UPDATE FOR YTD !.
>>>

went to wiif BELOVED daughter , susanna .
we went to hab our last grab for our new yr clothes .
mit daughter at 2 plus , she board in e train at chinese garden .
& beloved gave miie a hellos kittys watch tat we bought frm hong kong !.
omgg , it's NICE !.
daughter , thanks !.
we went to BUGIS . its was a sunday lahs , as usual . bugis village was loaded wiif loads of ppl .
we took a long time b4 we could get in .
me & daughter bought e same heels , same t-shirt & ii bought a purple strip clothes . blah blah ..
we went to took neo prints too b4 we left .
its been a long long time since ii last took wiif beloved .
aft our dinner , we decided to go far east to look for jolene & frens .
but went we were alreadis scannin our ez - link , waiting for e train .
we found out tat jolene & frens jus reached BUGIS !. arghh !.
nvm, e both of us went far east .
while on our way dere , we saw tis ang - moh , ang - moh lady .
her dressin caught our attention . u n0e she's almost half - NAKED !.
is lyk miie & daughter feels digusted by e way she dress .
we were lyk discussing , she might as well dun wear lahs .
& dere were guys hu walked past , their eyes alm0st POP out lahs . LOLS .
guys r lyk tatt !. ii shld hab taken a pics of tat lady & upload here . wahahahas .
we carry on wiif our shopping dere , found out tat they were loads of tings ii wannas buy !.
ii gotta save money !.
we left far east bout 9 plus or so cus we were both tired alreadiis .

shall ends e post wif fotos .


e watch tat daughter gave miiie .

mummy & daughter . LOVED ^^

heels .



ii cans lived without youu too .

you came & you left .

if time could return , ii would hab ...


isn't tis pig cute ?.
is our klas notice board new yr deco.
done by us !.
we've been spendin time in sch doins it , hope we will win !.

tata ~

iim still missing u badly .

XUELI'S ROTTING!.

iim gonnas rot le lahs.
was at hme e whole dae todae.
& wadd most of e time ii spend todae was wiif e com lahs.
online - ingg & msn - ingg.
ii gt irritated wen ppl t0k to miie & sae : " hellos , nv go out ars?. " OR even " so guaii nv go out mehs? haha"
wads wrong wiif miie stayin at hme & nt goins out?.
ii knows it's a saturday & tat doesn't mean ii've to go out lahs.
nobody DATE miie wad?. arghhh!.
got kinda of pissed off lahs. haiis.

nvm.
ii jus gotta a guy called " lincoln "
he's a nice guy & he looked lyk e campus superstar , ADRIANO !.
iim nt e only hu said tat, his fren oso lyk tat sae.
LOLS.

aniwaes, ii uploaded 10 songs into tis blog.
do enjoy e songs. gonnas end here le.
kinda of moody nw.
dunos hw many many daes nv saw pigg le!!.
sadd lors.

sorrys dearie shengli , can't go celebrate ur b'dae wiif u tml.
hope u enjoy urself ya.

ii've been missing u all e while.
do u noe hw much hab ii suffer all tis while?.
ii've been cryin almost everynite.
u mush hab tink tat im happii nw & livin well , rite?.
ii tell u, iim nt happii at all.
iim havin sleepless nite everiidae.
e smile tat ii've is all FAKED!.
ii keep findin tings to keep myself occupied, in order nt to tink bout it.
do u noe hw torturin is it?.
y can't u jus care for miie nw lyk b4, even iif is a fren oso. can't u jus care marhs?.
am ii realiis nt worth for u to care?.
do u noe ii've tried to 4get, but ii jus can't.
do u noe?. DO U NOE?.
u dunos at all.

" eu've taken miie for granted "

jus read tis at POORFUHUANITES.FORUM5.COM .

Hi all. We've got a letter that's email-ed to STOMP to share!
http://www.stomp.com.sg/

Okay. Here goes nothing:

I am a student currently studying in Fuhua Secondary School. I have tolerated the school’s imbecile, inefficient and impractical way of running the school such that I am reduced to having to share my thoughts here.

Every school is bound to have students violating the school rules. Firstly, it's about the electricity problems in this school. Fuhua Secondary turns off the toilet lights 24/7 just to save electricity bills, but who doesn’t know that air-conditioning consumes the most electricity? Are we trying to save that little bit of electricity just for the luxury of some, but yet the necessity of many? I find this case ridiculous as we can't possibly see even in the afternoon. The whole toilet will be left very dark and only when important guests step into Fuhua, will they then turn on the lights. So what kind of show is the school putting up in front of others? Isn’t it indirectly inculcating negative values in the students?

