, i've no time to entertain her shit for now.
but don't worry, i will be bac soon to entertain her & blog. i promise!

thanks those beloved for ur tags.
& that "SOMEONE", happy tagging ya.

bye uncivilised low class bitch. ((:

"im super uber sad."
i really need a shoulder. anyone, anyone???!! hais.

well, ytd i met up wif huili buddy.
went dwn to Dover ite, wanted to get sch uni & also ask them bout my result thingy.
and everything mkes me damns "HOT" luhs.

i wanted to see the section head & talk to them bout my case.
but.. the person-in-charge there said that e section head is not around.
ok, nvm bout that.
i ask them for the section head contacts as i wanna contact them personally.
when i was in the bus, i tried to call the section head.
AND.. the section head picked up the call.
wtf? they told me she's not in?
but she was in actually? nb.

then i told her i was there jus now & wanted to see her.
i requested to see her the next day instead.
quess what she say?
she say her schedule tml is FULLY PACKED.
listen well, she say FULLY PACKED.
and she ask me to go bac now to see her & she's only giving me half an hr to travel bac.
WTF lo.
i'm already half way heading to another destination & she expect me to go bac?
imagine how HOT was i at tat time.
i can wait for her but she cannot wait for me?
and she say her schedule the next day is fully packed?
don't tell her schedule is packed till she can't even spare time for toilet break & lunch break lo.
& meeting me is jus gonna be 5mins or so.
she can't even spare me the time?
_|_ you seriously


then today, i went down personally again with the companion of catherine.
cause i don't believe she isn't free to see me.
& i waited for her for fuckin 1hr.
see how sincere i am?
end up what i got was jus DISAPPOINTMENT.
she say i've already got myself a course, why i still wanna snatch e places with those who don't even have a course yet?
OH HELLO. there are still vacancy for god sake.
since i'm so keen to study for it of cus i must be fast and snatch it wif others la.
nvm, she die die oso dun wans let me in.
then i went to see the other section head which is under e same department.
this time is a "HE".
he is friendly & polite compared to the "SHE".
he also don't want let me in, he ask me to speak to the bukit batok section head.
see if he allowed me to go.

so i went to take a cab and rush down to bukit batok campus.
it was not easy to get a cab and when i finally got a cab.
the taxi driver pissed me off when i already in a bad mood liao.
this is the conversation. (roughly)

me:uncle, bukit batok ite.
taxi uncle:orh, okok.
(aft 5 mins of driving)
taxi uncle:eh, turn this way right? u all know the road to get there hor?
(i was damns fucking pissed off when he ask us this question, if we know how to go, we still take cab for wad?)
me:i don't know la. should be la.

and.. in the end he told us he don't know how to go bb ite!!??
nabei. u'r a taxi driver and u duno how to go there?
_|_ u!
i wanted to scold him off but i control myself.
cus he's already v.old.
cat oso wanted to scold him but she also bear with it.
cat ask him to drive us to bukit batok mrt station.
guess wad?
he drove us to bukit gombak instead. -.-
when we told him he gone to the wrong station, he still argue with us saying is the right one.
WAH LAOS. BUKIT BATOK & BUKIT GOMBAK SAME ISIT???!!

and still expect me to pay the taxi fare?
i didn't wanted to pay him de lo.
but i PITY him luhs that's y.
we took another cab, and finally reached. -.-

had a long chat with the section head.
in the end, he still wants me to stay there.
hais. hais. hais.
imagine hw disappointed i am.
it seems like i'm not fated to be with the same sch as huili.
i really wanted to burst out cryin that time.
but luckily i've catherine by my side.
she sayang me and asking me to cheer up.

well girl, really wanna thank you for today.
despite being tired,but u still accompany me travalled here and there.
i really don't know what to say.
i really feel so touched.
thanks for everything. loves you luhs. <3

oh well, bac to the topic.
out with buddy ytd.
& went cam-whoring with her again.













muacks huili buddy ((:

girl, though we can't be in the same sch.
but i guess there'r still ways we could meet up smehow before sch or aft sch.
im really damns upset over this 0utcome. sighs.
can't imagine we gonna walk separate ways to sch.
i hate it, simply hate it! sighs.
tke care & love ya girl. (:

sorry readers for this long & wordy post.
im gonna end soon.



xueli says " i need a big warm huq now "

i really hate myself.
why am still thinking & missing you?
why am i still cryin every night cus of you?
i should be hating you instead.
im still hoping one day u'll ring me up.
really. that's what i'm always having on my mind nowadays.
whenver i walked on the streets, i will keep looking at all the cars.
lookin at the drivers, hoping that one of them might be "you"

conclusion: i still can't forget you(lewis).