The next thing is about grooming. Last Monday (29/01/07), when the school checked for the girls’ grooming, the teachers caught some students with fringes over their eyebrows. However, what was unexpected was that the girls were sent to the principal office and had their hair cut by the principal leaving them with straight ugly fringes. The principal should instead give a one-day grace or at least a warning before doing so, and not making the girls cry like a river in the toilets (which has no lights!). This will make them unable to concentrate on their lessons for the day. If they want to continue with their disciplinary actions this way, Fuhua students would not be convinced by the school as this is an act of public humiliation to the victims. There were students with their fringes pinned up, however some teachers caught them… According to our handbook; School Rules for Pupils (2007), Page 9, Part 5.4: Girls should pin up fringes covering their eyebrows and tie up the hair covering the shoulders. Long hair must be plaited and black hair accessories may be used. So, are we also being punished for doing the right thing?
This made me think that Fuhua has a number of contradicting teachers, as I have also encountered such problems in the past.

Thirdly, another case I found ridiculous is that Fuhua actually reprimanded the pupils for wearing jackets in the school compound. My friends were being told off by the discipline master for wearing jackets during these days. As we all know, we are still experiencing the monsoon season. They told us that the jacket is not part of Fuhua's attire and we should not be wearing one even if it's a rainy/cold day. We are to report to the office if we are sick and our parents would be phoned to acknowledge that we’re not feeling well. Only then, we’re allowed to wear our jackets. But Fuhua didn't even design a jacket for us and expect us to wear only our uniforms even if we are cold. So who is to blame for not having a school jacket? The weather is really heartless these days, aren’t the teachers being heartless too?

Lastly, students were caught and asked to remove their non skin-coloured undergarments and wait till their parents come with a white/skin-coloured undergarment for them. I’d like to note that there isn’t any restriction for females under 16 to be banned from coloured-bras, so should we blame the manufacturer for the rainbow range of colors available? I don't see the reason why girls have to take their undergarments off with boys inside the school. If the school is worried that the guys will have nasty thoughts about girls wearing coloured-bras, being totally exposed right in front of them isn’t that more absurd? The disciplinary actions of Fuhua are causing the students to lose their self-esteem (Particularly girls). This is not the first time that I have read on articles regarding coloured-bras, and I feel it should be dealt with. If the school thinks that by stripping someone’s esteem will wake the student up, I’m sorry. This ‘traditional method’ has to be given up as the modern day society doesn’t practice this anymore. We believe in reasoning things out rather than solving things under an iron-fist method.

The school should give an explanation to the students. Hopefully, this saga ends benefiting both the school and the students making it a better learning condition.

Thanks for your attention.

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ii agreeds wiif wadd e person has wrote.
tiis sch is simply SUCKS!.
& e principal MDM OEN is MANIC!.

HELLOS : D
UPDATES !.

SATURDAY o3.o2.o7
>>>

mit upp wiif baobeiis see theng at jp at 2pm.
BUT she was late!. HEH HEH ;
first time iim punctual larhs. claps **
den we headed t0 BUGIS.
went to I.P zone , miie & see theng bought tiis pinkish jacket .


which cost us 26 bucks.

ii wanted t0 buy e black one, butt iim in love wif e pink one wen ii first saw it.
see theng wanted to find a place to sit down & we saw tis " BUGIS TEENAGE CAFE "
den we went in f0rr a bite. e tings dere is cheap even though is a cafe.
& it suits teenagers lyk us.
we ordered e blueberry muffin , it's nice.


yummy !

cans go try it dere.
we headed to BUGIS village aft tat.
as usual lahs, its crowded wiif many MANY MANYY ppl!.
we shopped dere till ard 8 plus & finalliis bought clothes tat we wanted.
went t0 haf our dinner jiu went hme.
we wanted to tke neo prints 2gether cus its been awhile since we last took.
but we were both shagg le.

SUNDAY o4.o2.o7

went outt wiif mummy for shoppingg.
ii go buy clothes agns.
& mummy bought tis handbag forr miie.



ii oso bought a BELT.
mummy bought herself a handbag too.
lalalas !.
MUMMY is e BEST! iiLOVEher ;D

97 days of waiting .


note : to tat person hu keep comin to my tagboard to tagg . pls jus FUCK off !.
pls stop usin my name to FAKE lahs. u tis idiot FAKER!.
iif u wans pls use ur own name, STOP being childish.
ii dun nd ur words!.

TO TAT PERSON HU TAG MY BLOG JUS NW !.

pls larhs. STOP ur stupid acts!.
iif u wannas tag my blog, use ur name. dun b so HUMJI cans?.
& tis is my blog, dun lyk it? pls jolly well, FUCK off!.
so childish!.

shengli , thanks !. (:

angriis *

my babyy bear which accs miie to slp




UPDATES !.

went to LITTLE INDIA wiif shengli today , her fren audrey was alongg wiif us too.
miit her at china town first at ard 3 plus , she was LATE !. arghh. butt, nvm.
shengli b0ught e sony ericsoon Z610i.
arghh, so gd. she gt new fone le.
mayb ii will b buyin tat fone too.
alriite, china t0wn today was cr0wded wiif l0ts 0f ppl.
perhaps ppl r busii buyin new yr stuff. HOHO.
CNY is comingg & i haven even boughtt my new yrs stuff.
went to little india temple to tke fotos for my art w0rk.
& ii went to did tis my hand too.


this cost miie 5 bucks.
niice?.

aft tkin fotos all tat stuff , is alreadiis boutt 5 plus.
we decided to went IMM.
had our dinner at long john.
shop shop awhile jiu went hme le.
im tired.
i wanted to rest, but wenever ii close my eyes i'll tink of him.
e image of him will appeared.
sighs *

it's friday already. time passes so fast.

sch sucks totally !.
well, today sch ends at 1230.
aft sch, mit up wiif my BELOVED daughter, susanna to vivo city to buy a bag tat she wans. winnie was along wiif us too.
we went to je entertainment, went to KFC for our lunch.
we chat b0ut l0ts of tings, it's been awhile since ii've get t0 chat wiif my beloved daughter.
den aft lunch jiu headed to vivo, ii noes it looks stupid wearin sch uniform go vivo larhs.
but if go hme to ger ourselves changed, its kinda of waste of time.
& i'll lazii to get out of e hse aft tatt. LOLS!.
we shop e whole vivo larhs & e tings is ex cans?.
den nu er went in to adidas to get her tat she wanted.
& eu n0es hw much tat bag cost?. of cus, it's nt cheap larhs.
e adidas bag cost her 75 bucks. omgg.
see?. hw rich my daughter is. wahahas.
nvm, she happii jiu hao larhs.
alot of ppl came to approached us to ask us wher to get to tis place or wadeva de larhs.
do we look lyk a s'pore map?. arghh.

phew. iim gettin v.fuck upp wiif sch work larhs.
damns stressed cans?.
& common test gettin nearer too. FAINT!!.
& iim lyk still slackin larhs. (arbishh*)
haiis. im missing pigg agns.
ii n0es ii shouldn't, feel lyk callin him.
wonder wadd he's doin lors. sighhs*
shld ii call??.

aniiways, ii changed my blog songs.
pls giif miie all ur comments.
so c'mon, move ur butt to my tagboard :D

iim lyk been thr0wn aside agns .
eu dun b0ther b0utt miie aniim0re .
criies .

"im nt happii at all" .

Words to y0uu ..



Don't stop miie from l0ving y0uu , pls.

cus iim reallys crazzy over y0uu .

y0uu are e one tatt ii wanted .

ONLY y0uu cans mkes miie go crazzy .

ii believe in endless waiting .

& time will proves everitingg .






XUELI is so zii liian !. lalas ~
aniwae, being zii lian is nt a crime .

well, todae finaally cans rest at hme.
superteens course finally over!.
din realli peii mummy for e past 3 daes, so peii mummy for dinner today.
went to shop sh0p first .
mummy b0ught bras sets & new bedsheet for miie !.
& she even help miie pay my fones bills .
mummy is still so gd to miie , cans ?.
& ii so so LOVE her !. thanks mummy :D


new bedsheet for tonite .



isn't tis little gal cute ?. haas .

talk bout my tagboard ting .
somebody wiif e name of " DAMN " tagged miie wiif tis ..

15 Jan 07, 10:41
DAMN: DONT ACBC WITH SL LA!****!THINK U ALL VERY LIAN MEH?ALBL.GOT PEOPLE HELP,BIG AH?GOT JI THEN ONE TO ONE!
DAMN: think u wad?JUST A PILE OF ****!@#@$%&^*@#$&#:
DAMN: **** THE WALL LA!CB

see?. dun eu all feels tat tis person is so so so CHILDISh?.
aniways ii n0es hu tis person is lahs.
she's simply jus so brainless, tink tat miie & sl is stupid de lahs.
tinks tat we won't find out is her lahs.
alreadiis 16 + goins seventeen liiaos. but hors, e behaviour she does is lyk onliis a six yrs old small little gal larhs. so CHILDISH.
heys, iif y0uu dare jiu one on one lors. iif eu reallis dare pls come.
dun jus say onliis, pls jus do it.
& gt anithin bu shuang wiif miie , come face to face & sae it to miie.
aniways, thanks th0se frens hu come & scold her bac oso.
she's so hum ji larhs, she nv tag bac lors. HAHA.
ii tinks ii knws y, heard ppl says she've n0 c0m at hme. pathetic riites?.
& ii f0und 0ut smethin, she DELETED her blog aways.
mayb she afraid us go tag hers. so IDIOT lahs.
nvm, enoughh 0f her.

" as long as y0uu'r happii jiu ha0 le , ii dun mindd sufferingg . ii n0es y0uu can't d0 wadd ii've said t0 ytds la . ii n0es is impossible . feels so sad wen u dunch hab anii reactions b0ut it wen ii sendd eu tat msgs . haiis, suan le larhs . u happiis jiu ha0 lahs . dun care b0utt miie . time will pr0ves evertingg "

iim so damns damns miisses pigs voice larhs !!.
misses e times wen ii alwaes t0k t0 him late in e nite .
sighhs *

jus login to my friendster private acc jus nw .
it's been a wk since ii last login .
ii found out darling liying wrote miie tis testimonial .

liying darling says :

yo darlin..

hmm dun b sad bout de matter le k

all ur frenz will b by ur side de

i jus wan 2 tell u follow ur heart

and continue 2 wait..