bye readers ((:

morning breakfast with huili buddy is teh ♥ ((:

supposed to meet each 0ther at 9am for breakfast.
i set alarm to wake up at 8, but i couldn't get up by e time e alarm rang.
i was still lazinq on my bed.
was wanting to msq buddy to post pone the time, but she msq me to change to meeting at 10 instead. LOL!
don't know why e both of us is soooo TIRED luhs! hiak**

then i slept till 930 & finally drag myself off e bed.

aft breakfast, both of us went walking ard jp.
i've e urge to buy hair dye.
then buddy's temptation to dye hair came due to me. hohoho~
went over to her hse, helped each 0ther dye hair. awww~

aft which, we had some heart to heart chats again.
chattinq bout sch stuff & all.
sighs, i really hope i could get into the same sch as buddy luhs.
hais. hais. hais.
buddy hopes that i'll get in too.
i'm used to travellinq & going home with buddy luhs!
sighs. sighs. sighs!

alriqhts, that's all for the today.

may god bless! (:

FUCK YOU, BITCH.

i asked myself, "am i alright?"
seriously, i'm not alriqht at all.
im not strong as you people i am.
I'M NOT!
i'm v.fragile like everyone else.

why is my life always so complicated.
why is it always in a mess?
i just want a simple & peaceful life.
why can't god jus grant me with it?
i don't think i'm asking too much. am i?

i need a shoulder to lean on.
i just want a simple guy who really understands & care for me.
a guy who will be there for me to lean on wenever i needed him to be.

BUT WHY am i always meeting guys who jus make my heart bleeds all e time?
why am i always the one who's serious only?
i really hate it whenever i wants to own something, i can only own it for a short term only.

everyone needs someone to care & dote on.
who doesn't? sighs.
i'm tired of lovinq.
lovinq someone is really tiring.

sometimes i really envy girls who've good guys by their side caring & dote on them.
whereas im always havinq guys who always broke my heart & left.
nevermind, perhaps this is my life.



oh well, i went sentosa ytd with my girls, catherine & yulinq.
let the pictures do the talking first.











yulinq initiate to go sentosa , so i promised her to go with her.
was supposed to meet them at 1045 but as usual im late.
sorry girls.
i jus couldn't kick this habit of mine.

yulinq wasn't feelin well, she almost fainted luhs.
that girl really made us so worried man. sighs.
i was in a v.down mood as everyone knows.
i went emo suddenly ytd.
sorry girls if i spoil ur days.

i really don't wish to b a emo baby but i really can't help.
thinqs jus came crashing on me i really can't handle it.
but thank god, i've u people by my side.
i really did wanted to cry ytd, but i still managed to hold bac my tears.

aft leaving sentosa, we went to The Central.
cus cat wanted to help her sis buy stuffs, so we went.
The central was really f.borinq & quiet even though is a sunday?
no crowds, no nothing.
even e resturant was killing housefly luhs. pathetic. -.-

well, we girls ytd really have some heart to heart talks agns.
i really enjoy e whole day spent wif them luhs.
before we parted, cat say something to me which really mkes me feel like tearing.
she say she really wanted to cry, she really hate e feelin of parting with us.
sch is starting, & we really don't know wen we will have time for each other agns.
yes, i feel e same way as her too.

when sch starts, everyone will have his/her own life.
everyone will b busy with their own stuff.
i hate it! i'm not looking forward to my new sch life!
seriously NO!
unless is with my own friends!

girls, don't forget we promise each other we will meet up every wkends alriqhts?
i really will miss u girls damns badly.
hais. life is really damns fucking boring.

this few night, i couldn't really sleep.
i slept & wake up several times.
seriously, i'm still thinking about YOU.
i'm still not used without u.
but there's no point thinkin about you already.
u'r just a bastard aft all. i hate u.

people, date me out if u wans.
cus sch is starting soon.
called up eunice yeo las nite, she starts sch today already.
oh my, so fast.
take care girl, hope to see u ard soon.



Xueli says "kiss me before i say goodbye"

im back again(:

Hellos to that low class bitch.
i bet u must be enjoyin readin my bloq huh?
so how? satisfied with my previous post?
my precious post was specially dedicated to you leii.
you should be feeling honoured lo(: HAHAHA:D

HEY YOU. why you keep assumed(so sure) that the low class bitch im mentioning bout is you?
oh hello, did i wrote ur BIG NAME here & claiming that is you?
oh well, i guess u admit it urself.
well, that's a good sign.
at least, u admitted. HAHA.
i did thought of writing down ur BIG NAME here. but i didn't.
must give u face ma. dun want to embarrased you.
don't force me to write down ur big name here, i tell u.