one day he will realise u r de best de

if u give up nw..then reali no hope le

jia you darlin

muackx

loves

sister 4ever

so touched by wad she wrote :D

li ying darling , thanks !. iiLOVEyou too . muacks .

alrite , was kinda of pissed off jus nw .
iim still angriis wiif kelvin kor kor larhs .
alreadis sae hao today mit upp de larhs , den last min ..
he MIA !.
ii couldn't findd him . shit him .
i hate ppl lyk tis , iif can't mke it or wad jus sae la .
is it v.difficult ?. sighs *

hellos :D
shall update tings bout ytd ba.
aft sch hang out wif siiao char bo shengli, baobeiis catherine & kailing.
accompany catherine go hme to get her bank bk, cus she wanna withdrawn money.
kailing went hme too, we mit her lata at jp.
we headed to jp , went to long john silver for our lunch.
before tat me & shengli b0ught e same pinkish water bottle at precious moments.
ii love e bottle, its CUTE!.
chit - chat awhile den went to library to do our art reseacrh.
ii was so tired , havin headache too.
dun even hab e mood to find bks lors.
didn't managed to borrow ani bks, so we went off.
we were all shagg le.
ii went e other way while they headed to e bus stop.
hp l0w batt, went hme to charge.
ii gave pigg a call cus ii rmb he sayin will call miie bac, but my hp low batt le.
den, he told miie he saw miie walkin hme wen he was on e bus!
omgg!.
so paii sehs, cans?.
den he keep suan miie bout my sch uniform agns. wth lahs.
sadd lors!. humphhs!.
den aft tat , kelvin kor kor called miie too.
chat wiif him & he suan miie oso. wth.
on e same dae, kena suan by e ppl.
suay riite?.

ok. todae. nth much.
lessons as usual, so stress upp wiif maths lahs.
dislikes e chapter im doins nw.
aft sch went hme straight wiif shengli & kailing.
pigg ring miie up while ii was in e bus till ii reached hme larhs.
were engrossed in sme topics lahs, he mke miie feelin so paii sehs , cans?.
it's been a long time since ii cans chat wiif him on e fone for so long le.
haiis.

endin here /=

arghh, was pissed off with some things jus nw.
shan't talk bout it. onlis my beloved susanna n0es b0utt it.
ii dislikes last mins notice!.

today is e second day of e wk.
lessons as usual.
im still so shag lahs.
shengli pangsehs miie todae. w/o her entertaining, im so bored lahs.
haha.
alrite, today havin art lessons. was told to tink of a theme for coursewk le.
ii've no ideas of wad theme ii wanna do.
my brain is still in lala land. LOLS!.
anybody cans giif miie suggestions?. haha.
alrite, today aft sch headed to jp wif cj & frens.
go kopitiam to makans.
den ii found out tat pig is at jp!. wiinks* so qiiao.
he cut his haiir!. lyk ah beng siias. so short.
he nv saw miie wearin uniforms b4, den he sae my uniform nan kan lors.
still sae jurong sec uniform nicer, of cus he lyk tat sae lahs. cus jurong sec used
to b his sec sch marhs.
he v.bad , riites?. tat idiot pigg!. lalalas .
butt ii onlis managed to chat wiif him for awhile. sadden.
haiis.

well, susanna nu er is sick. h0pe she get well soon.
gt a chance to chat wif her jus nw. but ii still hab loads & tons of tings to share wif her.
sayang, rest well!. MUMMY misses you.
end here.
nites everybody.

" iim missin you everyday "

hellos. bac to bloggin agns.
tok a little bits bout ytd.
quarrelled wiif Daddy ytd.
he touched my tings w/o my permission.
Den ii shouted bac at him lahs. den we jiu quarrelled le.
i damns sad & hurt, i hate ppl touchin my tings w/o my permissions.
i guess nobody likes. its RUDE!.
i cried . e first person tat was on my mind & tat could console miie is " him "(pigg) .
i noes ii shouldn't call him , but ii din care so much.
all ii wans is to tell him & onliis him.
Din care much, tell him e whole story.
Ran out of e hse at ard 130 a.m , find pig. went hme ard 430.
hopin tat he could console miie. he did console miie. But..
we chat bout other stuff lata on & ii ended upp crying agns.
tears immediately dropped down aft hearin all those hurtful words
he said, it jus couldn't stop. *floods*
hw manii times must u mke miie cry?.
is it v.happy to see miie cry?. why , why , why?
why can't u jus spare a thought for my feelins?
givin up? u wanna mi to gif up?
its easier said than done, do u noe tat?.
im reallis devastated.
all e word said hurts, deeply hurt!. heart pains.
understand hw ii feel cans?.

today : D
today late for sch due to traffic jam.
& its al0t 0f ppl late for sch.
miie & huili still chiong to sch, tot tat we could mke it in time.
but hu noes. still LATE!. arghh.
shld hab tke our own sweet time walk to sch.
met shengli on e way .
reached sch, mr govin ask us to write our name & write e reasons for been late.
den stand in rows of threes , den do head count.
& wtf!. im e first one lors.
so ii shouted '' one '' den continued.
den continued countin but stuck at 13 plus jiu stop liao. cus gt ppl dreamin!.
den ii was told to shout agns. & e same ting happened agns.
and ii've to shout agns & agns. dun0s hw manii time ii've shouted one lors.
ii v.dun lan alreadis. dun0s which bloody idiot, still nt awake!.
ii nv slp e whole nite, but im still awake cans?
den, finally finished counting.
den one by one let govin sign e paper. den he sae my hair all tat, blah blah blah..
den gt to c him aft sch for dentention.
& detentions sucks totally!.
den went bac for class for lessons. ii tot ii'll b v.shagg.
butt ii din, thanks to shengli for entertainin miie. Lols.
im still feelins sad honestly, feels lyk cryin le.
but ii tried to hold my tears back. it's terrible.
all e tings pig have said was always in my mindd.
ii tried to put my concentrations in doin work, in order nt to tink of anythin.
But ii still can't.
sorrys frens, ii still can't stop toleratin myself.
im stubborn.


ii still believe ..
iim still waiting ..

woots!. today is e first day of sch, & im so so so nt used to wakin upp earliis!. so long nv wear sch uniform le. e feelins is so damns weird!.
ii still misses holiday, ok.
sch today is damns damns borin too!. SIGHS.
ii dunch lyk my chemistry teacher, ii request to get him changed!.

tok boutt ytd, met up wiif see theng baobeiis & catherine baobeiis to get sme sch stuff.
as usual iim late!. butt ii met pig at e bus - stop, so surprised to saw him.
its lyk long time nv saw him le.
ii DAMNS miss him honestly ..
haiis.

" e feelin of missin someone is terrible , ii hate tis kinda of feelins honestly!. "

Happy new yr , everii0ne !.

well, a yr has passed. a new yr has started. omg, it's reallis damns fast!.
ii treat is as a new begininng for miie.
sko0l g0nna reopen le, ii've to bucked upp wiif my studiies le. no more slackin le!.
cus tis yr im tkin 'o' lvls le. ii've alreadiis wasted one yr playin, ii dunch wish to continue lyk tis le.
so iif u find tat im slackin, pls gif miie a kn0ck on my head. LOls!.
alrite, it's a brand new yr. ii h0pe everting will b alright throughout e whole yr.
& ii hope to 4get all e sad memoriis ii've, even th0ugh iim still broodin over it.
it's hard to 4get in such a short time, ii still nd time.
but im still waitin, ii'll continue to wait de.

alriite, tok bout ytd countdown bahs.
mit upp wiif huili , chia yee & kelly at bout 5 plus.
we went to jp mac to makan first.
den saw kok wah kor kor & hong zhan.
they oso goins boon lay.(butt ii din saw dem)
den aft tat we headed to boon lay, jing hong came to join us aft tatt.
we met al0t 0f frens there.
it's FUN!.
shan't p0st m0re b0ut ytd, (lazii)*
haas, oh ya. ii saw nicholas there too. lalalas.
thanks ppl for those new yr wishes sent.
& ii f0und out smethin, kelvin kor kor gt gf le. butt he nv tell miie.
ii f0und ytd wen his gf uses his hp to send miie e wishes.
humphs, wadd kinda of kor kor is tis?. bo xim!!
hahas. craps.

alrite. shall endd here le.
nites everybodis.





times proved everitings.

ii've made up my decision .
im nt giving upp .
ii'll continue t0 wait de ...

endless waitingg .

ii dun0s wadd am ii doins larhs .
ii shld b hating eu instead?. butt y am ii still thinkin b0utt eu, still wantin t0 call eu lyk wadd ii alwaes used t0?. perhaps it've alreadis b'cum a habit le. & a habit is difficult t0 kick off. jus liked eu, iif ii ask u t0 kick off ur smokin habit, can eu?.
ii realiis nt used to it, is lyk somethin is missing suddenly. sobbs.
y everting happened so suddenly?
c'mon XUELI , could eu pls jus wake up?. arghh!!
no point hating you lahs, hating you won't make my wound in my heart heal too.
ii jus wish t0 4get everythin, butt hw?. it's difficult.
wadd iif ii sae im nt givin up, ii'll continue to wait?. am ii v.foolish?.
ii reallis dun0s wad im tryin to do lahs. ii reallis v.confused lahs. FUCK la.
everythin is nt e gonna b e same animore. cans ii still ring eu up & chat ?. cans ii still msg u like wadd a fren will do ?. or will eu still msg miie , care for miie as a fren ?. will ii still b able to see u agns ?.
haiis, suan le , suan le. it's impossible le. eu will nv care animore .
dun wish to tink le , e more ii tink , my head pains more .
sobbs ..

"Some people are just not meant to be in your life no matter how much you want them to be.
LOVE is so CoMpLiCaTed. It sux sometimes,Bud it oso brighten up ur lyfe. Ur mere words hab shattered my heart."

'' will eu still b readin tis post?. ''
'' will eu ans all th0se qns?. ''
haiishh ..