Please la, what's the use of complaining to him aft every post i posted here?
u think by complaining to him, he'll come & give me a scoldin isit & expecting that i'll delete every thing here?
NO NO, let me tell u, i WON'T!!

what FUCK rights do you have to stop me?
i tell u, u can't stop me from doing anything.
if u'r unhappy with what i'm posting here, i tell u.
AND i dare you, COME & FIND ME AND TALK.
don't be a coward and hide behind ur FUCKING com and complain!

he've already gone back to ur side.
what MORE do you want?
yes, you might think that u've win.
ask urself seriously, have you won it gloriously??
seriously, i don't think you did.
by using those low class tactics? u won?

c'mon, u'r 20 over year old adults.
pls use ur brain & think la.
why want a guy who keep tellin lies? lying about almost everythin?
what can you gain from him seriously?
nvm, maybe he can give you those "satisfaction" u want ba. HOHOHO :D

nvm, is none of my business too.
& one last thing, if u'r uncomfortable bout readin wad i wrote here, then pls
FOR GOD SAKE, DON'T VIEW!
if you wanna read, pls aft readin it, KEEP UR FUCKIN MOUTH SHUT.
if u'r unhappy with it, come & talk to me instead then.
u'r most welcomed.

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alriqht readers,
sorry for the above shit.
pardon me for all the vulgarities.
its only meant for her. (:



well, was out with my precious HUILI bestie ytd.
knowinq that i'm damns emotional, she asked me out.
thanks girl(:

we had lunch at MOS burger.
didn't really have appetite, but i still force myself to finish it.
then we headed to BUGIS first.
shopped ard, we just bought a t-shirt.
its cute luhs. will post up e pic of it the next time.
then we decided to head to town cus it was really bored at bugis.
we've nothing to shop for.

went to look for chia yee, she was working there.
then we went walk walk ard.
find a place to sat down, & have sme serious talk with each other.
i didn't knw that bestie was actually havin sme problems too.
i'm so sorry.
i'm havin problems & thus neglect u too.
and still make you listen to all my shit.
next time if there's anythin bothering u, do tell me ya?
hope everything is fine now.



well bestie, really thanks alot ((:
thanks for being there for me all the time.
thanks for always being there to lend me a listeninq ear.
whenever i have problems, e one i think of was you first.
w/o you, i guess i might have collapsed.

school is starting soon.
i hope i could really get into Dover ite.
though we might nt be in same course, but at least same sch luhs.
i still wanna travel to sch together with you luhs.
may god bless, may god bless!



lastly,
bestie I LOVE YOU luhs! <3

alrights, i guess that's all for tonights.
my bro got new phone. congrats congrats.
nights all((:
bitch, happy reading..

my heart is still bleeding, and bleeding.
who can be there to mend it for me?

THIS IS MY BLOG, I'VE THE RIGHT TO POST ANYTHING I LIKE.
WHO'R U TO STOP ME?
IF U DUN LIKE IT, YOU CAN JUS JOLLY WELL FUCK OFF FROM MY BLOG YOU BITCH.
LISTEN WELL SLUT,IM NOT GONNA DELETE ANYTHING AWAY FROM MY BLOG.

you can delete me away from UR friendster list by all means.
i'm not interested in viewing anyway.
don't dare to let me view right?
having guilty conscience huh?
i bet so.
&for ur info, is he add me into e friend list first.
BUT don't worry, i'm NOT like you, SO KPO & keep coming my blog to view.
what are you trying to find out?
what are you afraid of huh?

Listen well, i'm not gonna delete anything away.
don't forget this is my blog!
not yours!
i want the whole world to know, that i've been with him before.
and that's the FACT!
he can deny it by all means.
and only a fool like you will choose to believe him.
i'm posting facts here in my blog.
what has it got to do with you huh?
i don't think it concerns u anyway.
since u'r so interested in what i'm gonna post, i shall fufil u then.

hey c'mon luhs. u'r a 20 over adults already.
stop acting like sme small little kids.
pls act like a mature adult, for god sake.
only small little kids will make a big fuss out of small little things.

since u wan him bac so much, i've already let go of him & giv it bac to u.
WHAT MORE DO YOU WAN FROM ME?
only you can give him the "satisfaction" he wants.
but i can't. since i can't, then i return him to you lo.
since u feel that he can give u a future, then go ahead lo.
seriously, i don't think he can.
cus i aren't a low class bitch.
i won't use low class tactics to keep people's heart.
only low class bitch does that.

mind you, i've my own limits too.
don't push me too hard.
if you wan, try me.
try ur luck then.

if you'r not happy with me.
come face to face and talk to me.
stop acting like a small kid complaining to him & hoping he could handle all this shits for you.


lastly, _|_ you.

sorry people who'r reading, i know the language i used is too vulgar.
but i've got no choice.
someone is pushing me too far.