WHY?.
why aren't eu e one tellin miie everythin instead?.
why is eddy the one tellin miie?.
BLOODY hell , eddy. why mush eu tell miie.
iif eddy din tell miie, r u plannin nt t0 tell miie?. iim realliis disapp0inted.
d0 eu hw it feels wen eddy t0ld miie b0utt it?. h0nestly, wen he told miie ii dun believe it. u noe?. ii still tink eddy is lyin to miie.
& in e end ii still hab t0 find 0ut e truth MYSELF!?. hw ii wish ii've nv knew e truth.
d0 eu n0es hw hurt am ii nw?. d0 eu n0e e pain im havin nw?. xin realliis hen tong , hen tong!.
d0 eu n0es is lyk somebody stab a knife deep int0 ur heart?. & is nt only ONE stab, is a few stab!!. & e one who has stab tat knife into miie is YOU.
my heart is alreadiis DEAD!. ii've n0 feelins le, is alreadis NUMB. ii no longer n0e wadd's called LOVE le.
din n0es tatt things will turned 0ut t0 b lyk tis.
din expected tat u'll hurt miie in e end too.
din expected tat e pigg tatt ii alwaes used to called is gonna disappeared frm my life.
sobbs..
WHY?. am ii reallis tat BAD to you?. y0u realis gt nth t0 sae t0 miie marhs?.
suan le, frm nw on.. ii won't treat ppl gd animore. wadd's e use 0f treatin ppl gd wen in e end iim e one gettin hurt? im e one sufferin?.
d0 eu n0es aft eu left jus nw, iim cryin all al0ne dere?. ii dun0s wher t0 g0. my mind is LOST.
eu realliis damns cruel.

ii dun0s hw am ii goins to slp 2nite.
hw ii wish somebodiis will gif miie a sleepin pills nw & h0pe ii cans fall aslp.
hw am ii gonna 4get everiting?.
nw ii finally realised hw SILLY ii am. nvm, iim jus tat SILLY larhs.
iim afraid ii'll changed int0 a v.bad, v.bad miie.
iif eu'r readin tis post nw, wadd'll eu d0?. ii n0es, eu'll jus read & act as if nth has happened b4 , riite?. suan le.

THANKS, KELVIN korr korr ferrs being dere f0r miie . thanks for consolin miie everytime wen ii am down .
THANKS, BAOBEIIS CATHERINE too . ii noe eu aren't in a gd mood too todae , but yet eu oso care ferr miie .
THANKS, SEE THENG . for ur consolin too . sorrys din go to e chalet cus ii reallis gt n0 mood . tink ii g0 find eu tml bahs .
THANKS, JIAHUI SIS . sorrys to keep eu worry le . ii n0e eu'r v.worried bout miie . ii'll b fine de .
& thanks those frens hu'r dere fer miie .

" will ii still b able to called u pigg agns ?. will ii still b able to hab eu to cheer miie up wen iim down ?. will ii still .. ii n0es is IMPOSSIBLE le . im jus thinkin too much . do ii reallis means nth to u ma? "

shld ii hate y0u instead?.

I HATE LIARS !!!.

Taken 0n 2312o6










prom nite outFIT

huili & miie

the gals =))

im SICK !. SOBS. mummy came bac frm m'siia le, but she still dun wannas t0k t0 miie. ii alreadiis try t0 t0k t0 her le, butt she still ign0red miie . jus nw ii c0ugh till VOMIT lors, den she saw liiao oso nv sae anithin. wth. haiish, suan le. she wanna t0k t0 miie jiu t0k lahs. dun wans jiu suan le. iim alreadiis v.FANS le.
huili , thanks fers c0min upp jus nw t0 glf miie medicine. reallis appreciate it. see ?. even frens kn0ws hw t0 care. b0ut wadd b0utt parents?. they failed t0 d0 s0.

IM DAMNS DISSAPPOINTED WIIF HIM TOO!.

shld ii realliis tell him hw ii feels ?. & all e stuff all tatt ?. ii realliis damns disapp0inted wiif him siias. he's n0 l0nger carin as wadd he's used t0 b liiaos. messages frm him is gettin lesser & lesser le !!!!!!!!!!!.

" wen eu've fallen f0r a pers0n , eu cans scarificed anythin jus for him " (it's TRUE)
" eu oso won't care wadd other ppl says , cus to you , tat pers0n is PERFECT "
iim craziie OVER you .

BAC t0 BLOGGIN agns =)).
ii changed my blogs songs , tis songs suits my feelings nw.

my heart pains LOaDs nw. realliis hen tong hen tong!. iim cryin frm ytd till nw, tears jus can't st0p fallin d0wn. ii hab never cry so badly b4.
why can't eu jus smetimes spare a th0ught ferr miie b4 eu sae anithin?. dunch eu n0es tatt every single w0rd tatt eu said means al0t t0 miie.
feel tat eu've changed, eu'r nt as caring lyk wadd eu used t0 be le.
jus nw wen ii t0ld eu b0utt wadd happened t0 miie & my mom, u jus listened. haiis. can't eu jus sae smethin t0 c0mf0rt miie marhs?. haiis, suan le.
d0 eu n0es e actual reason tatt ii din wanted t0 went t0 m'siia marhs?. partly is cus is siians lyk wadd ii t0ld eu & partly is cus of ... ... nvm. nw sae le oso n0 use liiaos. is useless le. s0bs. iim n0 l0nger tatt strong XUELI tatt ii used t0 b le ..
ii feels lyk goins t0 e beach nw & sh0ut all my heart ouuttttttttttt !!!!!!!!!...

' eu'll nv knew hw imp0rtant eu'r t0 miie '
' ii jus h0pe eu'll appreciate miie '

it's been awhile since ii last p0sted smethin.
iim bac frm my pri sko0l class chalets, all ii cans sae is FUN !.
ii realliis enj0y it h0nestly & e feelins 0f gettin t0 c pri scho0ls frens agns is great!.
class 0f boon lay garden 6/2 RAWKSS !.
h0pe we will hab tis klnda 0f gatherin agains.

alrite t0k b0utt t0dae.
mit upp wiif HUILI, we went t0 buy our pr0m nite stuff.
chia yee & kelly acc0mpany us al0ng too.
we went t0 far east, ii b0ught a whlte dress & a pair 0f sh0es.
e rest 0f e stuff tink sunday den g0 buy bahs.
OMG!. pr0m nlte stuff is causin miie to BROKE!. haiish..

m0nday gettin back n lvls results le. feel so afraid nw.
dun0s hw's my results, realis dunch wish t0 g0 get it.
tml goins GOD SIS wedding dinner, dun0s wadd out fit shld ii wear.
arghh !.
shall endd here. T.T

ii miisses tat STUPID IDIOTIC PIG PIG !.
alwaes ask u tings, butt ii alwaes get no response frm eu. haiis.

nites every0nes ~

i'll b away for CHALET lata ..
takkaiire everyone.

OUT wiif pig todae in e aftern00n.
finalli saw him t0dae cus ii 3 daes nv saw him le.
online jus nw, a blo0dy idiot t0k to miie.
his e-mail : [[ alwyn2463@hotmail.com ]]
he added miie in msn & wen ii jus sign in to msn , he send miie a NUDGE.
den ii asked him " hu r u " .
he replied miie wiif a '' dunno " .
WTH !. wadd a stupid ans?. den dunch t0k t0 miie in e first place larhs.
idiot, iif tis person adds eu betas dunch accept. it's wastin my time t0kin to tis kinda of idiot!.

my deariie SUSANNA nu er is bac!. WEETS.
ii miisses her ..

takkaiire everyone.

" always on my mindd "

iim pissed off wiif myself larhs.

something's nt right.
iim cryin.
heart feels so pain.
everythin seems to b lyk nt e same animoree.
haiish ..

all ii do is cry.. cry.. & cry.
wen iim sad, ii nv show it out.
jus pretend to b happii iif ii cans.
it's torturin.
sometimes remains silent doesn't seems to be a bad ting too.

thanks kelvin kor kor ferr being dere for miie .

DON"T take miie for granted.

XUELImissespigpig ..

`` ii tink among all e pigs , e fifth one l00ks much more like '' PIG '' so stupid!. hahas. ``
o0ps!. he gonna kill miie , iif he saw tis. lalalas ~

pard0n miie for being bo liiaos, cus ii gt nth to do larhs. LOLs!.

IM BORED!.
shall t0k b0ut wad iim doins nw.
iim readin horoscopes sign for todae. LOLs.
ii gt inflenuced by PIG!.
it's interesting actualliis, lalalas ~

LEO BABY
Daily Overview
December 04, 2006
Yours is one of the most multitalented signs in the zodiac, but being so gifted can also distract you from your true path -- or so you think. Just wait this mood out. There's nothing wrong with being a renaissance person
Sometimes, being unique requires that you be brave -- life isn't always easy for people who don't conform. Today someone in power will be intent on making sure that you parrot the party line. This may be one time when your iconoclasm and your unique perspective could get you the wrong kind of attention. So consider furling your freak flag -- but only temporarily. The ability to get lost in a crowd can be an excellent safety mechanism

Weekly Romantic
12/04/2006 - 12/10/2006
No matter what the weather, this week starts out warm and just keeps getting hotter for you (lucky thing!). Friends and festivities cheer you up as the week begins, and burning the candle at both ends (just a bit!) makes for some very lovely light. Midweek, you can find extra insight into all things love-related, and if you tune into your heart, you'll also know exactly when to make an overture. Then, from Friday through the weekend, your days and nights are custom-made for romance. You're glorious, and only your imagination limits the wonderful things that can happen

sources frm : http://horoscopes.astrology.com

CURRENTLY LISTENTIN TO : DOING IT AGAIN .