Hellos people (: i'm bac aft so many days.
didn't really wanted to blog, feel like lettin my blog to rot instead.
But i needed a place to vent out all my saddness & thoughts.

Love between Lewis & Xueli has ended.

Because of certain reasons we couldn't be together.

this post i'm gonna post is dedicated to you, Lewis.

Though i couldn't bear to let you go, but i know there's nothinq i could do to hold you bac.
you've already make up ur mind, make up a decision.
i know no matter wad i say or do, u will still leave.

The day when you asked me for my heart, i didn't gave you an answer immediately.
because i'm afraid, so afraid that you'll hurt me like wad others did.
until i trusted that you won't hurt me & gave you my heart but i realised that i was wrong b'cus in e end, you still broke my precious heart.
WHY?
why must you leave me wen finally im ready to accept someone & wanted to start a serious relationship with?

when the first time we hugged, i felt so blessed in ur arms.
i feel so fang xin to leave myself to u, but yet im wrong, totally wrong.
you still break my precious heart.
why?
in this relationship of ours, i know we'r bound to meet hell lots of problems.
but im prepared to overcome everything with you.
but why must you gave up half-way?
if that's the case, why started this relationship with me in the first place?
WHY WHY WHY??

many told me u'r not worth my love.
but i didn't listen to them, cus e decision is still mine.
e reasons u gave for e break up was like u gonna leave for hong kong to work soon & u dun knw when will u be coming bac.
u dun wans to waste my time b'cus u gonna leave sooner or later.
but dun you jus cherish the leftover time that we have now?
i've asked u many times not to leave but i know u've already made up ur mind, u will still leave.
this were the reasons u gave, & i respected it.

u promised to buy presents for my birthday, promised to celebrate that day with me de.
& i want you to celebrate my b'dae with me before you leave.
u said we gonna shop for ur new car together & i want to shop for car with you too.
i misses car rides with you.
i always enjoy sitting in ur car, enjoy the times chatting with you in the car.
i'm used to chatting with you at night on the phone before i go to bed.
i'm used to you cracking lame craps with me on the phone.
i was waiting for ur call last night & hoping my phone will rang.
but it didn't happened.
i misses ur care & concern for me.
i really misses u calling me dear on the phone.
i know i'm jus being stupid, cus all this things will never ever happen again.
right?.

though our relationship is short, but i really did put effort into it.
i really 放不下.
i want you & still need you.
will you still be there for me again?
will there still be changes between us?
i know i still can't change you, no matter how much i try to.
you will still be the same.

its raining now, & my heart is raining too.
was hopinq u could send me a msq to ask me to take care like what u use to do.
but the msq i received asking me to take care wasn't u, but someone else.
i'm looking out the window now, crying all alone.
how i wish you are right here by my side now to give me a warm hug.
i know its impossible.
i'm just thinking too much.

thanks for once showered me with your love.
thanks for once lovinq me.
remember if one day u've change ur mind, remember my door will still be opened for you.


iloveyou(:

183club - 感情线

我想我已开始有点疑惑
好像被她说中些什么
难道已经没有别的选择
只能乖乖的束手就策
难过的是我们做了选择
是对是错 谁也没把握
如果要我放手才能获得
为何在我心中又舍不得
看着你要走 还装着笑容
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口 如何挽留
感情这条线 注定只能这么远
不敢相信已经来到昨天
想你爱他必定多一些
我们之间不可能再回到从前
我还傻傻画着幸福线
看着你走远
还继续装笑脸
掩视沉默我能撑多久
如果现在开口 怎么挽留
感情这条线 注定无法延长一点
你已不再而我何时才清醒
相信一切都是命
不曾放弃你 我不会说什么
默默地承受想人的自豪
看着你要走 还装着笑容
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口 如何挽留
感情这条线 注定只能这么远
看着你要走 还装着笑容
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口 如何挽留
感情这条线 注定只能这么远

this songs simply suits my feeling im havinq right now.

leave me alone, i don't need anybody.
jus let me cry to death.

Good bye my love.
you'll always be missed.