my mood nw is damns FOUL ok. ii can't stand wiif my parents aniimore. they'r jus being UNREASONABLE!. ii can't TOLERATE it aniimore!. iim alreadiis SIXTEEN alreadiis, nt a SIX yrs old xiiao meii meii le. why they still care so much?. iim jus lyk all other SIXTEEN yrs old teenager, we all need FREEDOM!. y can't parents jus listen to miie?. y r they so OUTDATED larhs. pls larhs, nw wad century liiaos?. still so OUTDATED, cans they jus go upgrade themselves, for goodness sake!. ii've my own limits de, ok!. dunch ever try my temper larhs. iim still toleratin wiif dem nw, ok. ii tink u all will miie. u all c0uld hab run out frm e hse & nv come back. ii could hab done tis alreadiis ok!. iif ii realiis run out, ii would nv come bac. can't they jus spare some th0ughts fer miie?. ii've a STUBBORN character, ok. ii hated to b order to do tings & being f0rced to do tings which ii dunch lyk!.

tok b0ut my DAD. he's damns damns damns unreasonable larhs. nw wad century liiaos?. DOTE on boys than gals? WTH is this?. alwaes asked miie to give in to my brother. & wen ever is my brother's fault, he would scold mii onliis. & iim alwaes e one kenas nag at!. WTF!. he nt in gd mood jiu vent all his temper on miie?!. pls larhs, iim oso a human being ok, ii oso will hab MOODSWING de lors. smetimes ii realliis w0nder, do he treat miie as his daugther anots?. aren't parents supposed to dote on their children?. iim nt BORN into tis world to get tis kinda of treatment de ok. iif he dun lyk miie den jus sae bahs, thr0w miie awae in e first place. ii rather be a orphang!. ii n0es u all sae he's my father afterall, u all won't understand hw ii feel de larhs.
everybodys n0es hw ii my father treated miie. especially my frens.

nw my mom. ii dunch understand her smetimes. ok, she DOTES on miie m0re than my brother. & whatever tings ii wans, she will try to get for miie. BUT nwadaes she's being unreasonable & ridicul0us!. ii dunch n0es wad's wr0ng wif her larhs. she & her all th0se frens larhs. her frens alwaes inflenuces her wiif stupid & idiotic tactics to deal wiif children & which is all WRONG!. arghh!!!. & ii alwaes hab to gif in to her after all e quarrells?. pls, ii won't gif in to her animore larhs.

hw long do ii hab to tolerate wiif e 2 of dem?. or do ii reallis hab to wait till im 18?. pls larhs, by e time ii will b in mental hospital liiaos larhs. haiishh..

XUELI HEN KE LIANS leiis.
SOMEBODY PLS HELP HER!.

pig bu li wo.
ii misses pig, cans?.
sobbbs..

XUELI nt in a gd mood t0dae.
shall p0st s0me f0t0s b4 talkin b0utt it.











ROARS *

PINCH PINCH *

XUELI MISSES PIG *

REFLECTIONS *

SONGS : open arms

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide Believe what I say
So here I am With open arms
Hoping you'll see What your love means to me
Living without you Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back Turned night into day I need you to stay
So now I come to you
With open arms Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me

todays feeling : weird
feel lyk smethins is missing..
haiishh ..

enjoy tis song bahs.
takkaiire everyone.

iim feels so LOST!. ii lost my way. wadd am ii doin?. ii realliis nd a KNOCK on my head. i reallis dun0s wad's wrong wiif miie. the strong XUELI is gone, nw the XUELI is so weak, she nds supports honestly.
ii feels lyk sleepin & sleepin, so ii won't tink of anithin. haiishh..

ii needed eu e most nw. ii can't imagine wad will life b iif eu left miie alone. PLS, dun ever leave mi alone cans.
smetimes ii realiis wish to n0es wad's on ur mindd. ii n0es eu shld b feelins v.confused nw bahs.
so am ii ..
dunch 4get e promise tat eu gave miie.

`` ii jus wish to have a chance to entered into ur world ``

iim bac to bloggins agns.
kinda of lazii to blog larhs actualliis, butt ii dun wans t0 keep it un-updated.
went to jiahui sis hse to ton on Mon. intend t0 t0n fer onliis 1 dae de, but ii still dunch feels lyk goins hme den her mummy oso ask mi t0 stayed ferr one more dae, den ii told my mummy boutt it. she says ok & even asked mi to stayed fer one wk oso cans. LOls!. tink my mummy is craziie. butt ii din larhs. ton at jiahui hse ii din realiis slp, is lyk onlis slp fer 3-4 hrs onliis. yawns*
ii feels lyk sleepin nw oso.

alrite , tat's b0utt it. lazii to blog more.

ii wans bac e old pig, the old eu.
ii misses e old pig.
haiish..

3 days nv saw dao pig le . sighs* butt nvm, ii ren.
some tings tatt has been said hurts , butt eu din realised it. nvm larhs , wad has been said has alreadiis been said .
messages gettin lesser & lesser. (nvm, ii cans understand). im nt tat unreasonable larhs.

haiishh .. haiishh ..
dun0s wad im tinkin tis fewdaes .
ppl tat i dun realis n0es in msn are irritatin miie.
pls jus leave miie ALONE !